don't know how to stop

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I must admit I am definitely a compulsive gambler, and I don't know how to stop. I can't stand it anymore, and that is why I am here... I want to play, and the sad thing is, a lot of times I end up winning a lot, but I just play and play until I lose it. I have managed to get myself on a "ban" list which is a good thing, but the problem is there are many casinos that let me have multiple accounts (probably knowing that I have them), and I lose there... I did have a certain set of casinos refund my money as I cannot stop playing... I am almost there I think, but I slipped up this weekend again as I found an old account.. the only way I can deposit now is creditcard and most have blocked it, but this one place (which I have asked to close my account, and which is on this site, but I won't mention any names until I deal with them), has let me deposit and I simply play until I lose everything... I need help, and that is why I am here... I will post a "bitch" if this casino doesn't help me out since I have told them on numerous occasions that I have a problem and that they still allow me to have an account and keep depositing is simply wrong.... This is day 1.. I hope to reach day 1000 without every playing again... I have put myself in so much debt that I will have trouble getting out of it.

[Max says: originally this was posted in the "This sick hobby (warning--quitting gambling rant)" from 2006 (!). It seemed worth splitting off into it's own thread.]
 
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I also started at the age of 11, playing blackjack with the neighbors for money, then it was pitching quarters, my dad loved the racetrack, lost everything he had, and then some.. As some of you may already know, I also lost an inheritance, a BIG inheritance to gambling, it's not a pretty picture, you hurt the ones you love, you stay away from family and friends, it's just ugly all around. I realized I was bad about a month ago, I was good for 2 weeks, and then I gambled 200.00 and 100.00 this week, to me thats like playing a penny, so why did I even play, and now I have that ugly feeling inside that I even played again, it really sucks, it drains you.
I hate so much that I even played before and now that sometimes I want to throw my laptop out the window..I am DONE, not one nickel more are these casinos seeing from me, I want to live, I and so tired of this feeling, and starting up again just made me realize even more that I HATE IT, NO MORE GAMBLING. I did more this last month than I did in the last 5 five years with the people I love....I have been playing 5 years straight, about 10 hours a day, if I can do it, YOU can do it...GOOD LUCK TO YOU, I REALLY MEAN IT
 
I must admit I am definitely a compulsive gambler, and I don't know how to stop. I can't stand it anymore, and that is why I am here... I want to play, and the sad thing is, a lot of times I end up winning a lot, but I just play and play until I lose it. I have managed to get myself on a "ban" list which is a good thing, but the problem is there are many casinos that let me have multiple accounts (probably knowing that I have them), and I lose there... I did have a certain set of casinos refund my money as I cannot stop playing... I am almost there I think, but I slipped up this weekend again as I found an old account.. the only way I can deposit now is creditcard and most have blocked it, but this one place (which I have asked to close my account, and which is on this site, but I won't mention any names until I deal with them), has let me deposit and I simply play until I lose everything... I need help, and that is why I am here... I will post a "bitch" if this casino doesn't help me out since I have told them on numerous occasions that I have a problem and that they still allow me to have an account and keep depositing is simply wrong.... This is day 1.. I hope to reach day 1000 without every playing again... I have put myself in so much debt that I will have trouble getting out of it.

[Max says: originally this was posted in the "This sick hobby (warning--quitting gambling rant)" from 2006 (!). It seemed worth splitting off into it's own thread.]

If that is truly the case then Bryan should give this casino a second look then as far as them being justified as being on the "Accredited Casinos List" as this is clearly not a way for an "Accredited Casino" to act in this serious situation regarding your gambling addiction...:rolleyes:
 
If that is truly the case then Bryan should give this casino a second look then as far as them being justified as being on the "Accredited Casinos List" as this is clearly not a way for an "Accredited Casino" to act in this serious situation regarding your gambling addiction...:rolleyes:

I have sent 2 emails to them, including a private message here. I will wait to see what they do. I have managed to block myself from being able to deposit with any method except for a credit card, so at least most of my problems are hopefully away.. but I have found myself (when very tired, which is easy with a newborn unfortunately) searching for places to play, knowing that I shouldn't, but still do... I played at one place and lost upwards for $2500, they quickly inspected me and found that I had requested to close my account before, and shut it completely down and refunded my money (thank god, because I have put myself in so much debt it is not even funny). unfortunately my brain works in a stupid way, and once I realized that my visa was close to breakeven it figured I could look for another place to play, and that's when I found my old account.. it's scary.. writing this is putting it into perspective now.. I used to have such good will power and brain power and thought that people who had this problem were weak... now look at me.. and the fact that I KNOW what I'm doing is wrong hurts even more....

like I said, I think because it is the weekend that this casino doesn't answer it's emails (which is not good since I asked them to close my account yet again this weekend, yet afterwards kept playing and lost more money).. I don't think that's right..

this is day 2.

mind you I have found myself betting on football games through the local lottery this weekend, it's money that I can afford, unlike what I play on the casinos.


and finally, as more of a background. several years ago I was in an accident and was forced to be home for a year.. that is when everything started.. at the beginning I would be a bonus whore, and managed to win some money.. at that time if I deposited $50 and lost it I felt bad for weeks... I managed to do really really well.. I never really did anything stupid, and never tilted for a good few months/year... played what I could, and won. then one time, I took a big deposit of $1000 to get a major bonus... this was my demise.. as I brought it up to $14000-15000.. I thought I was in heaven... I thought of being able to by a car, and do many things with it.. it was life altering (while I have a decent job, $14000 was enough to change things).... anyway I tried to withdraw and the casino was giving me some bs about it and the max withdrawl was $5000 a week.. that is when it hit me.. if I could turn the $1000 to $14000, surely I could take that $14000 and make it $50000... I lost it within a week, and then more and more kept on going out of my pocket... I think there was a period of 3-4 months when I didn't play once, but after that it hit full stride and I just can't stop.. BUT I do believe I am close... I have a baby and I just want the best for him (which is also what gets me to gamble since I am hoping to "hit the jackpot" which is useless because I'll keep losing it anyway... I truly believe if I can get out of this jam this one last time, that I will cut up my card and be free from this.

I am going to try my hardest to post everyday to avoid playing anything.
 
I can't believe a casino refunded your $2,500.00 . That is just so unheard of. I can believe they locked your account and stopped any further play, but almost all casinos would drain you first and than lock you out.
 
I can't believe a casino refunded your $2,500.00 . That is just so unheard of. I can believe they locked your account and stopped any further play, but almost all casinos would drain you first and than lock you out.

if I've told them to close my account on numerous occasions and they don't, I think they have that responsibility to do it..
 
if I've told them to close my account on numerous occasions and they don't, I think they have that responsibility to do it..
Depends on where you live. In the UK it is law, if you ask to be locked out they have too...

In the USA, the casinos have no legal responsibility to close your account or lock you out at all... In fact, several USA land based Native Owned Casinos will send advertisements and offer Coupons, Discounts and Bonuses to problem players to lure the problem player back to the tables and/or machines...

Just one more of the reasons we need realistic enforceable regulation and oversight on Gambling in the USA...


Compulsive Gambling is another form of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD).
There is help and treatment that really works.

www.gamblersanonymous.org/20questions.html
www.intervention.com/defns.html
 
One of the best ways I've found to relieve stress is to jump on youtube and watch live pefrormances of my favorite songs from when I was a kid.
 
I am going to try my hardest to post everyday to avoid playing anything.


This forum really worked for me..

And there is no such thing as hitting big and walking away, you'll lose and lose and lose before you hit the big one and then the big one won't be enough
after what you lost, just walk away and start over, you'll be a winner that way..stop chasing
 
Depends on where you live. In the UK it is law, if you ask to be locked out they have too...

In the USA, the casinos have no legal responsibility to close your account or lock you out at all... In fact, several USA land based Native Owned Casinos will send advertisements and offer Coupons, Discounts and Bonuses to problem players to lure the problem player back to the tables and/or machines...

Just one more of the reasons we need realistic enforceable regulation and oversight on Gambling in the USA...


Compulsive Gambling is another form of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD).
There is help and treatment that really works.

www.gamblersanonymous.org/20questions.html
www.intervention.com/defns.html



well Rushmore and Sportsbook are two that went completely out of their way to help me... they ensure that I was ineligible to play (especially sportsbook where there are many sister sites)... they closed my accounts and refunded everything...

this other casino, which I will name eventually is not starting off well with me... not only did I request them to close it a few months ago, I requested it again several days ago, yet they still let me play.. I tried to contact them and they didn't respond.. I get a response HERE from their rep before I got a response by email from the csr there. they are in a jurisdiction that shouldn't allow credit cards yet they still did..
 
One of the best ways I've found to relieve stress is to jump on youtube and watch live pefrormances of my favorite songs from when I was a kid.


I do that while I'm gambling most of the time! :eek2: I don't watch the videos, but I play em for the songs on Youtube.
 
The POC thread. I'm glad you got your money back after gambling it away. Don't expect that to ever happen again.
 
day 3. yesterday was a struggle for me, but I managed to find other things to do... at least I'm at work during the day now... the casino I mentioned before is REALLY slow in answering my emails.. I'm not happy with them at all...
 
I know how you feel. I too went through the same problem a couple of years ago. I eventually made it impossible to gamble on line by signing myself out of all the casinos I played at; although not fortunate enough to get any money back.:sob: I permanently closed out all e wallets and cut up credit cards. I did try on several occasions to try to gamble again but was unable to; thank god! I also gambled frequently at land based casinos near my home.....the losses added up over time to the point that I had to come clean with my husband and we had to refinance my house to pay off my huge debt.....that sucks. I was like you, I just felt I could not stop. I always believed that I could win the money back and then I could stop but of course I just continued to lose more and more and more. I find that I am much happier now that I have finally gained control over this addiction. I feel like myself again but It does take time and a huge amount of discipline. Continue to take it one day at a time and remind yourself constantly about how you felt losing all the money, the guilt you felt and how many times you said you would stop and didn't. I still remind my self that I came close to losing everything. Now I sit back and enjoy my growing bank account, no way in hell I'm going to give it away to some stranger living the good life out on some island. Good luck and stay strong.
 
I know how you feel. I too went through the same problem a couple of years ago. I eventually made it impossible to gamble on line by signing myself out of all the casinos I played at; although not fortunate enough to get any money back.:sob: I permanently closed out all e wallets and cut up credit cards. I did try on several occasions to try to gamble again but was unable to; thank god! I also gambled frequently at land based casinos near my home.....the losses added up over time to the point that I had to come clean with my husband and we had to refinance my house to pay off my huge debt.....that sucks. I was like you, I just felt I could not stop. I always believed that I could win the money back and then I could stop but of course I just continued to lose more and more and more. I find that I am much happier now that I have finally gained control over this addiction. I feel like myself again but It does take time and a huge amount of discipline. Continue to take it one day at a time and remind yourself constantly about how you felt losing all the money, the guilt you felt and how many times you said you would stop and didn't. I still remind my self that I came close to losing everything. Now I sit back and enjoy my growing bank account, no way in hell I'm going to give it away to some stranger living the good life out on some island. Good luck and stay strong.


thank you for the kind words. I think messages like this is what will allow me to get over things.. I don't think I've ever been this close (I've never talked to anyone about it, and it feels good to).. while I am still constantly thinking about it, I am trying to do more to stay away...


this latest casino is an absolute joke. they say I never emailed to close the account, and the only way they did was when I emailed them here... can you believe that???? I give them to Friday to rectify the problem...
 
Any socially responsible Casino will give you all the advice that you need to help stop playing - be sure to ask the bigger names who you may hold an account with. If they don't help then let us know, any operator not willing to help a problem gambler should be rogued.
 
Any socially responsible Casino will give you all the advice that you need to help stop playing - be sure to ask the bigger names who you may hold an account with. If they don't help then let us know, any operator not willing to help a problem gambler should be rogued.

well right now they are making a lot of excuses... they said they closed my account immediately, but they did not... this is after asking to have it closed months and months ago on top of that.
 

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