Thinking of going all in?

[dionysus]

A loss like that is devastating.
But if nothing else, a learning moment, as trite as that may seem.
There's much in life to live for even if you can't see it today.

Find a new hobby to dive into and attack it with zeal. Spend all that energy into something postitive and it might surprise you what you'll walk away with.

 

[neon claws]

Find a new hobby to dive into and attack it with zeal. Spend all that energy into something postitive and it might surprise you what you'll walk away with.

I wish I had energy.
It's sapped. Every day I wake up praying for death, literally thinking about ways to kill myself from morning to night and then the kids run in at 5am through 9pm and I have to pretend to be happy about it because I know I'm only miserable because my dad wasn't able to fake it as well. I have hobbies but I have no time for them because the wife needs to go work and these days we need to support that. So I go through my day hating every moment and sacrificing and paying for everything and get no thanks but rather scorn for not enjoying my lot in life.

 

[philderby]

Sobering thread this

 

[neilw]

I wish I had energy.
It's sapped. Every day I wake up praying for death, literally thinking about ways to kill myself from morning to night and then the kids run in at 5am through 9pm and I have to pretend to be happy about it because I know I'm only miserable because my dad wasn't able to fake it as well. I have hobbies but I have no time for them because the wife needs to go work and these days we need to support that. So I go through my day hating every moment and sacrificing and paying for everything and get no thanks but rather scorn for not enjoying my lot in life.

My advice would be to go and have a chat with your doctor - let him/her know how you're feeling - they will be able to get the support you need. You've done the hard bit in admitting you have an issue, so please seek some assistance. Trust me, I've been where you are mentally and there is help out there if you're happy to accept it. Don't try and manage this on your own.

 

[neon claws]

My advice would be to go and have a chat with your doctor - let him/her know how you're feeling - they will be able to get the support you need. You've done the hard bit in admitting you have an issue, so please seek some assistance. Trust me, I've been where you are mentally and there is help out there if you're happy to accept it. Don't try and manage this on your own.

Glad you found a good doctor. The dozen or so shrinks I've seen haven't been able to do shit.
I just lost the last of my savings.
I'm going to take the last $3k in my card and just drive, dunno where.
Adios

 

[neon claws]

That seemed like too much trouble so I just took a scalpel to my wrist instead.
Turns out going deep enough really hurts. Took about six attempts.
Kids woke up and wife found me soaked in blood. Nothing arterial. bandaged up now.
Still have $3k left so all hope is not lost. Don't think I can win it back anymore.

 

[deleted20230517]

Someone call the police or at least a professional. This is beyond. You need help, sir. @Casinomeister

You could have saved yourself from all this, if you acted upon the first day you created this thread, by cutting the access to your funds. You obviously are no longer in control of your gambling and you need a time-out. A serious time-out. One led by a professional. Your a harm to your family right now as it can be traumatising to your own kids.

@neon claws - i really hope the best for you but for now it's best you seek immediate help. Quit lurking on this forum, call someone, call a professional, be taken for a few days out to get your mind straight. Do whatever it takes, but stop this frigging train your on.

 

[shadow123]

Hoping what has been posted isnt real,if it is you need urgent help,whatever bad place you are in please think of others
and how what you are doing is going to impact on their lives.

 

[deleted20230517]

Crap, if your on a mission to wreck yourself, at least try to keep your wife and / or kids out of this. They dont have to grow up with a traumatized experience of dad going through hell back and forth. If you for fuck sake please seek help for your ongoing problem, ill and lots of others promise you to make work out of these fake streamers imposing a reckless and financial zero loss gambling on the internet.

I hate 'm just as you hate them for imposing something very unlikely. And personally those who gain or pray on other weaks among us shall be burned to the end of the internet in my opinion. Whatever it is your going through, just remember the sun will be shining another day and there's always a sollution for whatever your battling. Just stay of the drink(s) or other funky shit that influences your mind right now.

 

[TimArmstrong]

Take a step back and realise money is just a number. If you can pay your bills for next month its ok. You have your kids and wife, that's what matters. Block yourself from all gambling. Deep breaths and you can overcome this!

 

[andysbetting1187]

That seemed like too much trouble so I just took a scalpel to my wrist instead.
Turns out going deep enough really hurts. Took about six attempts.
Kids woke up and wife found me soaked in blood. Nothing arterial. bandaged up now.
Still have $3k left so all hope is not lost. Don't think I can win it back anymore.

Honestly mate please go an get help. I had a swingy gambling session today and took stock of what i have. It might be hard with the Mrs working and having kids, but don't forget that while you are feeling down about your reality, what you have is a dream for some people. I know a lot of people who would love to have the Mrs/2 kids lifestyle - you are a lot better off than you think you are.

Whatever you decide to do, please do not put your self in a position where the kids find you covered in blood (or worse) as that will seriously affect them growing up. I hope you get the help you need.

 

[The Dude]

That seemed like too much trouble so I just took a scalpel to my wrist instead.
Turns out going deep enough really hurts. Took about six attempts.
Kids woke up and wife found me soaked in blood. Nothing arterial. bandaged up now.
Still have $3k left so all hope is not lost. Don't think I can win it back anymore.

I hope you're not winding us up. If you are truly bandaged up, and your wife is there - please either you or your wife, or both call 131114 NOW!

Stop posting and get help please.

 

[Video_Poker_Pro]

This is just sad, get help now!!!

 

[slot_zombie]

I wish I had energy.
It's sapped. Every day I wake up praying for death, literally thinking about ways to kill myself from morning to night and then the kids run in at 5am through 9pm and I have to pretend to be happy about it because I know I'm only miserable because my dad wasn't able to fake it as well. I have hobbies but I have no time for them because the wife needs to go work and these days we need to support that. So I go through my day hating every moment and sacrificing and paying for everything and get no thanks but rather scorn for not enjoying my lot in life.

Taking what you posted in this thread as all true, just think about it for a minute. You had 200k in Ethereum. 200k.

Now, while mental heath issues are serious, they can be sorted out with the right medication and/or therapy. You clearly have a lot of savvy to have built up that much money in crypto, so why not get the help you need then set about rebuilding that money again? That will keep your mind occupied. Except this time put the controls in place to prevent you going on another blowout. Discover the joy of low-rolling and trying to turn $100 into $500. Bigger stakes just lead to mega stress. Get that help.

 

[deleted20230517]

A gambling addiction is a "true" disease. Just like a heroin or alcohol addict, the need for that fix will always be there. The thing is you either fully quit, and live without it as much as you can, or you accept it that your a (compulsive) gambler, and you know your limits.

Your not going to quit while, still active on forums, watching winning video's, or searching for gambling related shit other then how to discipline more on resisting gambling. I think the industry takes a far too easy of a approach really as a gambling addiction is a true developing disease really.

Copy some personality disorders with that, alcohol abuse and you got the perfect recepy for disaster waiting to happen. Frankly a relation of me that paid me for my services halfway 'cancelled' it and started to speak about having 90k of debts, was fired from his job and coud'nt proceed with the project anymore. He did'nt wanted to tell on how exactly he got the 90k debt in barely a year, but i'm pretty close to know it is a gambling addiction. I just feel it in his presence really.

Dude; think of your family for a second; and stop going down onto that 100% destruction. There's quit some people in this world who would like to have or want, what you have. And your blowing it for what, playing games that trigger compulsive gambling? F that.

 

[sufferinsilence]

"Stop and think."
"Stop and get help."

If it only was that easy. Well, it's probably easier when you run out of money or means to get more funds but even then a true addict will find a way and it usually isn't pretty.

 

[deleted20230517]

With everything in life, discipline is key.

 

[snorky510238]

With everything in life, discipline is key.

Quite right my friend but it is a very hard lesson to learn. How many can say they have total discipline over every vice? Very very few.

 

[deleted20230517]

Well start with it, it's not coming for you like presented on a plate.

 

[Eliot85]

Shieet.. Feel sorry for your loses.. But why make this trauma to your family. To your child… because of money? I have aldo lost almost evrything i saved but i would never do this to kids. I feel sorry for hem.. seek help Mate

 

[dionysus]

Look, man
In this covid period......I've lost my job and friends (my choice) and nearly all my pets and family (rainbow bridge) and while life isn't a competition, I can tell you..I've seen the bottom of the well.
But...I've seen things MAKE me scale back up and FOUND reasons to make life work for me, not make me work for life.
For me? got a dog. It depends on me for it's well-being
for you? You've children. Strive every day to make their lives better than the one dealt to you.
WORK for it......in your actions. Want to pack it in? Think of how you can help/make so, so many more people NOT go through what you have.
Need a mission? Think outward if you arent any longer able to look in.

 

[neon claws]

Yeah I'm trying to make appointments but can't even get through to doctor's at the moment, COVID I guess, been trying since the offices opened and they just disconnect immediately. Looking at trying electroshock since I've tried every other med.
I'm not usually the type to request a user be banned or publicly shamed but this type of cowardly pm I was sent is pretty gross (attached).

 

[deleted20230517]

Very well written. Best advice is for everyone to have their own mission sorted out. If it's not for you which i can understand, it should be for your kids and their wellbeing.

Trauma's are something people can walk with the rest of their life's.

 

[shadow123]

Take it from me, there is always a way forward,I have been as low as you can get but somehow got through it.
My dad dropped dead in front of me when I was 12, it scarred me for life, please dont do the same to your kids,
you have a choice, my dad didnt.

 

[The Dude]

Yeah I'm trying to make appointments but can't even get through to doctor's at the moment, COVID I guess, been trying since the offices opened and they just disconnect immediately. Looking at trying electroshock since I've tried every other med.
I'm not usually the type to request a user be banned or publicly shamed but this type of cowardly pm I was sent is pretty gross (attached).

What the hell is wrong with people? Gottoslot has been banned permanently from the forum.

 

[gonzo fonso]

ive been there myself its not worth it,got to the point didnt have any money in the house to even buy toilet roll,toothpaste and bread etc,this was a few years ago yes i still play but with limits

 

[neon claws]

What the hell is wrong with people? Gottoslot has been banned permanently from the forum.

Thanks

 

[satchnz]

What the hell is wrong with people? Gottoslot has been banned permanently from the forum.

I ask myself this every single day.

 

[dionysus]

I ask myself this every single day.

I hear you, man, I hear you

 

[deleted20230517]

Yeah I'm trying to make appointments but can't even get through to doctor's at the moment, COVID I guess, been trying since the offices opened and they just disconnect immediately. Looking at trying electroshock since I've tried every other med.

You need to head by, in person. The phone is'nt going to be answerred since lots of places just dont bother.

Make that step today. A step for the rest of your life at this point.

 

[neon claws]

You need to head by, in person. The phone is'nt going to be answerred since lots of places just dont bother.

Make that step today. A step for the rest of your life at this point.

Can't do that either, wife got COVID.

 

[Jackstar]

Neon claws sorry to hear that you are having a real struggle with life at the moment. As others have said think of your kids and family and how it will affect them.
I’m glad you are still posting here and please continue to do so as every time you post is a sign that you are still here and your body and mind telling you you still want to be.
Good luck with getting the help you need and please if you feel you are gonna do anything harmful get yourself straight to a&e no messing about on phone.
Iv mentioned before in another thread I have been affected by suicide in my family and it is truly devastating and still struggle dealing with it, please please get the help now.

So sorry you had to deal with that nasty dickhead posting those messages glad they are banned.

Best of luck to you please keep posting and hopefully you update as you recover and this could be a help to others suffering down the line.

X

 

[deleted20230517]

Can't do that either, wife got COVID.

You know that mankind has bin through far more worse then this covid right?

Anyway; dont let it sink in for too long; do something active with it. This passive approach is'nt going to work.

 

[neon claws]

You know that mankind has bin through far more worse then this covid right?

Anyway; dont let it sink in for too long; do something active with it. This passive approach is'nt going to work.

I mean I literally cannot get a callback from a doctor because my state alone has 500k cases and no-one can do anything without getting tested so that's all the gp's are doing at the moment.

 

[deleted20230517]

Well,

Then consider ( i mean urge you to) closing your casino accounts, give the access to any of your wallets or online payments to another you can trust. It's the first step really and if your not doing it your right back at that roller coaster again in a week or so.

 

[neon claws]

Well,

Then consider ( i mean urge you to) closing your casino accounts, give the access to any of your wallets or online payments to another you can trust. It's the first step really and if your not doing it your right back at that roller coaster again in a week or so.

Yeah that's all done.

 

[shadow123]

Good to hear that, hopefully you are off the rollercoaster and can hang in there until you can get the help you need,if you
can stay away from gambling , its amazing how fast the urge can fade and you start to realise there are far better ways
of spending time and money

 

[deleted20230517]

How would i know your absolute serious @neon claws ?

 

[dionysus]

How would i know your absolute serious @neon claws ?

Does it matter?
Truth or jest, it's a good place to learn for any member deciding to be a player

 

[deleted20230517]

Yeah well i think the situation is serious enough, and not just a "oh i just lost a 100$ bet on a slot" situation.

 

[neon claws]

How would i know your absolute serious @neon claws ?

What are you asking? If I'm making it up?
If it matters to you for some reason I can send my Ethereum wallet address to an admin here and they can verify it.
Or if you're questioning if I closed my accounts I guess I can send proof of that too, not that it matters with how easy it is to open new accounts these days.
I still have been unable to get in touch with a GP let alone a psychiatrist but I have naltrexone from a previous effort to stop drinking which I am now taking and just not having the urge (or energy really) to drink is making things bearable.

 

[dionysus]

Brother........
Mostly, well wishes here, ya?
Take THOSE to heart

 

[dionysus]

I've reached out to admin, I tried, and can't find
There's some FANtastic resources here, fallen to the way-side; I hope you can reach out to those

 

[deleted20230517]

The thing i personally dislike, is spending energy and effort in people, on which afterwards, it was like a waste of time. It could be true that even tho your message was like oh everything is closed you still got something going. Nada. This is my motivation to question you which is a fair question to be honest.

I mean props i think you are the most extreme case ive seen so far other then the ones who actually comitted suicide over gambling. But i dont think a suicide is worth it over a gambling loss. Yes if your in shit there's always a way out, and there's always a reward waiting for you at the end knowing youve done right and your life can only go upwards because youve seen the bottom.

You need to cut ties. Completely. I guarantee you you will feel a change in your behaviour and energy you have within 2 fucking weeks. If your hot and you really start having the urge or crave to gambling, do something else. Take a walk, spend time with your kids, cook for your family, over time you'll notice that it helps and the more distraction you put into the ring when your craving to play, the better it will go. Furthermore your wallet starts to increase slowly again.

I dont blame you or another to turn into a gambling addict. It basicly means all the R&D put into slots and design has helped the gambling industry to extract more funds from you then you could ever imagine you would do. The volatility taken to such extends of over a million spins is just a perfect excuse to make people dependend of playing more and more. Anyone could argu my above theory but i think i'm pretty much close to the truth.

The difference is, you have to know when to stop, walk away or completely quit. Fundamental rules of gambling. If you dont it will eat you alive.

 

[dionysus]

All I can say is this
There's drama queens post for likes and loving and nothing more (hey, see me, look at me, ME ME ME)
There's those as post because theyve nowhere to post to (I'm hurting, man, it might pass, looking for advice or words of wisdom or encouragement)
And some, post, because it IS a cry for help and havent resources (look, I'm lost, I've nothing, and I fucking NEED help, like, look, I'm fucking drowning)


I don't know. Read...read between lines
Look inside. and You do YOU. Help if you want, or able, man

 

[Mr_Slot5]

It’s easier for some people to help themselves than others. Everyone is different, different ways of dealing with stress, different ways of approaching things. I’m just glad I don’t give up on people so easily nor get annoyed by their struggles.

One thing I’ve learned in life is that it’s very easy for someone to sit there and preach about the rights and wrongs of someone’s actions where personal difficulties are concerned. Although ultimately the person has to do it for themselves, they very often need a strong hand up to accomplish what they need to in order to fix the situation. The ‘you need to do it for yourself’ is very often code for ‘I can’t/don’t want to help you’.

 

[deleted20230517]

We are all humans, and there has bin quite some great people before us who led the way in any type of struggle what you can imagine. What makes you or me different in succeeding to truely accomplish what you want? It just takes a shittruck of motivation, discipline and you'll get there.

I find it weak for people who have the most troubles, while everything in life is just all about moving forward. You start dying the moment you dont want to live anymore.

 

[Mr_Slot5]

We are all humans, and there has bin quite some great people before us who led the way in any type of struggle what you can imagine. What makes you or me different in succeeding to truely accomplish what you want? It just takes a shittruck of motivation, discipline and you'll get there.

I find it weak for people who have the most troubles, while everything in life is just all about moving forward. You start dying the moment you dont want to live anymore.

You do realise that being condescending and matter of fact to people with mental health issues often makes them more demotivated?

It takes a special type of person to put their energy into helping someone with mental health issues, but it can be done. I can assure you of that.

If you go down the other ‘high horse’ route they will often begin to feel they’re a burden, abnormal and beyond help. They then begin to pretend everything is fixed. At that point the risk of suicide skyrockets.

Whilst the ‘stiff upper lip’ approach my work in seldom instances, it’s not something I’d champion personally.

 

[deleted20230517]

People end up for a reason into that dark place that is called a gambling addiction. You find the source of that problem and you can walk away from gambling.

 

[Mr_Slot5]

People end up for a reason into that dark place that is called a gambling addiction. You find the source of that problem and you can walk away from gambling.

Of course, it’s very often linked to an underlying mental health condition. Which is why I brought mental health up.