- Joined
- Mar 13, 2008
- Location
- Ontario
I don't know if this will be beneficial for anyone else, but I do know talking about this here, with some of who "get it", those who offer advice I value, and probably Goatwack posting something sarcastic and incredibly funny as well.
I've learnt a lot over my years here at CM, but not everything I need to know.
For those who haven't hear me say it before SOMETIMES IT'S WORSE WHEN YOU ARE WINNING.
GAMBLING IS NOT ABOUT MONEY.
Now, these may not be true for everyone, but they are true for me.
In fact my recent win has meant I don't choose between the deposit and take-out or a case of beer... it's tended to mean I have both.
It also has meant my deposits have been higher in general, and my cash out goals are less modest.
Which really adds up over months.
My losses are well within expectations for the amount I've been playing. I'm less active here as I have money in play often.
Been a rare day there's not something to play somewhere.
Now before anyone gets all worried on my behalf, I am doing okay. I am a little afraid to do the exact math, but I've lost @ 10% of my huge win back. Two weeks ago it was closer to 15%.
I got guilty of chasing losses with big bets, at one particular casino that I was doing less well than expectations. I have did much better than expectations at others, so it helped to fund it, rather than it funding my day to day life or home improvements.
I failed to cash out $700 or $800 quite a number of times.
Reversed a 5K cashout over a delay with documents at a casino with a longer pending period and weekend involved. Even though I blew it, I got the docs and banking in now.
That's bad enough, but I spent probably a couple of grand I shouldn't have thinking I had that coming in.
I need to get back on track. I'm doing better at that past month, the break in Cuba definitely helped, as well as getting active on the home reno front.
A trip is one of the few things that I've ever been success saving money for, and I don't want to have to strictly budget in Europe next week. Today was the first in a lot of days I didn't spend hours gambling.
The fact my body has mostly been unhappy has left me unable to do many of the things I should be doing.
I love slotting, I don't want to spin out of control enough that giving it up entirely is my only option.
I was an awful gambler many years ago, got somewhat smarter.
But I seem to have temporarily misplaced some of those smarts. Not every time, there's been a number of more modest cashouts, 60 cents bet and such, up it to a dollar and quit when I'm ahead if I've had the play time I look for.
Whether you are in complete control, or lack any, I know I remain at "at risk" gambler. We are gamblers because we enjoy risk, although I'm really safe and conservative in most aspects of my life. I think this is a relatively safe place to lose control compared to some others.
I still use the measures I've used for years to limit my losses.
But the day to day budget that limited my losses to a great extent went out the window. I still need to load the prepaid, but the ewallet has taken a beating at times.
And a win doesn't mean quite what it used to either. I have the money right now for the important things with or without a cashout.
I want to thank Casino Twitcher for a bit of reality check on just how expensive you should expect your hobby to be, depending on bet size. I wish I could tag someone here like on facebook.
As many know, I'll be visiting the I-Gaming conference in Amsterdam next week, although I'm still unsure if I will become one.
I have some money in available at one casino, another $50 in ecopayz, and probably a prize from 32Red, plus some cashback come Friday at VS. I regrettably upped my deposit limits at OLG to participate in a contest. I did not win the car. I did get a $10 chip today in return for my $350 in deposits. Last week I also won a $24 slot token as well. In some fairness to me, I did have a nice $2K cashout before upping those limits. I've just lowered them back down as I checked the account to see if I won anything else.
Nothing is gonna come out of my pocket between now and my return from Europe.
The next best thing to quitting gambling is quitting depositing.
My birthday is right after my return, I'll evaluate my position after that.
Laugh at me, or with me, chastise me or share your own struggles. This was probably more for me than any of you, although if it helps someone, that would be great.
Over the years, without this place to give advice I know to be true, and to learn from others' failures and triumphs, I might not be doing as well as I am.
Peace out, as shewolff always says.
I've learnt a lot over my years here at CM, but not everything I need to know.
For those who haven't hear me say it before SOMETIMES IT'S WORSE WHEN YOU ARE WINNING.
GAMBLING IS NOT ABOUT MONEY.
Now, these may not be true for everyone, but they are true for me.
In fact my recent win has meant I don't choose between the deposit and take-out or a case of beer... it's tended to mean I have both.
It also has meant my deposits have been higher in general, and my cash out goals are less modest.
Which really adds up over months.
My losses are well within expectations for the amount I've been playing. I'm less active here as I have money in play often.
Been a rare day there's not something to play somewhere.
Now before anyone gets all worried on my behalf, I am doing okay. I am a little afraid to do the exact math, but I've lost @ 10% of my huge win back. Two weeks ago it was closer to 15%.
I got guilty of chasing losses with big bets, at one particular casino that I was doing less well than expectations. I have did much better than expectations at others, so it helped to fund it, rather than it funding my day to day life or home improvements.
I failed to cash out $700 or $800 quite a number of times.
Reversed a 5K cashout over a delay with documents at a casino with a longer pending period and weekend involved. Even though I blew it, I got the docs and banking in now.
That's bad enough, but I spent probably a couple of grand I shouldn't have thinking I had that coming in.
I need to get back on track. I'm doing better at that past month, the break in Cuba definitely helped, as well as getting active on the home reno front.
A trip is one of the few things that I've ever been success saving money for, and I don't want to have to strictly budget in Europe next week. Today was the first in a lot of days I didn't spend hours gambling.
The fact my body has mostly been unhappy has left me unable to do many of the things I should be doing.
I love slotting, I don't want to spin out of control enough that giving it up entirely is my only option.
I was an awful gambler many years ago, got somewhat smarter.
But I seem to have temporarily misplaced some of those smarts. Not every time, there's been a number of more modest cashouts, 60 cents bet and such, up it to a dollar and quit when I'm ahead if I've had the play time I look for.
Whether you are in complete control, or lack any, I know I remain at "at risk" gambler. We are gamblers because we enjoy risk, although I'm really safe and conservative in most aspects of my life. I think this is a relatively safe place to lose control compared to some others.
I still use the measures I've used for years to limit my losses.
But the day to day budget that limited my losses to a great extent went out the window. I still need to load the prepaid, but the ewallet has taken a beating at times.
And a win doesn't mean quite what it used to either. I have the money right now for the important things with or without a cashout.
I want to thank Casino Twitcher for a bit of reality check on just how expensive you should expect your hobby to be, depending on bet size. I wish I could tag someone here like on facebook.
As many know, I'll be visiting the I-Gaming conference in Amsterdam next week, although I'm still unsure if I will become one.
I have some money in available at one casino, another $50 in ecopayz, and probably a prize from 32Red, plus some cashback come Friday at VS. I regrettably upped my deposit limits at OLG to participate in a contest. I did not win the car. I did get a $10 chip today in return for my $350 in deposits. Last week I also won a $24 slot token as well. In some fairness to me, I did have a nice $2K cashout before upping those limits. I've just lowered them back down as I checked the account to see if I won anything else.
Nothing is gonna come out of my pocket between now and my return from Europe.
The next best thing to quitting gambling is quitting depositing.
My birthday is right after my return, I'll evaluate my position after that.
Laugh at me, or with me, chastise me or share your own struggles. This was probably more for me than any of you, although if it helps someone, that would be great.
Over the years, without this place to give advice I know to be true, and to learn from others' failures and triumphs, I might not be doing as well as I am.
Peace out, as shewolff always says.