Well.. I done messed up.
Wife is away for a few days and I'd been good but it eventually got too much I guess.. I thought I'd got through the day but I stupidly watched a youtube of gambling streamers and noticed one showed an aussie casino that was apparently still operating, signed up and lost about $150 which is nothing, Had a whole bunch of wins of course (had wagering).. up all night, feeling so worthless and crappy today.
Closed the account with the new mob (but not before they sold my phone number to spammers, had about 15 calls today).
Don't be too hard on yourself.
Not many people are beating gambling issue at one go.
The most important thing is you stopped after losing $150 and closed the account.
I don't think it is a good idea you watch the gambling video, even if it was the video with someone is losing a lot.
Did you find something else you can do when you think about gambling, for example watching Netflix, playing Play station?
Don't feel too bad about what happened, you just made a couple of steps back, you can focus on making 10 more steps forwards.