This is the end for me.

[garya125]

Well Respin let me say it could always be worse. I work a full time job and live on my own. I have a young daughter from a broken relationship that I pay child maintenance for and see at the weekend. As soon as my money goes in it is taken by bills. I have had no money for 4 years now. I go 5 days at a time without food. Sometimes parents can help me but I dont tell them how poor I am.

Trust me when I say if I was still able to see my daughter at the weekend I would take a life sentence in prison in an instant. In fact i would love it. The stress of trying to pay bills when they total more than your wage is a killer and I already know i wont lead a long life anyway with the stress I have been through.

Would love to have your life!

Sounds nice

 

[Londoncad]

Your post woke me up too

I started off on 20pence spins years ago, the other night was doing $50 spins after a big win, blew the lot. I have self excluded myself from various casinos, trouble is new ones pop up and they are generally far worse than the traditional well established online casinos.

Might have to throw my brand new laptop out the window and become a technophobe.

Wrong section? Sorry if it is.

I must come clean here and say/admit that i cant gamble online anymore. I cant handle it, i thought i could, but i couldnt. Im laying here in the middle of the night typing this and i am on the verge of a nervous breakdown.

Yesterday i got my salary, today ive got nothing left. I dont understand how i can be so damn stupid...i dont feel sorry for me, i feel sorry for my fiancee and my little 3 year old girl.

She talks about everything she wants to do during easter when daddy is free, but her idiot of a dad doenst have any money. I cant pay my bills...

Im writing this to finally admit that i have a problem. Gambling took over my life. I used to watch movies on the evenings, i used to be away with my friends, lately i have been at home playing like my life depended on it. It didnt matter that i hit monster hits on DOA, cause it all went back, and more. I cannot for my life see how im gonna tell her when she wakes up that i cant pay the bills/buy food etc.

I have really no place to turn too. I cant go to the bank, i burned those bridges. The worst thing is that it was all looking brighter, both money wise and personal, during the 10+ years ive been playing online i never ever played away money for bills and food, but now it happened...and i must admit that i have a gambling problem


=(

 

[ChillBill]

He knew what he was doing, and still did it. Time to take some responsibility I would say. I also hope that no one feels they need to help him with money. Don't do it. He has to fix his own mess.

Your right, it was his choice to blow his entire pay-packet.

Why in the world should they pay him back?

Good question.

They don't have to but what he's told us screams gambling addition and people like the OP don't just arrive at this point overnight.

He didn't divulge where he lost, though I'm sure, the casino will state, they follow responsible gaming practices; they all claim to monitor play. Obviously here, like so many others we've seen before, the casino who got his 2,000 Euro has failed in their Duty of Care, in relation to their responsible gaming practices.

If a person is to be accountable for their actions, then so too must any casino who drops the ball. A valid point being overlooked in this thread by most.

Although this is not a court room, I'm sure if it was, the OP would have valid grounds to action the return of money lost.

 

[chuchu59]

Your right, it was his choice to blow his entire pay-packet.



Good question.

They don't have to but what he's told us screams gambling addition and people like the OP don't just arrive at this point overnight.

He didn't divulge where he lost, though I'm sure, the casino will state, they follow responsible gaming practices; they all claim to monitor play. Obviously here, like so many others we've seen before, the casino who got his 2,000 Euro has failed in their Duty of Care, in relation to their responsible gaming practices.

If a person is to be accountable for their actions, then so too must any casino who drops the ball. A valid point being overlooked in this thread by most.

Although this is not a court room, I'm sure if it was, the OP would have valid grounds to action the return of money lost.

While you are definitely right in saying people cannot create gambling addictions overnight there could be a variety of causes that led him to this and it would not be fair to single out a single establishment for the causation.

This is a complex issue and ultimately one has to bear the responsibility of one's losses. The casinos may have contributed to the addiction but they cannot be fully responsible though they could have tried to help problem gamblers out by denying them access or not luring them.

 

[NohchiPlayer]

good luck

 

[Igor82]

I'm curious to hear how the story turned out?

Did respin get his life back on track? It was a heartbreaking post to read

 

[Stovetopp]

I'm curious to hear how the story turned out?

Did respin get his life back on track? It was a heartbreaking post to read

I notice you are from outside USA but I would venture to say this happens 100 perhaps 1000's times per day here in US IN casinos , racetracks , bookies(illegal here) stock market dog tracks
and sports betting.

I had a friend who just died last week from overindulgence in alcohol. She kept insisting she had stopped She drank a whole week without food and dropped dead at a gas station stop
perhaps to gert another bottle. What can you say?

 

[LaurieJim]

Wow , what a story , I read from the start to the end and can only say that this is a great forum full of highly minded folks that will go to the end with you when you need good solid advice.

It is great your GF is handling the money and you have taken the huge step of admitting your problem and dealing with it.

I had a problem awhile back ago when my late Husband Jim passed away before my eyes and let me tell you , there is no place like the friends on CM that will point you in the right way, some of the most up front in your face members are right here to help. I do not know what I would have done without kind words of support and advice they gave me. I hope you take everything they said to heart and use it.

One thing I did to get cash flow coming in was to have a yard sale and part with many things that meant alot to me , whatever it took to get back on my feet again , I also went to all my creditors and they were more than willing to except payment arrangements . Most people will work with you bad credit or not, you can overcome this and I wish you all the best , when in doubt about playing again , as the other member said put your daughters pic up as a screen saver , your gut and heart will not let you be tempted !

Laurie

 

[ChillBill]

I started off on 20pence spins years ago, the other night was doing $50 spins after a big win, blew the lot. I have self excluded myself from various casinos, trouble is new ones pop up and they are generally far worse than the traditional well established online casinos.

Might have to throw my brand new laptop out the window and become a technophobe.

If your playing at respected software brands, you could possibly contact say eCOGRA and ask if they can issue a ban across all of their sealed casinos, poker rooms and what not for you. That's just about most MGS casinos covered. Playtech etc etc, I'd go so far as writing them an email and also requesting this.

But, if you still choose to gamble, then quite possibly, you haven't hit rock bottom, yet.

 

[Jasminebed]

I'd like to think that we haven't heard from the OP because he's being successful in his battle. If we are to believe him, and I see no reason not to, he made a lot of the right moves.

Perhaps that just includes not participating in a gambling forum anymore. Or took some of the advice to cut unnecessary bills, like internet, or sell possessions.

Don't think there are too many addicts that don't have a slip or two on the road to recovery, but we can hope they are minor and don't totally derail things.

I'm very sorry to hear of your friend's tragic end Stovetopp. Lost my best buddy to alcoholism just a couple of years ago.

 

[dunover]

It's a fair point. Rock bottom usually means having exhausted all lines of borrowing, begging, sale of assets and thus the only way can be up. Almost like the alcoholic being marooned on an island - addicted but nothing to feed the addiction with, so cold turkey is the only way. But cold turkey forced is different from wanting to do cold turkey - therein lies the issue.
What many addicted gamblers can't get their head round is to FORGET the past losses. They think 'being good for a month will make me a mere 1% of what I've lost in the past, so what's the point?' That 1% a month means 10 years into the future, so they get put off. I don't envy them one bit. Must be terrible.

 

[Respin_Ftw]

Ok i gotta give a little update. Did i continue to gamble? Yes i did...but i changed alot in my life...i started working out, started to eat better. Basically changed everything for the better. Everytime i make a deposit i must ask my GF to transfer money to me. I have no way of doing it myself.

Money wise im back on track and i dont owe anyone money.

BUT... 3 weeks ago my phone rang, it was my father telling me that my dear mother has gotten a brain tumour.

We dont know the outcome yet and im not in a state where i want to discuss the matter. Im just trying to be strong for her sake.

Thats the important thing right now...that she will become healthy again.

Things can happen so fast in life...its sick!

I just wrote this so you guys know whats up. I dont want to discuss why i continued to gamble....that dont mean shit to me right now.

I just want my mom to get well...

 

[Mouche12]

What terrible news respin, I wish your mother and all your loved ones all the best. I pray it's operable and that she will recover.

 

[mathsboy1975]

Ok i gotta give a little update. Did i continue to gamble? Yes i did...but i changed alot in my life...i started working out, started to eat better. Basically changed everything for the better. Everytime i make a deposit i must ask my GF to transfer money to me. I have no way of doing it myself.

Money wise im back on track and i dont owe anyone money.

BUT... 3 weeks ago my phone rang, it was my father telling me that my dear mother has gotten a brain tumour.

We dont know the outcome yet and im not in a state where i want to discuss the matter. Im just trying to be strong for her sake.

Thats the important thing right now...that she will become healthy again.

Things can happen so fast in life...its sick!

I just wrote this so you guys know whats up. I dont want to discuss why i continued to gamble....that dont mean shit to me right now.

I just want my mom to get well...

The news about your mother is terrible, but at least we can infer from your update that you are still with your GF so it is good to know that at least you still have her in your life to turn to for support in this difficult time. Your initial post on this thread I found very moving as I have been very very close to that point in life with regards to gambling before. I won't go into detail but I will say that I was hoping a great deal that you would overcome the obstacles in your way. Your heartfelt sharing of rock bottom gambling experiences will definitely be of comfort to visitors to this site past or present and many of your posts and responses to them from other members will benefit future visitors I am certain. Sometimes we can take comfort that we are not the first and will not be the last to be the victim of taking gambling to a level that we are not able to control.

I am not a religious man so all I will add is that I respect you a great deal for creating this thread and that I wish you and your family well in the difficult days ahead.

 

[LHofsdal]

So sorry to hear about your mother! I am glad you have made postitive changes in your life. Looks as though you have seen what gambling can do at its worst extent. The good thing is you realized it and changed it. Okay, so you still gamble, but atleast you have help in controling it. When you get the urge to deposit, spend that money on a little something for your honey and/or your mom. I am sure you will get more gratification on spending money on something for them then losing it and feeling like shit afterwards.

Keep going strong! You are doing a good job, and I will be praying for you and your mom and your family. Keep us updated please!

All the best,
LH

 

[Jasminebed]

I hope things go well for your mom.

Having someone control your finances and limit what you can lose is harm reduction, and a useful measure for those unprepared to go all the way.

But my most out of control gambling episodes were all at times of high emotional stress. So if you are not in counselling or a group yet, I strongly advise you to do so.

All addictions are about escaping or distracting from pain at the core of them. And the more pain we are in, the more vunerable we are.

I realized I was not in as much control as I thought I'd gained following my boyfriend's death several years ago.

I know that risk remains with me today, and I have some of my own harm reduction measures in place.

 

[SubzeroWins]

What a sad topic. I wish you a better future Respin!
don't forget, when life is at its worst...it can only get better. Trust me, i've been there

 

[Hydr0]

Lots of good advice here....

Warm wishes m8.

I appreciate that words don't always help when your feeling as you do, even when received from loved ones. In spite of this, please try and remain hopeful.

You will bounce back from this, no doubt

 

[SubzeroWins]

Lots of good advice here....

Warm wishes m8.

I appreciate that words don't always help when your feeling as you do, even when received from loved ones. In spite of this, please try and remain hopeful.

You will bounce back from this, no doubt

I just wanted to add one thing to that
In my case after losing two very important people in my life, words from loved ones actually made things worse (If theres one thing I hate it's pity, seeing it in peoples eyes). Seeking professional help made a tremendous difference for me! Because sometimes you need to talk to somebody who has a certain distance from your problems

 

[jbananachek]

All gamblers should read stories like this to make them think twice if things become a bigger problem.

I only know alcoholics and drug addicts.

 

[Respin_Ftw]

Thanks again for all the kind words. I just came home from visiting her. I am so bad at handling a situation like this...to see my father crushed. And i have my vacation aswell...this was not the vacation i expected...

I just want everything to be normal again...when the reality hits you in the face it happens fast.

I remember when i was younger i always had a fear of something happening to my parents...

 

[Nate]

Hello my Friend - Really sorry to hear that... I wish your Mom and Dad all the best. I hope your mom recovers soonest.

Stay Strong!

Nate

 

[Borgie]

I really hope your Mum is ok . Thioughts with you.

 

[dunover]

Sorry about the illness, I went through a similar thing 6 years back and I sincerely hope the outcome for you is not the same as I experienced.
At least you can face this without the yoke of a big debt and you have your girlfriend on board. I wish you all best.

 

[Respin_Ftw]

The wait is the worst. She´s already been through a surgery recently to get a "sample", and i guess that analyse takes a few weeks. I know by far that im not alone in this...it happens to many, far to many! Old or young..doesnt matter, there´s no way to protect yourself from this evil disease.


And again thanks for all the kindness folks!