what are your most shameful gambling moments?

frosty3907

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Might be healthy to reflect on why we're trying to not gamble anymore.

For me my worst moments:

1. Gambling $700 bond deposit I was meant to return to my roommate even though I knew he needed it for his next place. He was, after the initial anger, very understanding and even came to a few ga meetings with me after.

2. Not really caring when a long term relationship broke up over gambling because hey; now I can gamble more!

3. Stealing $1600 from petty cash at work one night, luckily (?) when I was down to the last $50 I won back exactly $1600.

4. Getting drunk and crashing my car after a bad bender, twice.

5. Stealing cash from friends and family, numerous times.

Warning: this one contains details of winning, best not to read if you're not solid.
6. Losing $5000 in one night (was a one time tax windfall), getting down to my last $100 and winning $5000 back on a 50c bet. Then immediately losing it all again.

7. Gambling instead of going to ga meetings or immediately after them.
 
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Well, I have never told this story here at the forum before, but I only had $30 for Christmas for me and me kid in 2001 when she was 15. It was the year my dad died, and we had lived without heat for a few weeks, only getting a furnace on Dec 8th. I had bought a number of little things that were stolen when I was out and about shopping around the 20th as well.

We had food for Christmas, and she was spending holidays with her Dad and her grandparents on his side, and I went to the casino and lost that $30.

I'd been gambling as long as she had been alive, always seemed like I had a big win before Xmas. Year before she got that $400 leather jacket she wanted and I couldn't afford.

I had to tell my kid there was nothing from Santa that Christmas.

Not a proud moment for me.

Every story needs a happy ending:

On Christmas Eve my local would always buy the regulars a pint, I stopped in. Another regular offered to buy me a pint to stay, and I told him that I'd really love if he could just give me $5 instead to pick up a little something. He gave me $10, and I got my kid a funky pair of socks and four practical pairs. I had something to wrap up and she was wonderful the next day, because she really expected nothing except a meal.

I really don't know if this will help you any. Nearly 15 years later, I am still gambling, but I do have more self awareness, more self-control, and some tools to help me stay within my limits.

I have times I regret, but that is the one I am most ashamed of. Glad to say nothing recent.
 
Making many promises to my ex including helping her pay the rent because she never got a payment she was due, Lying to a friend about my losses, Betting 9pounds a spin on thunderfist after winning nearly £800 that was just crazy!(this is why I never go higher than £2-4 bets any more! Blowing money quickly that was intended for me to buy myself something for a birthday or money for my xmas(I try not to now) Spent money meant for my sons on machine too again have not done it since and at least I replaced it in double.
 
Oh I remembered another:

I worked in the city and on pay night I went to the casino, lost all my wages and slyly looked at the last $20 I kept for the cab ride home. It was 2am, a work night and I was a long way from home in a city I barely knew. Also I'd just lost $1400, what was another $20?
I lost it, quickly, and started walking in what I assumed was the right direction.
Didn't stumble in to work until 10am.

Also went an entire week without food aside from a single box of McDonald's cookies, a cheeseburger ($2 type) and handfuls of complimentary sugar sachets.
 
I wouldn't call it my most shameful but I want to talk about when I went to a casino for the first time (with no knowledge of any games):

My friends and I were set on making some money through luck and we sat ourselves at a blackjack table. I've never lost money faster than that night. It was when I learned how easy it is to lose money to a casino. My friend helped me out and I got all my money back and then some :) It was a great night especially considering I learned a truly valuable lesson.
 
this thread is depressing and i regret the moment i discovered slots. i have a long time marriage between slots and me, pauses being too small. this month i will celebrate? my 24th birthday and nothing makes me happy more in that particular day than to receive all kinds of freebies and offers, junkie style.
first time when i injected in my veins slots adrenaline was 13 years ago. yes, i started while i was 11 years old because of the big guys from my neighborhood and their dirty routine. my parents thought i was playing football while i played lowstakes american poker II, loving to be between big guys, up to 20 yo. i was looking like a 15 year old at that time, so the cafe bar operator was fooled for a long time. i played no more than 5-10 cents at a session but in our currency was a pillow of shampoo, a soap or a waffer. not much time passed til the first victory, winning 20 euros after the machine going tilt, giving 2 times 5 of a kind and guessing cards in risks like god. I bought big bags of sweets, three football balls and clothes. from that time i sold my soul to slot machines and is embarrassing to admit all the shit i did for slots, the most black period being when i didn't had to eat at least one potato, hearing the water on my back while drinking because of days of starvation and stress. and still it wasn't enough, after forgetting the incident repeating again and again until i was going to put an end to this uncontrollable addiction through final solution but didn't had the balls and thinking to my family. many similar episodes, mainly from 20 yo period which i successfully passed with the help of the loved ones, losing precious friends in the process i miss even now.
13 years later, at least i have the control of finances but i still cant count on me to have unnecessary money in my wallet and i have to lock them in bank accounts. now the first is me, then the ones i love and then the slots. i didn't found the equation without slots.
after all the bullshit i was through, now comes DOA that ruined my nerves and balances for many times, including today. this godawful slot don't let me break it for once and makes me have dark thoughts again with the hope of recoveries but im still in control.
the chances to ever make my thread in this section is very small. divorce is one unrealistic option. i live with it, i deal with it and i will end because of it, more than certain, but it is a continuous danger. fun??? yes, the graphics and adrenaline. i stopped to associate fun with this long time ago. i wish to never have to found gambling and its taste, ups and DOWNS and i wish the spammers never sent me online casino advertising as i was nothing before but a videogames player, land based action being more than enough, until i tasted the cursed fruit. i sold my soul and i hope one day i will be in hoff shoes winning a jackpot to have satisfaction of beating them and to half believe was worth this disgusting timeline. i hav a proven system too, and that is constructed around 3 locked accounts. i need to go in person to the bank and go through some pain before touch that money and was the way i wanted. the only unlocked account is always empty and when money touch it is like touching plague, transfer to casinos being quickly than a blink of eye. if i sound like a degen, well im not one anymore and im on a warm-slighty safe path. always me first and my necessities, laughing in front of slots: eat nothing today!
 
A couple of outstanding acts of stupidy

When i was a kid used to play in an arcade,rain was pissing down and I spent the bus fare home, had a 4 mile walk through
a bad neighborhood to get there

Worst one was winning 20k (over 2 years wages) at English Harbour online casino then losing it all
in 2 days.If that wasnt bad enough I had run up debts close to that on credit cards before.

Much older and wiser now i hope, anything over 40p stakes is big for me and i can usually make a modest deposit last
a couple of months (and never use a credit card)
 
Winning big and then just frittering it away instead of cashing-out - makes me feel like shit every time :mad:
I have done it many dozens of times - and to my shame I am still doing it now...
Not every time though - I'm getting a little better at finding the "withdraw" button.

Right now I have about €1,000 left in V&J casino, after getting it up to over €3,600.
This was from the balance left after I cashed-out €4,000 from a $400 deposit in November - so potentially I COULD have withdrawn €7,600 from that deposit.
What makes it worse, is that most of my frittering has been on slots which I know are CRAP!
It's just stupid :(

KK
 
Winning big and then just frittering it away instead of cashing-out - makes me feel like shit every time :mad:
I have done it many dozens of times - and to my shame I am still doing it now...
Not every time though - I'm getting a little better at finding the "withdraw" button.

Right now I have about €1,000 left in V&J casino, after getting it up to over €3,600.
This was from the balance left after I cashed-out €4,000 from a $400 deposit in November - so potentially I COULD have withdrawn €7,600 from that deposit.
What makes it worse, is that most of my frittering has been on slots which I know are CRAP!
It's just stupid :(

KK
I have done same so many times. I once won £1000 after only ever depoing £5-£10 at a time I was buzzing so happy I cashed out 700 then played the rest £300 and lost it, then I thought to my self WTF have you done I would never depo £50 let alone £300 and whats that it felt like after losing it. That I just £300 of my own money gambling cause I could of had £1000. But what i do know is always withdraw 80-90% of my winnings and leave rest in account to play bit my bit instead of losing it all in one go
 
My flatmates were out and I just got home. Torn between a game of Fifa or a gamble on Wish Upon a Jackpot (on Vegas William Hill at the time) I opted for a quick gamble. I lost a grand in about half hour... chucked the chair across the room and had a mini melt down. That was almost a months wages at the time for me.
I learnt a big lesson that day.

The reverse withdrawal button has stung me far too many times but easily losing a grand in the above circumstances was the worst.
 
Once I was unemployed and had only around £150 on my bank account. I decided to deposit it into an online casino and try my luck there...

So in a weeks time, I was up for £25K (the life-changing money for me then)! Because of the 10K/week withdrawal limits for that casino (i won't name) it took 2 weeks to transfer my winnings.

Long story in short - I had that money for a month and then (in drunk condition) lost it in one day..

My advice: don't repeat my steps - learn from other's mistakes!
 
I once destroyed a slot in a b&m casino long long time ago... :D
I lost big on it and people were lurking around me to get on it once I was broke...
Made sure no one was to profit from my money...:lolup:
Pulled it over and smashed the glass and deformed the reels a bit, the good old reel strips. :rolleyes:

Got a fine and had to repay the costs to fix the slot which was more expensive than I thought...
Also got a year ban from that particular b&m casino...

As said,this is over 20 years ago so I am not ashamed to share this.
Never happened to me again after but this slot was taking the piss BIG TIME.
 
ive been trying to earn/win enough to buy a hot tub ($3500) but havent hit a big win, and sadly have put back in a few decent wins (500-600 range) upping the bet where normally, id take the win and run
 
The guilt of losing money gambling by far has been without a doubt my worst thing I ever started changes you into a bad person when u lose

Actually your worst thing, is blaming everyone and everything apart from yourself, for your loses.

I judge that from your pm's to me. All you kept asking me, was to agree that the slots were rigged.
 
A bit like goatwack (although certainly not as much) i once won a few hundred pounds on a 10p bet and kept playing through to meet wagering without realising the new bonus separate from deposit rule. Needless to say I lost it all...
 
I once destroyed a slot in a b&m casino long long time ago... :D
I lost big on it and people were lurking around me to get on it once I was broke...
Made sure no one was to profit from my money...:lolup:
Pulled it over and smashed the glass and deformed the reels a bit, the good old reel strips. :rolleyes:

Got a fine and had to repay the costs to fix the slot which was more expensive than I thought...
Also got a year ban from that particular b&m casino...

As said,this is over 20 years ago so I am not ashamed to share this.
Never happened to me again after but this slot was taking the piss BIG TIME.
Maybe it was a premonition.

BIG TIME GAMING are taking the piss throughout the 4 corners of the planet, this very moment :D
 
Maybe it was a premonition.

BIG TIME GAMING are taking the piss throughout the 4 corners of the planet, this very moment :D


Well if you gamble from home the only things you can destroy are yours...
Laptop, headset, keyboard, bottle of beer,the cat!!
So it is easier to just bite your lip if you lose. :p

But yeah BTG and Blueprint slots can take you to the edge of madness.
 
Your using the Hot Tub ($3500) as an excuse to not collect.
yeah, some poor choices
problem is/was, a WD of a few hundred, while could technically save toward one, would, and have been, pissed away toward other things...small WDs always seem to get gobbled up for everyday things; so did, what i otherwise wouldnt have, tried the 'big bets'.
i generally max out at a buck bet, and tried the $3-$5 bets, just never hit

honestly, i cant much complain, i got a $2500 WD that made xmas sweet
 
Maybe you should have called him out in private. Seems you’re being a bit harsh all around.
Not really, when I didn't start the pm's.

I reply to him with a worded logical response.

He seems to have not read my replys, and says , so you agree their rigged.

Bleeding dog has just jumped ripped the mouse out of my lap top.

LOL not working at all now
 

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