Watching dazzag nonchalantly WD another huge win from Bonanza almost made me lose it and pull the full $127,815.23 out of my savings, he's complaining about losing $100 not five minutes after pulling $7k. Feed your God damn cat. God damn it I hadn't taken drugs in probably two years and now that I'm not gambling I have to worry about that again? Aggggh
Yeah, the 7K was a total exception to what happened before. I lost about 24k in 2017, 2.5k in 2018 and am marginally up in 2019. I find my losses are relative to my play. I am saving to buy a second house outright so am reluctant to waste much making YT videos now. You must also appreciate I have had 2-4 losing videos between a lot of the Bonanza winning ones.
I'd like to play more but don't for a few reasons:
1. Primarily, I HATE losing, even 50 quid, irrespective of how much I could actually afford to spunk. The 24k lost in 2017 really pissed me off, although it was over a whole year and hundreds of sessions plus on a monthly basis I didn't really notice it - when I did my accounts that following April I was shocked at how much it all came to and annoyed with myself because I like to keep perspective on things. Just a couple of years before I had to go out and work for not much more than 2k a month in my arse pocket and it upset me at how detached I had become from reality. Not as detached as the streamers taking in and equally spunking far more it seems. It'll catch up with them all in the end. markmiwurdz….
2018 was subsidized by the insane run I had on Bonanza at Casumo - alas those videos were all killed in the YT purge last year and I actually deposited MORE in 2018 than in 2017 when I had the 24k net losses!
2. Work - I have my fingers in a lot of pies and it's hard to make 4-6 hours nowadays for playing and videoing.
3. Boredom - I spend ages reviewing and playing demo games, 90% of which are utter shite. My eyes glaze over, my mind goes blank and I just want to do something else more constructive.
4. Motive - I don't need to win money on slots, any more than I need to lose money on them.
I have also gotten to 'know'
BTG slots and what to expect long term from repeated play. Over time they take a lot fewer net losses for the same amount of deposits than that bastard Rhino and Twin Spin did! I'm not sure why, it must be the med-long term volatility given that the RTP's are broadly the same, but I definitely get more playtime and fun for my dollar. That's why when I do play nowadays I stick to them, not losing discipline and chucking it to the Rapist or other money-suckers.
You mate are in an enviable position compared to most problem gamblers as you have savings and haven't the long-term catastrophic financial and guilt issues many have. 10 weeks is a superb performance especially as you seem to have faced some serious urges and temptations and beaten them away. Every day adds to the time you are an ex-gambler and removes you farther away from the habit. I know exactly what you meant when you said you were 'nearly happy one day and forgot' in an earlier post. That happens to me on the odd day too, then the missus comes home and the grim reality hits me, so I look for escapism. As long as your escapism isn't gambling mate, you're winning.
Lastly, EVERY bugger on here posting winner screenies and videos or YT bloggers, streamers etc. are significantly down on slots. ALL OF THEM! No exceptions. Ignore the screenshots, which are just a temporary blip on players' accumulative losses as are the winning videos. Ignore the 'I'm 3k up this year' statements, because they are down overall. 95% of what you see is a small facet of slotting, shown because it's entertaining, far more so than endless losing videos or complaints about losses. It's literally a case of 'you only sing when you're winning'.
No man or poster here will lie on their deathbed thinking 'I wish I had gambled more'. The opposite.
you need some more Schadenfreude type ones, they're getting as rare as gold dust these days just when a lot of 'normal' players are getting roasted by the high variance games
