I feel I need to respond to this anyway. If I explain myself then you maybe will get it.
You've hurt me a lot Azzurri. I have had a hard time understanding the reasons behind your behaviour. Have it been revenge, jelousy or what have the reason been? I'm not use to people being evil. Even if I dislike someone or what he posts I would never attack the person the way you've done to me. Never!
Chayton made me realize that in my responses to you it could look like I enjoyed the fight depending on how someone read it. I wasn't clear enough and I'm sorry for that. I also felt alone and wonder why noone defended me. Well, I suppose noone wanted to take my place....or they thought what you said was ok.
I've almost stopped posting. I have been afraid of speaking my mind...and I've been on my way leaving the forum.
The only thing I want from you is to leave me alone. I would like you to show me respect enough to just read this post and then not reply.
Please don't reply!
Wow. I try to be nice and extend the olive branch and I get that serving in return. I'm guessing your birthday celebrations are now finished, and you obviously have no interest in burying the hatchet and trying to move forward in a civilized manner.
And no Tirilej, sorry, but you don't have ownership of this forum or thread, so unfortunately you don't just get to say any offensive comments you like, such as calling me evil, and not expect a response because you ordered me not to respond.
I'm struggling to see the logic in your inappropriate response, other then you enjoy the unnecessary prolonged drama, and perhaps have no intention of moving forward until you've played the poor victim long enough to rally this support group you evidently crave to jump to your defense from my ever so evil 'attacks' as you put it.
Seriously? Surely it would have been much less time consuming, and taken much less energy to attempt to meet me half way and work towards a peaceful coexistence. You definitely blew that opportunity. You also could have pm'd me in private if you were so offended by my well wishes, and I would have been much more likely to respect your wishes and accommodate your requests. Instead, and only you know the true motives for your actions, you choose to respond to my peaceful well wishes with a public half victim statement, half scathing attack on me.
I'm definitely now very much over you Tirilej, and I can assure you, you needn't be concerned moving forward because I won't be offering any further peace treaties, as you just proved to me that you're not the type of person I want to become friendly with, or give a second thought to. A truly evil person wouldn't even think about trying to reach out and making a peace offering, however someone who takes that offering, chews it up, and spits it back in the person's face with a public spraying, may have the wrong idea about what constitutes evil behavior.
Finally, it's actually quite uncanny how your victim impact statement is basically word for word the same as mine about you. Allow me to clarify as it seems you're slightly confused. I've never attacked you. If I had, I would have been banned. I disagreed with some of your comments, and perhaps it was a guilty conscious you harbored from when YOU, and a select few, attacked me in MY thread and pushed me to breaking point and a subsequent ban, that you persistently complained to Max every time I posted a comment that even slightly hinted at an opposing opinion to you. Being asked by Max to take it easy on you because you were complaining about every comment I made, yet also being told by Max he saw nothing wrong with my comments, nor did they breach any form rules, was extremely confusing for me. Yet you persisted to create and develop a non existent issue, slowly building the drama, when all along it was all your own manifestation.
You have plenty of support here Tirilej. So not only did you insult me, but I dare say the members who have been conned by you into believing this issue exists, and have in turn defended you, or felt the need to message me in your defence, would probably also feel fairly let down by your clearly false claims of being a friendless victim with no support and no voice. What you may be thinking of, is when a few of you relentlessly attacked me, and slowly gained some numbers and momentum when you all realized I was a newbie with no friends and no support. I was the one who had two other members pm me at the time, and offer me supportive words, yet they both stated they weren't brave enough to support me publicly, because I was new, and they didn't want to be targeted by you lot. You also have one of the most senior people here in Max in your corner, who has been nothing but supportive and protective of you. So much so that I have never had a right of response or the opportunity to state my version of events. He has been so loyal to you, that he told me straight out that he couldn't care less what happen to me, or what complaints I had. His words exactly were that double standards definitely exist, and I didn't stand a chance trying to complain against members who have been here longer than I, because he'll take yours and their side every time regardless of if you're wrong or right.
That's what being alone and having no support is Tirilej, not what you've experienced. I can respect Max's honesty at least, but you think you feel trapped? Try having someone constantly reporting you and trying to get you banned, and then not even being able to defend myself, because even if I'm in the right I'm still wrong, and from day dot, Max hasn't been interested in hearing one word I have to say. It's frustrating, but I can, and have, dealt with it. To me, playing the poor lonely trapped victim with no support, is the ultimate slap in the face to those like Max who haven't stopped defending with one eye every time you complained to him. And I can assure you, in his own words, Max wanted nothing more then to ban me for life, and at his peak of anger is was told he has never had any interest in hearing any bull shit I have to say, and I'm nothing but a professional troll, pita and oxygen thief, who has nothing better to do then be a waste of space and an arsehole. You feeling a bit better yet Tirilej?
The thing is, despite Max's colorful and powerful opinion of me, he hasn't banned me, warned me, or charged me with any wrongdoing against you. I was rightly banned for using colorful language toward gagamel, and given infractions for making stupid comments that were unflattering to CM as a credible site. Worthy punishments for stupid crimes. Punishments accepted. Yet Tirilej, despite the numerous complaints against me by you, and this continued hostility and smear campaign against me, it would seem Mr Evil here might not be as evil after all.
I'm not stupid Tirilej, you don't like me and you'd prefer if others didn't either. You've tried long and hard to have me banned, and if I was as bad as you say I am, you and I both know you have an overwhelming amount of support that goes straight to the top, so if I was actually doing such evil, I would have been long gone by now. The truth is, your reaction here is just further evidence that it's indeed you that has an agenda, and once again you're fishing for any little glimmer of a complaint you can once again take to Max and try your luck again in the hope this time your complaint would be legitimate and worthy of the drama.
I can assure you, I am a straight shooter if nothing else. Everything I've said and described here is what happened, and is happening. I don't know what story you've fabricated in your mind about me, but you have to let that shit go, snap out of it and cut the crap. Not only am I over it, but I'm sure everyone who reads our crap is also. I can guarantee Max is definitely over it also. The only one left to get over it is you. Every comment I make, or opinion I have, has anything to do with. Seriously, how important do you think you are.
Accept my peace offering, don't accept it, I really don't care anymore. What you need to do is maybe start an engineering degree, and that way it will only be a matter of time before you can build that bridge.
I seriously could not care less about you now Tirilej. Of course you won't like what I said, but just as you seem to feel free to lecture me how you see fit, this is that truth you needed to hear, and the talk you needed to have.
No one is after you. You have all the support in this situation. You need to wake up and snap out of it. If I comment in the same thread as you, do not automatically assume that you are my one and only constant thought and inspiration. A different opinion to you, is not some secret coded message of hate and misery designed to plague you for eternity. It's just a different opinion.
So, in terms of us and this issue that's eating you up inside, you can now decide if this clearing the air means you either just had one of the best birthdays ever, or one of the worse. The balls in your court, but know this; which ever option you choose, you don't dictate when and where I can post. If you think I'm going to stop contributing to threads because you don't want me commenting in the same thread as you, you're going to be terribly disappointed. Also, both our behavior has been childish at times, but let's see if we can resist that urge to call each other names like evil and the like.
Last but not least, as a final show of goodwill and perhaps compliance with your wishes, so as not to offend you like I so ruthlessly did, I regretfully retract my birthday well wishes I offered to you earlier. Can't say I've ever done that before, but there's been a fair few wacky firsts for me throughout this ordeal.
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