This is it for me!

jepulis22

Non-Gambler
Joined
Mar 9, 2014
Location
Finland
I've been gambling for the past 15 years. I've probably lost around 100 000€ in that time.

Last night I lost every last penny i had in my bank account. Started with 100€, lost it, deposited 200€, lost it, deposited 400€, lost it, and on and on until everything was gone. I've had times before when I've lost everything, stopped for a few months and then started gambling again. This time is different though, I just can't keep going round in circles like this anymore time after time. It's just really exhausting! There's been a few times under the years when I've even thought about killing my self, because of the stress and the guilt and shame (don't worry, not going to do it).

I can't control my gambling, like many others can. It's always all or nothing for me. I can't deposit 100€ and have a fun evening winning or losing. Yesterday I was briefly up about 300€, but I just couldn't stop until I lost everything. It's always one more spin, one more game, until I have no money left. It's time to finally acknowledge the fact that i have a serious problem, and that the only thing that will help is to completely give up gambling forever.

The next couple of weeks/months are going to be tough, but I'm 100% certain that I won't gamble anymore. Wish me luck! :thumbsup:
 

goatwack

We'll just tell your mother we ate it all
CAG
Joined
Aug 29, 2012
Location
Londonia
Wow man, that is a brutal admission and testimony. That is really sad to hear how gambling has sapped your spirit like this. I always like to think of gambling as an affliction, something that can really test you to your core.

It looks like it has really taken hold of you and you've realized enough is enough. I'm sorry to hear that you felt that low as a result of your losses too but you have persevered through it. I say well done for admitting your problem instead of continuing that endless chase, it's not worth ruining your life over. There are probably many of us right now in similar situations that choose to ignore our addiction and are on the brink of quitting or at least cutting back.

I hope things turn out well for you and best of luck in future!!:lolup:
 

cncas2123

Meister Member
Joined
May 23, 2015
Location
Belfast
As Goatwack says, its tough to admit that you have the problem and if you can admit there is a problem you can at least start planning a resolution. Good luck with the future and hopefully you wont get lured in to the net again, maybe you can avoid this by self excluding at all the sites you play?

Good luck and stay strong.
 

jepulis22

Non-Gambler
Joined
Mar 9, 2014
Location
Finland
Thanks for the kind words! Yes, I selfexcluded myself from all the casinos I had an account at. It's time to begin a new life without gambling. There's so much more to do than only gambling: read books, watch films, work out, hang with friends.

I actually feel really relieved now when after 15 years of the same shit, I finally made the choice to stop. Why waste life doing something that doesn't feel good anymore?

Now I just have to stay strong! :thumbsup:
 

aceking123

Paleo Meister (means really, really old)
Joined
Mar 4, 2008
Location
uk
good luck & keep strong theres plenty of great things to do in life or than gambling a new hobby might just be the thing now , keep your mind away from other things)
 

Mnx42

Dormant account
Joined
Jun 30, 2014
Location
Essex
Thanks for the kind words! Yes, I selfexcluded myself from all the casinos I had an account at. It's time to begin a new life without gambling. There's so much more to do than only gambling: read books, watch films, work out, hang with friends.

I actually feel really relieved now when after 15 years of the same shit, I finally made the choice to stop. Why waste life doing something that doesn't feel good anymore?

Now I just have to stay strong! :thumbsup:

Good luck to you. I have had my own issues to deal with in the past and I found that if you really have had had enough of whatever it is that's causing you your addiction, you will be stronger than you know. Peace.
 

barbara12

Senior Member
Joined
Apr 17, 2015
Location
Canada
Good luck to you and I hope you find your inner strength. We all know how difficult it is to beat addictions but it sounds to me like you will succeed. I wish you the best.
 

Fjellsame

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Feb 5, 2015
Location
Norway
Wish you the best of luck in the future. Stay strong and educate yourself about gambling addiction, got get things in perspective. :thumbsup:
 

bebo67

Ueber Meister
PABnonaccred
MM
Joined
Jun 22, 2013
Location
Ontario Canada
I think we all have been down that long winding road many of times. I know I have. The self loathing, tears, anger. Being broke, and then the high of winning, but in reality you are only winning a portion of what you have spent. It's not a good place to be. I'm sure your post has struck a cord with a few people. When ever you get that urge, remember how awful you felt.
 

brotz

Dormant account
Joined
Jun 24, 2014
Location
switzerland
Tough story.

I hope you will make it, forever.:cool:

I have been clean from gambling for over a month, keeping myself occupied and avoiding situations in which i gambled before helps a lot.

I tried to stop a couple of times before, but it is like cigarette, once you do it again you dont stop there.
 

jepulis22

Non-Gambler
Joined
Mar 9, 2014
Location
Finland
Update

Hi all!

Just a little update:

I haven't gambled a cent since I made this thread on august 2nd. It's been tough a couple of times, but I've told my friends and family about my gambling problem, and they've been really supportive.

Today after a couple of beers and being bored, I had an urge to gamble, but I stayed strong and didn't. I just wanted to remind everyone that might struggle with addiction, that it's possible to beat your addictions! It's up to you if you cave in or stay strong!

Have a nice friday evening everyone! :thumbsup:
 

Casino2014man

Non-Gambler
Joined
Oct 24, 2014
Location
United Kingdom
Hi all!

Just a little update:

I haven't gambled a cent since I made this thread on august 2nd. It's been tough a couple of times, but I've told my friends and family about my gambling problem, and they've been really supportive.

Today after a couple of beers and being bored, I had an urge to gamble, but I stayed strong and didn't. I just wanted to remind everyone that might struggle with addiction, that it's possible to beat your addictions! It's up to you if you cave in or stay strong!

Have a nice friday evening everyone! :thumbsup:

Good stuff - stay strong
 

Matti

Senior Member
MM
Joined
Apr 18, 2014
Location
Sweden
Hi all!

Just a little update:

I haven't gambled a cent since I made this thread on august 2nd. It's been tough a couple of times, but I've told my friends and family about my gambling problem, and they've been really supportive.

Today after a couple of beers and being bored, I had an urge to gamble, but I stayed strong and didn't. I just wanted to remind everyone that might struggle with addiction, that it's possible to beat your addictions! It's up to you if you cave in or stay strong!

Have a nice friday evening everyone! :thumbsup:

So happy for your sake. Stay strong!!
 

aditemonroe12

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Joined
Sep 12, 2015
Location
Quebec
This is not just your case, there are numerous other people who have gone bankrupt due to gambling. I was no exception but didn’t go bankrupt due to my parents grace. even though they suffered a lot with my useless behaviour towards them, they did the very thing to me by forcing me and taking me to a
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called Bellwood Health Services for a rehab. I still thank my parents for taking such a crucial decision that saved my life. If I’ve been continuing the same way before, the whole family would have been in prison today. This was the time I realized when you aim high don’t try to find shortcuts, always follow the right path even if it is difficult. Success lies in those difficult paths. I’m glad that you have taken such a decision to stop gambling. Best of luck for your future life.
 
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