Welp, that's me done!

[Bloatgoat]

If you dislike being disturbd, try going early instead of late. Most bands or entertainment in the broadest sense start at evening/nightly hours. In Holland we have 24/7 landbased casino's, hop in at 03:00 AM, have your breakfast and play away.

 

[JohnSnow]

This is my advise as a gambler who started at 16 and is 27 now. Look you are never gonna get rich or hit that jackpot. Yes it's all random but if you are a problem gambler it doesn't matter how much you win. In the past 4 months I won about 4k in caddel casino's, almost 3k at slottyvegas, 1k in leovegas and just two days ago again 900 euro which I lost and cashed out 400. My point is that I have almost lost all the profits I have made already. Deposited 30 euro at 21prive and won 900 but was stupid enough to play till 400 euro. I have lost at least 150k of my own money and offcourse all the winnings. Gambling is if you are lucky or not. So you only play with a LITTLE bit of your own money on monthly bases maybe 5%. In my opinion anything more you are a problem gambler who spends way too much slotting like me. I was into Bitcoin in 2011. Always had a gambling problem and you don't want to know how much I have spend in Bitcoin casino's with low prices. I sold many other alts in order to play on casino's so I would say my total loss is actually in the tens of millions. Still I enjoy slotting when I'm normal. When I think about the bad sessions I know that something is very off. After a bad session with a deposit of 100 euro I would keep depositing thousands the same day, like seriously... Why? Something is very wrong with our minds as problem gamblers. The sooner we accept this the sooner we can work on it and say no more. It took me too long and still struggling with it. In a winning session you can make 20k out of 100 bucks like I did once. Or you can lose 20k after a 100 bucks deposit more easily, also like I did and more than once.

 

[Bloatgoat]

Really, read what discipline actually is. Stop hitting cancel withdrawl. Stick with it.

 

[Jono777]

I find I spend MORE time online (12-20 hrs sessions) than land based because it's easy and less distractions, whereas at land based, there's bands, and people in your way, a bar and foodcourt, restaurants, etc

Wow, just WOW!

Very surprised to read that lol. I'm bored after 2-3 hours at the very most, even when winning and the re-triggers are pouring in left, right and centre

 

[Jasminebed]

I can believe it. I can have a hard time dragging myself away when I am in demo mode on a slot.

Something I found pretty helpful with changing my smoking was writing down how I was feeling when I had an urge that lasted more than a fleeting second, and maybe what triggered it. Just get some kind of journal app for your phone or other device, or go old-school with a notebook. It is not vital you always do, but it tends to lend a lot of insight.

 

[Gaz237]

The cat in my Avatar saved my butt a few times at the land casino. All of a sudden I'd say to myself man, I have to get back he's probably starving and feeling abandoned.

I think it would take a different kind of Pussy, to get most players to leave a casino.

 

[TheresNoDInBonanza]

14 weeks. Very nearly went to the pub today, I'd decided to definitely go at least three times throughout the day but didn't.
yay.

 

[SlotGrinder]

I know that AA rewards you with chips. Most of the advice I've read about quitting smoking, and all the apps, keep track, encourage you to set rewards. A friend's mom put what a pack of smokes cost every day in a jar, upping the amount as the prices rose. She did that for over 30 years, lived well into her 80s.

I didn't take that approach. I'm somewhere around 6 months now I think. My own choice was to do my best not to think of how many days or weeks I had been smoke-free, but just think of it as something I don't do any more.

I think of myself as a gambler. I think of myself as a mother, and a friend. An adventersome eater and a good cook. I try to look at no longer smoking as something I have gained, not something I have lost. I'm not feeling all the miraculous health benefits that are touted. My food has always tasted good, and I never developed that smokers' cough. I'm not even saving any money, as the nicotine replacement costs more than I was spending on smokes. But I'm not doing further damage, and that is a very good thing.

I know I was bummed about not feeling more benefits from doing something that has been so hard. I suspect you might be too.

Sometimes celebrations are not just for us however, but those who are proud of us. I bet you did something to mark your child's first birthday. That was for you and other people, a one-year old will not remember.

You will find your own path. I don't have to tell you opiates are not it.

Periods when I either can't afford to gamble, or want to cut back, I usually play a lot of computer games.

Yeh 100% relate to this from giving up smoking . Now smoking is something I used to do . There's no amazing life changing benefits because you gave up smoking , well all you're really doing is reversing a harmful activity and getting back to "normal" But actually I have tried smoking again occasionally and I can have one cigarette but if I have a second I start to get a sick feeling in my stomach and I remember how it was when I used to smoke regularly. The health issues , the constant need for nicotine and the general dirtiness of it . Also , not being able to do things without stopping for a cigarette halfway through . One story I read was a guy was at his daughter's wedding and halfway through the sermon all he's really thinking is I wish they'd hurry up so I could nip outside for a smoke.. that's really sad

I feel for you OP trying to give up gambling but you know what you are craving is not reality . Most times I gamble it's not much fun . Sitting there waiting ages for a bonus , watching your deposit go down , then hitting 3 scatters and you're halfway through the bonus and no sticky wilds/multi has appeared and you know its going to be a shit one . End up with 20x which you lose again within 50 spins then go bust . It's not fun at all . You just feel like you threw away money
And then when you get some big hit finally (after dumping a lot of money in to casinos for days/weeks) you are happy for like 10 minutes but then you go for more and it goes downhill . Or you withdraw and feel good for a while but then you deposit on another casino and another and before you know it most of the money is gone and you feel even worse because you had that nice win and you didn't stop you just kept going and lost it .
If you're a gambling addict there's really no benefit to gambling because you will never win for long . You're just addicted to the process but ultimately it gets you nowhere , it's just a way of wasting your time and escaping reality

So every time you feel like you'd do anything to have a gamble just remember that it's really not how you imagine it to be . Sure you might play 1 session and have a good time but after that you will play another and another and another and most of those sessions will suck and you'll feel bad and lose lots of money . It's not worth it

I'd probably get shouted at for even recommending this but I feel like putting so much pressure on yourself for total abstinence can make the mind reject and yearn for it . Like I said with smoking , after I felt like I had given up properly I allowed myself a cigarette (lol) It didn't really do much for me tbh . But after I had that first one I started craving another one . Halfway through the next I stamped it out and threw away the packet because I started to really feel all the negative emotions of being addicted to cigarettes . After that I was more happy with my decision to quit.
Not saying you're ready for that yet (I don't think you are) but at least allow yourself the possibility that one day you probably will be able to have a little gamble and think well that was shit and move on with your life .. I hope so

 

[TheresNoDInBonanza]

Thanks @SlotGrinder - good post and good points.

 

[greylady]

Thanks @SlotGrinder - good post and good points.

You are doing just great so hang in there, you are doing better than I would have originally given you credit for so well done for that

 

[Bloatgoat]

Yssions will suck and you'll feel bad and lose lots of money . It's not worth it

I'd probably get shouted at for even recommending this

Dude, give 'm the middle finger. Seriously. You know what i really hate in this business? The 'influencers' in this business, trying to give this a good vibe and that gambling is cool and stuff. Well it's not. It's sweating and having alot of struggle getting ahead, on top, or at least a worthwile happy end. The reality is far from how it is being presented.

@TheresNoDInBonanza Keep it up man. Remember that the craving for going into a casino, pub or online business, will slowly dissapear over time. Really, give it another 2 weeks, and see how you feel then compared to today. I promis you it will be alot better!

 

[TheresNoDInBonanza]

Does anyone have some videos of heartbreaking gambling losses? I'm in the mood to watch gambling and that's probably the best sort.

E: for me to watch

 

[goatwack]

They say Schadenfreude heals the soul

 

[TheresNoDInBonanza]

They say Schadenfreude heals the soul

Those crazy Germans will say anything! Truly goatwack you have a Backpfeifengesicht!

 

[nutnut]

Does anyone have some videos of heartbreaking gambling losses? I'm in the mood to watch gambling and that's probably the best sort.

E: for me to watch

No one records those, thats the reality of slotting and the industry doesn't want those sort of videos. Just slot players aka streamers spinning £20 a go and hitting big wins...

 

[goatwack]

No one records those, thats the reality of slotting and the industry doesn't want those sort of videos. Just slot players aka streamers spinning £20 a go and hitting big wins...

You sound worse than me!

What's Nonanza done to you?!?

 

[TheresNoDInBonanza]

Well that's four months.
Longest I've gone in eighteen years and on aggregate it may just tip the balance to me not gambling for more than half my life.
Really wish I could say I was feeling better about it because I always took solace in reading about others quitting and their lives improving but I'm still just thinking about it a lot, constantly talking myself out of it.
I know that a fly on the wall would say I'm doing so much better now but it still doesn't feel that way.
Feels like I've traded in a life of candy for a life of steamed veggies (if you knew me that would be funny because I actually like veggies and loathe sugar, but you take my point) - I know I'm doing better for those around me and am a more socially acceptable citizen, but damn where are the three scatters.

 

[dionysus]

Feels like I've traded in a life of candy for a life of steamed veggies .

But that isn't a negative. It's the difference between what's good for us and what's not, the learning curve every adult faces as we mature as people.
The difference here perhaps, whereas some adults can have a bit of sugar and treats in a balanced meal, a diabetic/addict can't
does it suck? Probably? Is a lifestyle change always bad? No
Try to look for the UPSIDES, not the downsides

 

[SpinUk]

Does anyone have some videos of heartbreaking gambling losses? I'm in the mood to watch gambling and that's probably the best sort.

E: for me to watch

Watch rocknrollas gambling last few - balance upto ten or so grand and then spunks it on roulette in five minutes.

 

[slotplayer]

Well that's four months.
Longest I've gone in eighteen years and on aggregate it may just tip the balance to me not gambling for more than half my life.
Really wish I could say I was feeling better about it because I always took solace in reading about others quitting and their lives improving but I'm still just thinking about it a lot, constantly talking myself out of it.
I know that a fly on the wall would say I'm doing so much better now but it still doesn't feel that way.
Feels like I've traded in a life of candy for a life of steamed veggies (if you knew me that would be funny because I actually like veggies and loathe sugar, but you take my point) - I know I'm doing better for those around me and am a more socially acceptable citizen, but damn where are the three scatters.

I mentioned it before, its about the record now, concentrate on that, tell yourself you don't want to ruin your record.

 

[Bloatgoat]

Watch rocknrollas gambling last few - balance upto ten or so grand and then spunks it on roulette in five minutes.

Yes, this guy ^ 100% There's a chilli loss video of him somewhere where buying bonusses one after another just completely fails. After that he ended his stream and that is just the hard reality of slots these days. 5% wins, the rest makes losses.

The thing with streamers is; they are streaming and often playing with bonus wagers to keep the stream up as long as possible. When some streamer hits big, it often stimulates other players to play as well. Hence why they favour in local casino's to put the more lose slots upfront for everyone to see.

I mean who does'nt want to win. But if you signup as a affilate for a streamer, guaranteed that 40 to 60% of every loss of you is going to that streamer. Dont listen to these people man. If anyone in their life had a goldmine they sure aint going to share this public in youtube.

Stay away from the free spins, no deposit plays and all that bullshit. It's just to lure and suck you in.

 

[TheresNoDInBonanza]

Well.. I done messed up.
Wife is away for a few days and I'd been good but it eventually got too much I guess.. I thought I'd got through the day but I stupidly watched a youtube of gambling streamers and noticed one showed an aussie casino that was apparently still operating, signed up and lost about $150 which is nothing, Had a whole bunch of wins of course (had wagering).. up all night, feeling so worthless and crappy today.
Closed the account with the new mob (but not before they sold my phone number to spammers, had about 15 calls today).

 

[Bloatgoat]

For the sake of my account status i'll not write down what i think. Nobody in here can help you if your unable to resist gambling while being alone.

 

[nutnut]

addiction is awful who knows one day that could be me but I can never excuse gambling being above your family.

you have so much more than most people in life but you sit here typing about missing slots and gambling like that is your family.

sorry to sound harsh but you need to get a grip, get serious help and stop sulking and feeling sorry because you cant waste money.

spend those savings on a holiday. sadly I don't think you want to stop, you just love the idea of trying and sulking over it and sulking more when you relapse.

I'm being harsh as though not addiction I wasted 10yrs of my life stuck in a house feeling sorry for myself, all along I sulked how I was lonely fat and not happy yet was only me keeping myself that way. dont make same mistake. get off this forum and stop watching crappy youtube videos and go enjoy your life.

 

[pereblue]

@TheresNoDInBonanza remember you could join the group 'On a break':


Located in your profile page: https://www.casinomeister.com/forums/account/join-user-groups

On the other hand, our Site will be upgraded soon and other Areas no-gambling related will be opened ( Social Groups), perhaps we could find them some Groups where share your hobbies, knowledge, etc...