Welp, that's me done!

[TheresNoDInBonanza]

30 hours no gambling.
Doesn't sound like much but I'm sure a few here can appreciate it.

Was listening to music for distraction while working and Jimmy Hendrix came on which reminded me of the slot.

Didn't close the credit card because I promised the wife a shopping spree at the the end of the month with it.

Pretty sure that won't impact the cause- the way I closed those casino accounts they won't be opening them again (told them that if they ever did I'd be charging back deposits).

 

[TheresNoDInBonanza]

Well that's a week.
Was feeling pretty good for two or three days but feeling pretty run down the last few.
To be expected I suppose.

 

[Harry_BKK]

Yep, that will be like that for some time.

Stay strong!

 

[KasinoKing]

Well that's a week.
Was feeling pretty good for two or three days but feeling pretty run down the last few.
To be expected I suppose.

Sounds like me...
I've given up booze for January - was OK the first 7-10 days, but now I'm gasping to be honest!
But I wont give in, I'm gonna make it

Stay strong my friend and always remember WHY you're doing this - for yourself and more importantly, for your family

KK

 

[Jasminebed]

Told you I would be here cheering for you. Most things that are worthwhile are not easy.

Think I need a bit of a break myself. No Cuba this winter, and it has been over a year from a true break.

My health is not optimal, and certain things take me longer than they used to. I am feeling like I need a break to get my time back more than anything.

 

[TheresNoDInBonanza]

Didn't quite make three weeks. Unexpected cash, tried to turn it down four times. Only $300 at the local pub. But still disappointing.

 

[LoopsterAU]

Local pubs are the worst, even my mate who's a black member at crown gets completely cleaned out 95% of the time. I have seen him hit $50 n $100 spins in front of me when hes up a bit heaps of times, the best session he had was hitting a peak of 10k multiple times when he was in the session session hitting $50 bets for multiple hours, could never get past it. If I did even 1/10 of the deposits n money he has put through crown n the same type of bet sizes online (i test them out regularly if i'm on a winning session n n want try aim big) I can pretty much guarantee I would have at least a few 20 - 30k withdrawals but since the new law came in 2017 and Packer realized his main threats like MG are more or less gone and a lot of people would be back because companies like RTG are just as hard if not worse the win than the local casino, they know they can turn their percentages back down n get away with it, everyone both at the local pubs n casinos in Australia gets completely robbed n the government doesn't care cos its about about the tax to them.

 

[Jono777]

Didn't quite make three weeks. Unexpected cash, tried to turn it down four times. Only $300 at the local pub. But still disappointing.

its good that you've been honest though and posted this slip up. Shows good progress

 

[TheresNoDInBonanza]

well that's a week since the last cock up. I put my last casino account on cooldown for 180 days... just couldn't bring myself to permanently close it since I'm pretty sure it's the last decent casino available and I hate to think of the shitholes I'd have to venture to if I ever weaken again.. if.. when... but 180 days I'd be pretty happy with.
Well here we go again, attempt #221!

 

[dionysus]

well that's a week since the last cock up. I put my last casino account on cooldown for 180 days... just couldn't bring myself to permanently close it since I'm pretty sure it's the last decent casino available and I hate to think of the shitholes I'd have to venture to if I ever weaken again.. if.. when... but 180 days I'd be pretty happy with.
Well here we go again, attempt #221!

but that sounds like youre intentionally preparing yourself to fail - it's like a crack addict saying, I'm done, but I'm just gonna keep this little baggie here in the drawer just in case
I mean, you either intend to STAY quit or you aren't. You pretty much stated you really only plan on pausing. Maybe. Or not.

It's your life, but I don't grasp the logic of leaving yourself an out.

 

[TheresNoDInBonanza]

but that sounds like youre intentionally preparing yourself to fail - it's like a crack addict saying, I'm done, but I'm just gonna keep this little baggie here in the drawer just in case
I mean, you either intend to STAY quit or you aren't. You pretty much stated you really only plan on pausing. Maybe. Or not.

It's your life, but I don't grasp the logic of leaving yourself an out.

It was the more sensible option than leaving the account open, which I've been sorely tempted to do this last week. Yes I wasn't strong enough to close the last door entirely, but locking it up for 180 days is a good start, I think.

 

[dionysus]

More sensible than leaving it open, yes..more sensible still to shut it right down, no?

 

[Jono777]

Do or do not, there is no try!

 

[Aryol]

It was the more sensible option than leaving the account open, which I've been sorely tempted to do this last week. Yes I wasn't strong enough to close the last door entirely, but locking it up for 180 days is a good start, I think.

I know what you maybe think and feel, but from the psychological view, the chance to fall back is extremely increased if you do not start to quit gambling "permanent" in your brain. Because our brain takes cool-offs, ... often as a punishment. If the "punishment" is over you are tempted to play again. This can lead to many different situations, especially "luck" will decide where you go:

- Games paying nothing: You will lose much money
- Games paying decent: You will probably end the day with 0 € loss or a bit profit
- Games paying good: You will get addicted more than before and maybe even lose a big win on that day which will tilt you

It is always like this. I was always like this: 90 % dead spins, I deposit again - if this happens again I go crazy. It took me a lot of effort to reduce this behavior to a normal state. It never cost me my entire money, but there were a few days I deposited more than I wanted and it felt bad. And if you fall back and no matter if u start good or bad, in the end you will regret it if you can not handle the feeling of "losing".

Most gamblers playing to get money, that is the first rank in our brain and the second one is fun/adrenaline. Taking the risk, sweating while betting, ... our body gets nearly an orgasm when we play. If you want to quit, search for something to replace it - there are many ways to get out. The first steps are really hard and there will be always days where you think "Should I try again?", but the more time you did not gamble - the stronger you get. If you fall back you lose the whole progress you made until that.

If you want to keep playing that's fine, but try to make gamble a part of your life and not construct your life around gambling. I wish you (really!) the best, do your choices wisely.

 

[mariafbb]

Didn't quite make three weeks. Unexpected cash, tried to turn it down four times. Only $300 at the local pub. But still disappointing.

you are showing all the signs of an addict.
if you want the best advice you can get : go get proffesional help. ASAP
and go join support groups - and there you can hear stories of people losing everything because of gambling.might change your perspective .
it's a an addiction and as any addiction without proffesional help your chances getting better by yourslef, by reading your posts, are very slim.
we are here for you if you need direction or where to seek help
all the best to you

 

[TheresNoDInBonanza]

closed up my bank account today, so there's no way to deposit and play now except at land based places i'm not barred from.

 

[aceking123]

well done D good going thats the way forward )

 

[Harry_BKK]

closed up my bank account today, so there's no way to deposit and play now except at land based places i'm not barred from.

Have to say that doing that is one of the most important step to get you in the right direction. So well done!

Keep going!

 

[NeverLucky]

closed up my bank account today, so there's no way to deposit and play now except at land based places i'm not barred from.

Stay strong, i believe im speaking for everyone when i say we are rooting for you

Every deposit not made is a win!

 

[dionysus]

I'm glad you take our concern on board even if it does come across as nagging
We're all rooting for you
*\O/*

 

[TheresNoDInBonanza]

I'm glad you take our concern on board even if it does come across as nagging
We're all rooting for you
*\O/*

Well the nagging worked - I told the last remaining casino to close the account for good.

I'm now adrift on a sea of misery with no lifeboats in sight..

But at least my kids will have a nest egg!

 

[Harry_BKK]

Well the nagging worked - I told the last remaining casino to close the account for good.

I'm now adrift on a sea of misery with no lifeboats in sight..

But at least my kids will have a nest egg!

Keep the nest, and forget about the rest!

Well done!

 

[slotplayer]

Well the nagging worked - I told the last remaining casino to close the account for good.

I'm now adrift on a sea of misery with no lifeboats in sight..

But at least my kids will have a nest egg!

oh contraire, the gambling was the sea of misery, the kids and nest egg are the lifeboat.

 

[TheresNoDInBonanza]

5 weeks and a day. 1 stuff up couple weeks ago. Not feeling particularly good about it. Feels like there's absolutely nothing I want to do, only things that need to be done. Sleep sucks, sick all the time, not even enjoying things I used to at least a bit while gambling like movies, games, sex, swimming etc.

 

[sufferinsilence]

Hang in there. Forget about that 1 minor mistake and count all the days you made it through!