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Today I Feel Good Because...

For a year now, my addiction to casino has been really extreme. Every day has been a torture to live through, I would stay up for 3-5 days/week, not eat properly, lost weight fast all the way down to 50kg(110 pounds) and my first time noticing what my body looked like after coming out of the shower shocked me. I felt a weird disgust over my body, before that I already hated myself and had developed a selfharm personality and forced me to stay awake as long as possible just to live in the torture, had constant withdrawals since i 80% of my time being awake i would try borrow money so most of the time i did nothing, looked at the wall and stuff like that and messenger to see if anyone would be online that i could try get to borrow me money(most debts are paid and i always paid back 40% extra) while having a hole in my stomache, it felt like that since after few days of no food it kinda, hurts, being awake with nonsleep did no help either. I had to call for ambulance twice during a short period of time since my Panic attacks after losing all the big wins that i could have used for paying rent, debts etc were really severe, my heart was in trouble first time i kept passing out for 0.5 seconds and my arm got numb etc. There's alot more but just to give you guys some context what this year been like to me.

Today, i live in a "sheltered housing" i think its called, since last week and earlier today when i got back to this apartment, i felt something i forgot what it felt like, i had for the first time in months a relaxed and good feeling generally. I felt human again. I'm finally taking my first step to get help with my addiction. I'm onboard with it, finally. I'm just so happy right now ya'll, love you all. <3
 
Kentakofot said:
For a year now, my addiction to casino has been really extreme. Every day has been a torture to live through, I would stay up for 3-5 days/week, not eat properly, lost weight fast all the way down to 50kg(110 pounds) and my first time noticing what my body looked like after coming out of the shower shocked me. I felt a weird disgust over my body, before that I already hated myself and had developed a selfharm personality and forced me to stay awake as long as possible just to live in the torture, had constant withdrawals since i 80% of my time being awake i would try borrow money so most of the time i did nothing, looked at the wall and stuff like that and messenger to see if anyone would be online that i could try get to borrow me money(most debts are paid and i always paid back 40% extra) while having a hole in my stomache, it felt like that since after few days of no food it kinda, hurts, being awake with nonsleep did no help either. I had to call for ambulance twice during a short period of time since my Panic attacks after losing all the big wins that i could have used for paying rent, debts etc were really severe, my heart was in trouble first time i kept passing out for 0.5 seconds and my arm got numb etc. There's alot more but just to give you guys some context what this year been like to me.

Today, i live in a "sheltered housing" i think its called, since last week and earlier today when i got back to this apartment, i felt something i forgot what it felt like, i had for the first time in months a relaxed and good feeling generally. I felt human again. I'm finally taking my first step to get help with my addiction. I'm onboard with it, finally. I'm just so happy right now ya'll, love you all. <3
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It might help you reach out to @Casinomeister as we've a Quit Gambling section; it will limit the things you can view
There may be something here as well worth viewing >
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Best of luck to you :)
 
Kentakofot said:
For a year now, my addiction to casino has been really extreme. Every day has been a torture to live through, I would stay up for 3-5 days/week, not eat properly, lost weight fast all the way down to 50kg(110 pounds) and my first time noticing what my body looked like after coming out of the shower shocked me. I felt a weird disgust over my body, before that I already hated myself and had developed a selfharm personality and forced me to stay awake as long as possible just to live in the torture, had constant withdrawals since i 80% of my time being awake i would try borrow money so most of the time i did nothing, looked at the wall and stuff like that and messenger to see if anyone would be online that i could try get to borrow me money(most debts are paid and i always paid back 40% extra) while having a hole in my stomache, it felt like that since after few days of no food it kinda, hurts, being awake with nonsleep did no help either. I had to call for ambulance twice during a short period of time since my Panic attacks after losing all the big wins that i could have used for paying rent, debts etc were really severe, my heart was in trouble first time i kept passing out for 0.5 seconds and my arm got numb etc. There's alot more but just to give you guys some context what this year been like to me.

Today, i live in a "sheltered housing" i think its called, since last week and earlier today when i got back to this apartment, i felt something i forgot what it felt like, i had for the first time in months a relaxed and good feeling generally. I felt human again. I'm finally taking my first step to get help with my addiction. I'm onboard with it, finally. I'm just so happy right now ya'll, love you all. <3
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Goodluck
Stay safe
All the best
 
CasinoNinja said:
Was down on one knee yes :)

Not sure what you mean by double barrel :confused::D
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I was joking about double-barrelled surnames e.g. If Boris Johnson married Donald Trump and went for double barrelled surnames they would be Mr and Mr Johnson-Trump.

BTW Today I feel good after letting my kids stay around their Mums for the night. Cant tell the whole story but it was good for them, even if i did have to endure a night in her company and stay on the sofa to keep watch.

Needless to say i feel good for doing the right thing.

Whens the wedding?
 
pinnit2014 said:
She can have my login to play BTG's Millionaire when she's home and those '2% audience are correct' odds will be easily defeated

Jesting side: :thumbsup:
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She would destroy BTG mate, women is like a bloody machine...

before she went for surgery with those odds she asked the surgeon ‘ when the bloody hell can I drive again’ my mother told me haha
 
slotmaster said:
Sold 2 things on Amazon today I just found out! Thank god as I was starting to get worried but January is always dead and was waiting for a good February hopefully this is an early start then that's o.k.!
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Do you ever go to the Amazon seller central forum. The USA or CAD forums?
 
slotplayer said:
Do you ever go to the Amazon seller central forum. The USA or CAD forums?
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Actually, no, I may have posted a reply or 2 maybe. I do watch and talk with one youtube guy from the States who generally wants to help people and cause of him I got started and helped me get some of my sales. :)
 
bamberfishcake said:
Today I feel good because its Valentines Day!

Im still working through the sackful of cards the postie delivers in my dedicated vehicle each year.
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Ah yes..Valentines day.



But in a couple of days there will be a bunch of valentines chocolate with reduced price in the stores.
Silver linings.
 
Love you all....
 

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Feeling good as I pretty much got all my organizing done, just the usual cleaning now tomorrow. Also finally advertised my sale and listings on my Amazon and ebay stores that I had people waiting for and got a new date for the delayed inventory of the newly released hockey cards I pre-ordered that I also had/have people waiting for and I might have like a mountain bike coming soon from a co-worker, should I slap a camera on me and upload bike ride videos on youtube? :D I will even bike through the "hood", LOL.
 
slotmaster said:
Feeling good as I pretty much got all my organizing done, just the usual cleaning now tomorrow. Also finally advertised my sale and listings on my Amazon and ebay stores that I had people waiting for and got a new date for the delayed inventory of the newly released hockey cards I pre-ordered that I also had/have people waiting for and I might have like a mountain bike coming soon from a co-worker, should I slap a camera on me and upload bike ride videos on youtube? :D I will even bike through the "hood", LOL.
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Got a body camera on the way,lol. It's for other reasons though as well. The next issue is how to secure it where it will be stable, but the co-worker is off this week that is selling me a bike so still like a month away before bike rides I say.
 
slotmaster said:
Got a body camera on the way,lol. It's for other reasons though as well. The next issue is how to secure it where it will be stable, but the co-worker is off this week that is selling me a bike so still like a month away before bike rides I say.
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Update:

Excited as the co-worker said he should have the bike for me on Friday! Just about to go on Amazon for bike stuff/accessories. Saturday is supposed to be an o.k. day but will keep an eye on the weather. Who up for Canadian bike rides? :D
 
slotmaster said:
Update:

Excited as the co-worker said he should have the bike for me on Friday! Just about to go on Amazon for bike stuff/accessories. Saturday is supposed to be an o.k. day but will keep an eye on the weather. Who up for Canadian bike rides? :D
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Have fun! :)

Tomorrow we're getting snow :( but Saturday definitely looks like a perfect bike day!
 
slotmaster said:
Update:

Excited as the co-worker said he should have the bike for me on Friday! Just about to go on Amazon for bike stuff/accessories. Saturday is supposed to be an o.k. day but will keep an eye on the weather. Who up for Canadian bike rides? :D
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Best bike accessory for me (besides the usual puncture repair kit, pump and bottle) would be a multi-tool.

I have one of these and its come in handy a few times.....

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You dont have to splash out but you get what you pay for in most cases with tools.

Hope you have fun, i wish i could MTB in Canada. Essex just doesnt compare, although we do have an olympic track, dumbed down after the event for us amateurs to enjoy......

 
bamberfishcake said:
Best bike accessory for me (besides the usual puncture repair kit, pump and bottle) would be a multi-tool.

I have one of these and its come in handy a few times.....

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You dont have to splash out but you get what you pay for in most cases with tools.

Hope you have fun, i wish i could MTB in Canada. Essex just doesnt compare, although we do have an olympic track, dumbed down after the event for us amateurs to enjoy......

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I saw those while looking, helmet and pump so far. Water bottle next and couple other things after I get the bike. :)

I am near a few ski hills which they do mountain biking if I wanted to go that way. :)
 
Nope no forget, got the bike in the car (barely), just hope to be able to raise the handlebars a bit. Water bottle holder on it already so just have to get a water bottle and he said maybe more air in the tires which are still like new. Did not get my air pump today though :(

It's been a long time so have to figure out to balance and bike again, I was shakey when I tested it.
 
Figured the lowering of seat or raising it, got the new seat today, more comfortable but still not 100 percent. Still trying to get the adjustments right as the handlebars went crooked when I tried raising them more.

Also, I am out of practice as it has been a long time and it is an embarrassment, can't go 3 feet without wobbling and losing my balance at the moment but I need a wide long area to get the practice in.

I am a sad bear as I use to be a top biker and really experienced:( Way back I went 30-40 km's on bike tours, was able to get on curbs and everything, and really safe kind of thing.

Not going near any roadways, empty parking lot or trail at first.
 
TheAddict said:
Some really great places to ride in the UK.
And we have experts when it comes to finding the right seat.


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"Britains most notorious bike-seat sniffer"

Makes it sound like there are a whole bunch of them, just that he is the worst. :laugh:
 
TheAddict said:
Some really great places to ride in the UK.
And we have experts when it comes to finding the right seat.


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I was on that case - took us 2 seconds to determine his innocence.

And 5 seconds after that for him to presumably do what he does best: Keep on a sniffing.
 
paul7388 said:
And you even got a photo of you riding your bike.
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Would never be seen riding something like that.

This is more like it.
4 wheels instead of 3, the extra traction is good both for breaking and sudden acceleration.
Pot to put things in, because you cant be holding things while out on the road.
Safety first.
And i dont know about you guys, but i live in a pretty rough neighbourhood, so i installed a chainguard so people wont steal my chain.
Some seem to think its to avoid my pants getting stuck in the chain, but have you ever seen Pooh wearing pants?
Also, wear pants, riding without pants is frowned upon.

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Ordered the rest of the accessories, a water bottle, a bag to hold stuff, and had to get reflectors so I can actually legally be on the road if just after sunrise or near dark (not planning too but think by law you need them). I just tried to see if the camera would clip on the helmet but the clip is too small otherwise man it would of fit in one of the grooves perfectly. :/ It may clip on the chin strap or original plan of shirt/jacket.
 
Today, I feel good because..and well, an odd one
Cracked the noggin at Xmas right good, rough 4 months, frustrated as ef because of the concussion; memory loss, poor motor skills, emotions running 10X the normal
Was told, wait, be patiient, it'll sort itself or not.
Finally (finally), feeling, near there. Yeah, some minor upstairs issues, canrt recall as quickly, but, mostly there.
Feels like a 'click' (and what i've been told time and again, 'one day, suddenly, you wont have a concussion'
so...feeling good :)
ps, I;d never wish it on anyone and prior to my own, never much really understood it well; I've a friend or 2 never really came back from the other side and have persistent issues or brain damage, my brother's, barely a week.
It's different for everyone.
Have patience with ya friends break the egg :D
 
Today i feel good because it is just another day in the office. I have no problems right now and salary is just around the corner so i think it is a win win day today. Maybe i can go grab myself some food to make me feel good and i can really sleep soundly at night knowing that i have not much to worry about at this point in time as well. That is what makes my day and i am really glad to be chilling right now rather than being stressed out for a problem i cannot solve.
 
slotmaster said:
Ordered the rest of the accessories, a water bottle, a bag to hold stuff, and had to get reflectors so I can actually legally be on the road if just after sunrise or near dark (not planning too but think by law you need them). I just tried to see if the camera would clip on the helmet but the clip is too small otherwise man it would of fit in one of the grooves perfectly. :/ It may clip on the chin strap or original plan of shirt/jacket.
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Went to my old school and childhood neighbourhood and forgot to bring the camera, DOH! Was going to try it out somehow. The first week of June I am off and I hope to go more and to other places.

Still waiting for the front and back reflectors though, and really need a bike rack for the car.
 
slotmaster said:
Went to my old school and childhood neighbourhood and forgot to bring the camera, DOH! Was going to try it out somehow. The first week of June I am off and I hope to go more and to other places.

Still waiting for the front and back reflectors though, and really need a bike rack for the car.
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Tried the camera today, it has magnets so it stuck to the top of my handlebars so the angle is good, bad news is as there is a clip it rattles cause of the road vibration and also the video came out "wavey". So possible solutions like I could put music over the video. I will also try just clipping it to my shirt as well if I do the trail next week.
 
slotmaster said:
Tried the camera today, it has magnets so it stuck to the top of my handlebars so the angle is good, bad news is as there is a clip it rattles cause of the road vibration and also the video came out "wavey". So possible solutions like I could put music over the video. I will also try just clipping it to my shirt as well if I do the trail next week.
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You could try something to dampen the rattle maybe? Some gasket-type sponge or similar? Old mouse mats are good for dampening brackets and such.
 
bamberfishcake said:
You could try something to dampen the rattle maybe? Some gasket-type sponge or similar? Old mouse mats are good for dampening brackets and such.
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Ya, elastic band or maybe just a piece of tape actually. :) Just wanted to see if the angle was good and the magnets held over bumps which it has so far. Got my lights/reflectors as well so I can legally be on the road now if I am near sunrise/sunset, haha.
 

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