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I completely understand your frustration "Rusty", because I was in that position precisely 1-year ago today. I was knee-deep in losing, and I kept trying to buy myself some wins, and it never happened. At that point it hadn't mattered what I'd done, the more I played, the more I deposited, the results were always the same. For me, the games never balanced-out (overall) whenever I pushed for it.
Something that's worked for me this year - and something I'm very thankful for making a habit of practicing - is to let the wins come to me and to never force or expect it to happen. In times past, I led myself to believe that if I busted-out on 30 straight deposits of $100, I'm DUE for a fantastic payout. Sorry, but that never works for me (not that it hasn't worked for others).
My approach this year, is something that I intend to do for the remainder of my days playing online, that is to never force winning. When I lose, the last thing I will do now is make a quick run to the bank the next day, to quick rectify the situation by trying to win all of my mounting losses back. In all of my years playing - and I'm really not sure why that is - I never win. I NEVER win when I absolutely need a win. Never. I accept that now, and I'm better off knowing that.
Playing off the notion - faith - that something big is going to come to save you, is dangerous. It's not healthy playing knowing that there's this constantly growing need to make up for the mounting losses (even if one can afford it). There's nothing fun about mentally feeling like you're carrying a piano on your back. There's so much stress that comes with that, loss of sleep, loss of time, pushing important things off to the side, ect... it's just not worth it.
Coming into the '06 campaign - having giving it some serious thought... although I never wanted to quit completely - was to get away from the game for some time. If I was credited with a free bonus from one of the many casinos I had played at over the years, I play that bonus like I don't care... and play it big. For whatever reason, I seem to have found some luck taking this approach. I rarely go to the bank these days to make a wire to my NeTeller account, and when I do lose, I stay away for awhile. And that's the best thing to do... for me. What I do know, is that I will never push for wins again, and I'll never quickly run back to even score.
Steed
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