About a month ago there were strong forces working together to prevent me from smoking.
The store run out of the tobacco I always buy and I would have to wait a week for it.
A friend gave me an e-cigarette that actually tasted as a normal one.
A dear friend of mine died from Copd.
I won't give you a story about my last month but I think you can understand that it has been hell, in many ways. Before I have always thought that I need to be strong to find that right moment to quit. That I would have to be mentally prepared so I won't fail.
There are no such times. I have always made up reasons not to quit. No matter how sick it has made me, no matter the cost, there has never been the right time.
This wasn't the right time either, but it was my time
So after all these years as a smoker I will maybe be able to call myself a non-smoker soon. So far I'm just taking a break. I've quit for the moment. No promises. Almost noone knows. I can start again anytime.
Some of you will think that it's a stupid way. That I need to burn my bridges to not go back, but I think we all have different ways to deal with these addictions or habits or whatever you want to call them. I don't know what will work, but I'll take one day at a time...and maybe maybe it will add up to such a long time that I will live a little longer
Well done me!
The store run out of the tobacco I always buy and I would have to wait a week for it.
A friend gave me an e-cigarette that actually tasted as a normal one.
A dear friend of mine died from Copd.
I won't give you a story about my last month but I think you can understand that it has been hell, in many ways. Before I have always thought that I need to be strong to find that right moment to quit. That I would have to be mentally prepared so I won't fail.
There are no such times. I have always made up reasons not to quit. No matter how sick it has made me, no matter the cost, there has never been the right time.
This wasn't the right time either, but it was my time
So after all these years as a smoker I will maybe be able to call myself a non-smoker soon. So far I'm just taking a break. I've quit for the moment. No promises. Almost noone knows. I can start again anytime.
Some of you will think that it's a stupid way. That I need to burn my bridges to not go back, but I think we all have different ways to deal with these addictions or habits or whatever you want to call them. I don't know what will work, but I'll take one day at a time...and maybe maybe it will add up to such a long time that I will live a little longer
Well done me!