Some of you may remember my thread where I said I quit online gambling. Most people will count the days/months they have been clean but I havent as I just tried to think about every day as a normal day of non gambling. My guess would be 6 months.
I have no idea why but lately Ive had really strong urges to load online and pull some slots. The weirdest thing is lately ive actually had a few dreams of winning online . Ive been as tough as a rock so far but now Im feeling a weakness seep in and it sorta of scares me. The thrill is calling my name but I dont want to go back to that lifestyle.
Since Ive quit, Ive lost 44 lbs, have an extremely active life and have a great sleeping pattern but now it just keeps tugging at me. I keep telling myself just load $25 and have some fun. But deep down I dont want to as I fear of going back to what I used to be. A dark and lonely lifestyle.
Advice on how to get rid of this? I dont get it because I trained myself to absolutely HATE online gambling so I dont get where this is coming from
Thanks for reading and if anyone feels like responding I would appreciate it
I have no idea why but lately Ive had really strong urges to load online and pull some slots. The weirdest thing is lately ive actually had a few dreams of winning online . Ive been as tough as a rock so far but now Im feeling a weakness seep in and it sorta of scares me. The thrill is calling my name but I dont want to go back to that lifestyle.
Since Ive quit, Ive lost 44 lbs, have an extremely active life and have a great sleeping pattern but now it just keeps tugging at me. I keep telling myself just load $25 and have some fun. But deep down I dont want to as I fear of going back to what I used to be. A dark and lonely lifestyle.
Advice on how to get rid of this? I dont get it because I trained myself to absolutely HATE online gambling so I dont get where this is coming from
Thanks for reading and if anyone feels like responding I would appreciate it