"so much to make up to my husband, I blame him for not stopping me".
I found out a while ago I had a gambling problem too. But I know that nobody could have told me that I would end up addicted or even that I was addicted. If someone had stopped me I would have resented them and I would never have discovered that I needed to stop on my own. I believe that's why we have a life, to learn the things that don't make sense.
One important thing is to take one day at a time. Don't look at all the damage that you have done over the years and expect to fix it tomorrow, it will make you worse. It's best to look at what problems you have today and what you can do today. Do that every day and your life will slowly but surely get better.
This last paragraph couldnt be truer!! When I was in that rehab, the first thing he asked me was "how long have you been doing this" I said "about 8 yrs" he then said "It took you 8 years to get here, so expect it to take another 8 years to get back" Very true, it wont take one day, one month or even one year. It takes a lifetime. Its hard, very hard. Even though its been 10 yrs for me, I still cant go into certain places without getting the itch.
IMHO (no disrespect to those who said this, honestly) I dont think Diane will be ok just to low roll and uninstall all but one or two casinos. She is way passed that. I feel she needs to uninstall all of them and limit or even stay away from parts of this site. Please dont look at winner screenshots or anything that will trigger you. I say this with care, I think you should PM people from here that your comfortable with and give/ask for emails and not come in here for a bit. I mean that in the most caring way Diane. I enjoy our pm's and feel we can get the same result in emails. Some can cut back but I just think her having even one casino on her desktop could be damaging. Ill pm you my email and others can too who wish to keep helping her