tempestcayla
Non-Gambler
- Joined
- Oct 16, 2011
- Location
- Oregon
Hi All, I joined Casinomeister less than three months ago and now its time to say goodbye, though I have truly enjoyed the site and the people. I started playing slots online a little over three months ago. At the very beginning it was a form of therapeutic stress relief... "me time" a little escape from my 12 hours shift medical profession I told myself and then I started to use gambling online for a little "me time" and enjoyment a break from the worry for my husband and his prostate cancer battle/surgery.
Over the last three months I managed to deposit and lose over 1500$ at my favorite site (not to mention hundreds in free chips.) "Poof," nothing to show for it, after one small withdrawal at the beginning I lost and chased and lost some more. I made excuses to myself that it wasnt that bad because I was only making 20-40$ deposits. Except when I played I would make two or three deposits in a night. I could feel that I was slipping on a slope and somewhere along the road I lost my way.
Today January 2nd, I decided the gist is completely up. My husband now knows fully of my deposits and his disappointment in the choices I made is obvious. With my losses I can no longer pretend that this was just a form of entertainment. $1500 was a lot of money any way you label it. I officially closed my account tonight at my favorite place. I won't be back, I will be refocusing on my life and my husband.
Please do not think that I am in any way blaming anyone but myself for my gambling. I was selfish.
In the end I just wanted to share this news in case there was anyone else out there in the same spot. Reading other posts in this part of the forum helped me find the strength to finally say "Enough". Thank you CasinoMeister for including this area on your site.
Over the last three months I managed to deposit and lose over 1500$ at my favorite site (not to mention hundreds in free chips.) "Poof," nothing to show for it, after one small withdrawal at the beginning I lost and chased and lost some more. I made excuses to myself that it wasnt that bad because I was only making 20-40$ deposits. Except when I played I would make two or three deposits in a night. I could feel that I was slipping on a slope and somewhere along the road I lost my way.
Today January 2nd, I decided the gist is completely up. My husband now knows fully of my deposits and his disappointment in the choices I made is obvious. With my losses I can no longer pretend that this was just a form of entertainment. $1500 was a lot of money any way you label it. I officially closed my account tonight at my favorite place. I won't be back, I will be refocusing on my life and my husband.
Please do not think that I am in any way blaming anyone but myself for my gambling. I was selfish.
In the end I just wanted to share this news in case there was anyone else out there in the same spot. Reading other posts in this part of the forum helped me find the strength to finally say "Enough". Thank you CasinoMeister for including this area on your site.