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This is it for me!

Discussion in 'Quit Gambling' started by jepulis22, Aug 2, 2015.

    Aug 2, 2015
  1. jepulis22

    jepulis22 Non-Gambler

    I've been gambling for the past 15 years. I've probably lost around 100 000€ in that time.

    Last night I lost every last penny i had in my bank account. Started with 100€, lost it, deposited 200€, lost it, deposited 400€, lost it, and on and on until everything was gone. I've had times before when I've lost everything, stopped for a few months and then started gambling again. This time is different though, I just can't keep going round in circles like this anymore time after time. It's just really exhausting! There's been a few times under the years when I've even thought about killing my self, because of the stress and the guilt and shame (don't worry, not going to do it).

    I can't control my gambling, like many others can. It's always all or nothing for me. I can't deposit 100€ and have a fun evening winning or losing. Yesterday I was briefly up about 300€, but I just couldn't stop until I lost everything. It's always one more spin, one more game, until I have no money left. It's time to finally acknowledge the fact that i have a serious problem, and that the only thing that will help is to completely give up gambling forever.

    The next couple of weeks/months are going to be tough, but I'm 100% certain that I won't gamble anymore. Wish me luck! :thumbsup:
    28 people like this.
  2. Aug 2, 2015
  3. goatwack

    goatwack Comin' atcha like Eric Crumble CAG

    Wow man, that is a brutal admission and testimony. That is really sad to hear how gambling has sapped your spirit like this. I always like to think of gambling as an affliction, something that can really test you to your core.

    It looks like it has really taken hold of you and you've realized enough is enough. I'm sorry to hear that you felt that low as a result of your losses too but you have persevered through it. I say well done for admitting your problem instead of continuing that endless chase, it's not worth ruining your life over. There are probably many of us right now in similar situations that choose to ignore our addiction and are on the brink of quitting or at least cutting back.

    I hope things turn out well for you and best of luck in future!!:lolup:
    4 people like this.
  4. Aug 2, 2015
  5. cncas2123

    cncas2123 Senior Member MM

    As Goatwack says, its tough to admit that you have the problem and if you can admit there is a problem you can at least start planning a resolution. Good luck with the future and hopefully you wont get lured in to the net again, maybe you can avoid this by self excluding at all the sites you play?

    Good luck and stay strong.
    2 people like this.
  6. Aug 2, 2015
  7. jepulis22

    jepulis22 Non-Gambler

    Thanks for the kind words! Yes, I selfexcluded myself from all the casinos I had an account at. It's time to begin a new life without gambling. There's so much more to do than only gambling: read books, watch films, work out, hang with friends.

    I actually feel really relieved now when after 15 years of the same shit, I finally made the choice to stop. Why waste life doing something that doesn't feel good anymore?

    Now I just have to stay strong! :thumbsup:
    3 people like this.
  8. Aug 2, 2015
  9. aceking123

    aceking123 Ueber Meister CAG PABnononaccred MM

    good luck & keep strong theres plenty of great things to do in life or than gambling a new hobby might just be the thing now , keep your mind away from other things)
  10. Aug 2, 2015
  11. Mnx42

    Mnx42 Dormant account

    Good luck to you. I have had my own issues to deal with in the past and I found that if you really have had had enough of whatever it is that's causing you your addiction, you will be stronger than you know. Peace.
  12. Aug 2, 2015
  13. barbara12

    barbara12 Senior Member

    Good luck to you and I hope you find your inner strength. We all know how difficult it is to beat addictions but it sounds to me like you will succeed. I wish you the best.
  14. Aug 2, 2015
  15. Fjellsame

    Fjellsame Experienced Member MM

    Wish you the best of luck in the future. Stay strong and educate yourself about gambling addiction, got get things in perspective. :thumbsup:
  16. Aug 2, 2015
  17. bebo67

    bebo67 Meister Member MM PABnonaccred

    Gemix Queen
    Ontario Canada
    I think we all have been down that long winding road many of times. I know I have. The self loathing, tears, anger. Being broke, and then the high of winning, but in reality you are only winning a portion of what you have spent. It's not a good place to be. I'm sure your post has struck a cord with a few people. When ever you get that urge, remember how awful you felt.
    1 person likes this.
  18. Aug 28, 2015
  19. Glassheart

    Glassheart Experienced Member MM

    Good luxk!
  20. Sep 3, 2015
  21. brotz

    brotz Dormant account

    hotel staff
    Tough story.

    I hope you will make it, forever.:cool:

    I have been clean from gambling for over a month, keeping myself occupied and avoiding situations in which i gambled before helps a lot.

    I tried to stop a couple of times before, but it is like cigarette, once you do it again you dont stop there.
  22. Sep 4, 2015
  23. jepulis22

    jepulis22 Non-Gambler


    Hi all!

    Just a little update:

    I haven't gambled a cent since I made this thread on august 2nd. It's been tough a couple of times, but I've told my friends and family about my gambling problem, and they've been really supportive.

    Today after a couple of beers and being bored, I had an urge to gamble, but I stayed strong and didn't. I just wanted to remind everyone that might struggle with addiction, that it's possible to beat your addictions! It's up to you if you cave in or stay strong!

    Have a nice friday evening everyone! :thumbsup:
    22 people like this.
  24. Sep 4, 2015
  25. Casino2014man

    Casino2014man Non-Gambler

    United Kingdom
    Good stuff - stay strong
  26. Sep 5, 2015
  27. Matti

    Matti Senior Member MM

    On a break from this forum
    So happy for your sake. Stay strong!!
  28. Sep 5, 2015
  29. jetset

    jetset RIP Brian CAG

    Senior Partner, InfoPowa News Service
    Well done Jepulis - kudos on your strength of will!
  30. Sep 22, 2015
  31. aditemonroe12

    aditemonroe12 Dormant account

    Stock Broker
    This is not just your case, there are numerous other people who have gone bankrupt due to gambling. I was no exception but didn’t go bankrupt due to my parents grace. even though they suffered a lot with my useless behaviour towards them, they did the very thing to me by forcing me and taking me to a You must register/login in order to see the link. called Bellwood Health Services for a rehab. I still thank my parents for taking such a crucial decision that saved my life. If I’ve been continuing the same way before, the whole family would have been in prison today. This was the time I realized when you aim high don’t try to find shortcuts, always follow the right path even if it is difficult. Success lies in those difficult paths. I’m glad that you have taken such a decision to stop gambling. Best of luck for your future life.
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