Relapsingmoron
Non-Gambler
- Joined
- Nov 30, 2019
- Location
- Somerset uk
Hi guys, It’s been an absolutely hellish week for me. I have to say I caved into my weaknesses last week and gambled about two months wages in around about 5 hours. There is a build up of how I got to this point which is embarrassing.
From being old enough to gamble I used slot machines in pubs and bookies etc. Then the internet came. I discovered online casinos in around 2002.I gradually got sucked into the world of online and chased bets over and over. Credit cards and loans were so easy to obtain I was like a kid in a sweet shop until the lending stopped. I even knew quite early on the way to a full financial meltdown down that I could voluntarily declare myself bankrupt when the money lending stopped. Everything was a huge secret until I had to tell my family,friends,partner and colleagues. What I had done. I left myself with nothing. Not even the money to buy Christmas presents. Not long after Christmas I sought to declare personal bankruptcy for around 56000 and had to meet the official receiver who agreed I afford £60 monthly for 3 years. And that was it. Being bankrupt helped me out financially however it ruined my relationship with the most amazing person who I still think about today. I lost the trust of my employer and was given the sack, I turned to drugs and alcoholic binges to numb the pain. Overtime things got easier and my life moved on. I still gambled but only small amounts. I was able to open a basic bank account with a visa electron debit card. Ever now and then I’d have a flutter. Life moved on and I met my partner I am with today. I told her all about my gambling habit and bankruptcy but she stuck by me. A year or two into our relationship she discovered I had been gambling and was totally devastated. She threatened to leave me if I ever did it again and I agreed that from that point all of my income would be paid directly into her bank account. I was great full she forgave me and the system of her just giving money when I needed it worked well but not enough for me to still slyly on a rare occasion gamble.
recently my work circumstances have changed, I am now self employed and lots of money is coming into my accounts weekly, I have slipped heavily into gambling and am now currently maxed out all credit cards, nothing in my bank and a huge tax bill to pay by the end a January.
At the beginning of my self employment I gambled immediately and lost a lot of money so I decided to register with Gamstop. That is an amazing tool and has stopped me in my tracks to gamble. That is until I discovered non Gamstop casinos. I wasted about £1500 before realising these site are 100%scams. So the next thing I did to get a gamble fix was to bypass my registered Gamstop details by providing a non matching email and incorrectly spelling my name at the registration of a new account at a well known casino. Hey presto! I was in! I lost everything. I am such a fool for doing all of the things I have. I am just stuck into knowing WTF to do next. I have opened a dispute with the casino but don’t think they will refund me although I was self excluded. I have also experimented with how Gamstop works and have interesting results which I will post about in the next post
From being old enough to gamble I used slot machines in pubs and bookies etc. Then the internet came. I discovered online casinos in around 2002.I gradually got sucked into the world of online and chased bets over and over. Credit cards and loans were so easy to obtain I was like a kid in a sweet shop until the lending stopped. I even knew quite early on the way to a full financial meltdown down that I could voluntarily declare myself bankrupt when the money lending stopped. Everything was a huge secret until I had to tell my family,friends,partner and colleagues. What I had done. I left myself with nothing. Not even the money to buy Christmas presents. Not long after Christmas I sought to declare personal bankruptcy for around 56000 and had to meet the official receiver who agreed I afford £60 monthly for 3 years. And that was it. Being bankrupt helped me out financially however it ruined my relationship with the most amazing person who I still think about today. I lost the trust of my employer and was given the sack, I turned to drugs and alcoholic binges to numb the pain. Overtime things got easier and my life moved on. I still gambled but only small amounts. I was able to open a basic bank account with a visa electron debit card. Ever now and then I’d have a flutter. Life moved on and I met my partner I am with today. I told her all about my gambling habit and bankruptcy but she stuck by me. A year or two into our relationship she discovered I had been gambling and was totally devastated. She threatened to leave me if I ever did it again and I agreed that from that point all of my income would be paid directly into her bank account. I was great full she forgave me and the system of her just giving money when I needed it worked well but not enough for me to still slyly on a rare occasion gamble.
recently my work circumstances have changed, I am now self employed and lots of money is coming into my accounts weekly, I have slipped heavily into gambling and am now currently maxed out all credit cards, nothing in my bank and a huge tax bill to pay by the end a January.
At the beginning of my self employment I gambled immediately and lost a lot of money so I decided to register with Gamstop. That is an amazing tool and has stopped me in my tracks to gamble. That is until I discovered non Gamstop casinos. I wasted about £1500 before realising these site are 100%scams. So the next thing I did to get a gamble fix was to bypass my registered Gamstop details by providing a non matching email and incorrectly spelling my name at the registration of a new account at a well known casino. Hey presto! I was in! I lost everything. I am such a fool for doing all of the things I have. I am just stuck into knowing WTF to do next. I have opened a dispute with the casino but don’t think they will refund me although I was self excluded. I have also experimented with how Gamstop works and have interesting results which I will post about in the next post
