I've been gambling for the past 15 years. I've probably lost around 100 000€ in that time.
Last night I lost every last penny i had in my bank account. Started with 100€, lost it, deposited 200€, lost it, deposited 400€, lost it, and on and on until everything was gone. I've had times before when I've lost everything, stopped for a few months and then started gambling again. This time is different though, I just can't keep going round in circles like this anymore time after time. It's just really exhausting! There's been a few times under the years when I've even thought about killing my self, because of the stress and the guilt and shame (don't worry, not going to do it).
I can't control my gambling, like many others can. It's always all or nothing for me. I can't deposit 100€ and have a fun evening winning or losing. Yesterday I was briefly up about 300€, but I just couldn't stop until I lost everything. It's always one more spin, one more game, until I have no money left. It's time to finally acknowledge the fact that i have a serious problem, and that the only thing that will help is to completely give up gambling forever.
The next couple of weeks/months are going to be tough, but I'm 100% certain that I won't gamble anymore. Wish me luck!
Last night I lost every last penny i had in my bank account. Started with 100€, lost it, deposited 200€, lost it, deposited 400€, lost it, and on and on until everything was gone. I've had times before when I've lost everything, stopped for a few months and then started gambling again. This time is different though, I just can't keep going round in circles like this anymore time after time. It's just really exhausting! There's been a few times under the years when I've even thought about killing my self, because of the stress and the guilt and shame (don't worry, not going to do it).
I can't control my gambling, like many others can. It's always all or nothing for me. I can't deposit 100€ and have a fun evening winning or losing. Yesterday I was briefly up about 300€, but I just couldn't stop until I lost everything. It's always one more spin, one more game, until I have no money left. It's time to finally acknowledge the fact that i have a serious problem, and that the only thing that will help is to completely give up gambling forever.
The next couple of weeks/months are going to be tough, but I'm 100% certain that I won't gamble anymore. Wish me luck!