Well gambling for me has been a nightmare. The wins made me feel high, mentally high. When I won $18,500 in a period of 4 hours playing slots at an MG casino online, I was hooked. It was beginners luck, it felt like getting high off drugs the first time. I liked it too much. I kept trying to win more, $20k was my goal, hours later, gone. The next 5 years I have chased that win. And I have had many ups and downs. The ups were $500-$5000 wins, but I never cashed out any of them successfully. The desire in me was too strong to win more. My willpower was not there, my mind played tricks.
Gambling can be an escape from realities of this world. It takes you away from your problems for a moment. I used to say that anyone that talked about gambling as a problem, was just losing. Winners don't have a problem, because they are winning, right? Well I was wrong in this line of thinking and it hurt me in many serious ways. It is human nature to risk little for much gain. It is in all of us. People do it everyday in many different fashions. Over time risk will outweigh the gain, and when it does it hits hard, and hurts.
I spent the last 3 months chasing that feeling. I won some, won even more, and lost it back again and again. I only lost about $1500 during this time. I even considered chargebacks to recoup my losses. But, I will not learn from this if I do that, and I really gamble on my future by making a false credit card claim. Which could land a person in jail. So I am letting it go this last time.
I quit Feb 6 2011. I contacted the last remaining MG casinos that i could play at and closed my accounts forever. I would buy the blocking software, but as a computer network guy, I feel I would find it a challenge later to circumvent this, and gamble again. No it has to be me that does this. I played some scratcher tickets for a few days afterward. It helped a little to ween off the gambling roller coaster. But I realize this has an ending to and decided to quit all money games forever, lotto, scratchers, all. It's like quiting smoking but taking a puff again, your mind will trick you back into the old habit.
I'm getting married in 2 months to a great girl I met last year. I cannot take this ugly addiction with me. I hope the best to anyone else that has decided to take a different path to happiness other then the dream of riches by gambling.
Gambling can be an escape from realities of this world. It takes you away from your problems for a moment. I used to say that anyone that talked about gambling as a problem, was just losing. Winners don't have a problem, because they are winning, right? Well I was wrong in this line of thinking and it hurt me in many serious ways. It is human nature to risk little for much gain. It is in all of us. People do it everyday in many different fashions. Over time risk will outweigh the gain, and when it does it hits hard, and hurts.
I spent the last 3 months chasing that feeling. I won some, won even more, and lost it back again and again. I only lost about $1500 during this time. I even considered chargebacks to recoup my losses. But, I will not learn from this if I do that, and I really gamble on my future by making a false credit card claim. Which could land a person in jail. So I am letting it go this last time.
I quit Feb 6 2011. I contacted the last remaining MG casinos that i could play at and closed my accounts forever. I would buy the blocking software, but as a computer network guy, I feel I would find it a challenge later to circumvent this, and gamble again. No it has to be me that does this. I played some scratcher tickets for a few days afterward. It helped a little to ween off the gambling roller coaster. But I realize this has an ending to and decided to quit all money games forever, lotto, scratchers, all. It's like quiting smoking but taking a puff again, your mind will trick you back into the old habit.
I'm getting married in 2 months to a great girl I met last year. I cannot take this ugly addiction with me. I hope the best to anyone else that has decided to take a different path to happiness other then the dream of riches by gambling.