I took some time last week to read my parting thread to see the comments. I felt the people who took the time to wish me well or comment, I should at least take the time and effort to read through them.
I came across this thread because of the title.
While most of the posts are positive, I will admit I was surprised to see a few comments being made in here about me. I felt the need to respond but I decided to take some time and relax and cool down so I wasnt unreasonable with my response.
Let me address the few who stated I have a gambling addiction. This is what I couldnt disagree with anyone more. In my eyes, a person who is addicted to something does not simply change their life in the flick of a finger. A problem gambler continues to deposit, raise stakes and chase losses. I got tired of stuff and had enough and quit depositing my money. I am also well up overall and a degenerate just thinks oh well im up just throw it all back in and hope for more. Since I am neither, I did the responsible thing and pretty much stopped depositing.
I am a firm believer if you want to call things out and complain and you have the power to do something about it, you should. And I did.
What made me quit?
#1. I was fed up.
#2. Deadspins, teases and small wins. Since I feel slots have now turned into scratch tickets, almost every game I played was the same out come. Tonnes of spins with terrible returns and finally hit a bonus that would pay under 20x a huge percentage of the time.
#3 Jurassic World. I lost my faith in MG. I felt like this was their return slot and I was pretty excited only to be absolutely gutted. They made this slot just like the rest of the new releases they and others have been coming out with.
#4. Bonanza. First off let me explain about this challenge I started. I took a couple weeks away from the slot and got refreshed and over the past few months I had many messages asking me to do a 1 million spin challenge. No one forced me too, it was just a fun suggestion since people realized I loved the slot and would play it anyways. So I figured what the heck. This was always about fun and hoping to put this slot on my list of being conquered. And by saying conquered I do not mean what some have suggested. Its meant as an exciting way to beat up a slot, I found that enjoyable.
Next came the monetary part of it. If people want to see this, how can I limit my losses. I figured
BTG would maybe throw some bonuses my way, casinos would offer me reload, maybe some sign ups and donations (I never expected or relied on that, it was just there if people wanted to). This was never to try and gan a profit but limit my losses since they would be large.
a)Here is where things went sour. I messaged BTG about some graphic stuff and requests about the slot. I did not get so much as a response. I felt that was really rude and I was taken a little back because in reality he is getting exposure from my challenge. I sent another message telling him i didnt appreciate being ignored and it was super rude. His response was he only read messages once a week. However, speaking to members about other things in pm, I came to find out he answered other members after my messages to him. So now I felt disrespected by the slot provider I was doing the challenge about.
b)One casino contacted me and wanted me to do the challenge through them and in return I would get reload bonuses to help me get through the variance. I thought perfect...until i realized they didnt offer my currency and there was no way I could fight bonanza and the currency exchange fee's.
c) I contacted a casino and showed them that some popular streamers were contacting me about the challenge, how I would find people talking about it all over the gambling part of twitch, popular streamers posting the odd comment on my channel and the attention it was getting. I was loyal to this casino, I was a loser and all I was asking for was a bit of reloads to help. They wanted more. They wanted to see the average traffic in my streams and how many sign ups I was getting them first. I again felt a little insulted.
That is my fault. I should not have had any expectations at all.
d) Bonanza was not co operating. While I got off to a decent start my last 25,000 tracked spins were somewhere around 77% rtp and the game was just always cold. And then the bad bonus came. The super rare bonus that just never comes along, came. And I thought finally and if anything this will give me at the very minimum 500x to get me out of this slump ive been in. Only to see each spin almost all dead.
#5. Watching the battles and weekend battle challenges from videoslots really played with my mind. While I did enjoy them it really showed me how bad these newish slots are. I remember at the end of a weekend there was like 1.5 million spins done on book of dead. And only 2 people hit the 5000x. So whats that, 1-750,000 chance to hit 5000x your bet. No thanks. Then watching the scores and seeing 2 people out of 30 getting over 100% rtp on average. Or only 1 person out of 500 and 50,000 spins hitting 700x.
#6. I was VIP at a casino that ended very weird for me and quite insulting. At first, I was given freechips and friendly emails from my host. Once they realized I will just keep depositing and playing regardless of how they treat me, everything suddenly stopped. No more friendly emails, no more responses to anything, waiting 45 minutes for a chat rep and on and on. I am not your ATM and I want to be treated like a person. So this was just another negative to add to the growing list.
#7. I was not having fun or being entertained. To me, slots have always been about exciting bonus rounds, ups and downs and the feeling that I could maybe hit something wonderful.
I felt none of that anymore. I felt bored beyond tears and before I was always able to go back to the old slots to get some wins or excitement. But I played them so much, I got bored with that too. So now I had nothing but new slots to play that I think are designed all way too high variance. If I want to have the same odds as scratch off, there is a store around the corner. Slots have become less exciting to me. Look at all these new releases, which slots are truly awesome and fun? Maybe 1 or 2.
The batman jackpot slots are gone. That sucked I really like them. Lord of the rings was one of my favs. That disappeared years ago. And all these new releases are clones and games mashed together. I feel like the industry is making so much money, they just dont care to put out anything enjoyable anymore. And thats a huge reason for me stepping away for awhile. I dont want to be one of the people who gamble just because to gamble. I want to have fun while giving them my money. And I am not.
#8. I lost netent and dont have WMS. And while some may say you should be thankful you dont have netent. I disagree. 5 of my fav slots were from netent. This hurt me and my enjoyment a lot.
I complained on the forum about alot of it. Who wants to read complaining all the time? I sure dont. I like people alot here and I didnt want to start arguing all the time or lose the people I liked and enjoyed talking with. So I thought to myself, this is becoming too negative and im not enjoying it. Its time to quit or at the very least take a break.
So this wasnt a hissy fit being thrown by me because I couldnt handle a losing streak. It was the feeling of being disrespected, boredom and negativity. That bonanza bonus was just a tiny part of me quitting, everything came to a head and I was done.
And finally, I loved posting all my wins here. I spoke about it, I showed screenshots and I bragged about some nice cashouts. But what kind of person would I be if I didnt post when I lost or went on bad streaks? What kind of person would I be to lead others on who may be unfamiliar with the gambling scene but come across my posts and think wow if she can win like this and never lose, well so can I. And then they deposit and lose and chase until they have nothing. That would be on me. So I made sure to try and post my results both good and bad.
I am not being a cry baby. I just need some time to relax and do things at my own pace where maybe I can find my love for slotting again and respect for the industry. And just to add, We should all appreciate reps like Dan, Rachel and Karolina. They are a small example of how we all used to get treated by all these casino's that has somehow been lost along the way. They make us feel like people and not like their own bank machine.
I really appreciate everyone commenting on me, good or bad. And to the few who say they arent fans of me. Come and have a raspberry vodka with me and I bet I will have you laughing in no time
I just need some time to relax and do things at my own pace and I may return......just to argue with some of you in the Donald Trump thread ;p