I perhaps shouldn't post this here. My Mum has passed away.

[mattsgame]

Sorry to hear of your loss H1_Roller, It's always hard to find the right words to say to someone who has lost a loved one.

Just remember those good times and happy memories as they shall live forever inside you.

Thoughts are with you and your family.

 

[cpdnd31]

First I would like to say I am sorry for your loss. If your mother was in pain as sad as it is you know in your heart it's a good thing. My father passed suddenly 2 weeks before my son was born. It was a very hard time for me. I nearly miscarried 2 times and I was on bed rest. I had to get permission just to go to wake and funeral. However at my fathers funeral there was an old Italian lady there. ( to this day no one including my mother knows who she was) She came up to me and gave me the best advice that got me thru the next year. She said, cry let the tears fall as much as you need to. To let the hurt of missing him out. Then she said just because he is not on earth anymore doesn't mean he is not with me. She said he will be in every thought and wonderful memory I have. She was right. He left alot of good ones. Then she said just because I could'nt pick up a phone and call him doesn't mean I can't talk to him. He will hear me no matter what. I talk to every time especially when I'm worried.. and last she said my father was a strong person. Then she said you are part of him and he raised you so I would be just as strong. She was right again. 2 weeks later I went into labor with my son. He died at birth but they were able to revive him. In front of all the nurses and Drs. I shouted daddy help. And then a big ty when my son started breathing longest moments in my life... I sometimes think as silly as it is my dad died so my son could be born. I know your pain is hard on you now, just know shes with you and when the moment comes you will know it.

 

[Brooklyn]

I sent you a PM and I will send you my phone number so you can call me. I really am thinking about you and your family tonight. I too have lost both my parents tragically and I am dealing with a Cancer scare in one of my children so I can help talk you through or listen through your pain. I am here for you, and I will be there to listen. We may not know each other well, but I am a good listener and no matter what time of day or night you need to call, just to vent, rant or cry I am here . You are in my thoughts and prayers.

♥
Josephine

 

[BingoT]

H1_Roller I am very sorry for your loss.
My Deepest Sympathy
My Thoughts & Prayers are with you and your family
God Bless
~T~

 

[Kotsy1]

Thoughts and prayers are with you H1_Roller . Post away. No need to apologize for posting. We are all here for you. I too lost my mother to cancer a few years back. Very hard to lose your Mom. Go down memory lane with the kids. Look at some old photo's, talk of good times. It will bring a smile and a tear. But it will help....

 

[Cleveland]

You don't have to apologize about feeling the way you do or posting for that matter. It's pretty awesome that you feel comfortable enough to let the other members of the site in on a very personal part of your life. I'm sure you will figure out a way to break the news to your kids. I myself don't have kids so I can't speak to how you should break the news, but i've found in my profession that straight forward, simple, and honest is the best way to go 9 times out of 10.

Sent you a pm.

 

[plasticnote]

Sorry to hear that H1_Roller:

My condolences. if it would make you feel better think that your mum is now in a better place, free from the pain.

 

[Jasminebed]

I am so sorry for your loss. It's been more than 20 years since I lost my mom, and I still miss her. My daughter was 6 at the time.

Somehow we cope, make arrangements, do laundry, make meals and go on with our lives with a hole in our hearts. But all the love your mom had for you helps to fill that hole, and trite as it sounds, time is a great healer.

I think just tell your boys you have bad news, grandma died. Yes, she's in heaven, and no, she won't be coming back. Tell them grandma was old (I know, 64 is not old) and had been sick for a very long time and the doctors couldn't fix her. They will pick up on your sorrow, but make sure they know they don't need to be sad just because you are sad. There are books you can read with your boys. Water Bugs and Dragonflies by Doris Stickney is one I read to my daughter. I'm sure there are others, your local librarian can probably suggest some.

And we are all hear to listen when you need an ear in the middle of the night.

 

[H1_Roller]

Thank you everyone. I know I don't know any of you personally, so I'm even more comforted that you took the time to give me a shoulder to cry on.

The internet (except you guys), and casino games suddenly seem so trivial. I'm going to log out now for a while. Did you ever go away for some time (vacation, holiday, travelling etc), then return home and feel really weird and out of place?..
That's how I'm feeling now. I don't understand it. I guess this is what they call "Raw".

Thank you for everything,

Bye for now...

Mia X

 

[rockycatt]

our condolences we know that pain ,that hole in your heart that it leaves you with , stay as strong as you can it's all anyone can do at these times

 

[SlotMonster]

My deepest condolences to you, Mia.
This is a big loss, we all know, but we all hope that now your Mom in a better place...
Reminding all nice moments, when you were together and enjoyed each other will help you to endure the pain.

Regards,
Viktar.

 

[missmichelle]

My heart goes out to you and your children. You have been given lots of wonderful advice here and as you can see there are so many people to lean on and help you through this tough time.

My thoughts and prayers are with you all.

Michelle

 

[chayton]

Hang in there and take good care of yourself.

 

[jenn1381]

I'm so sorry for your loss... thinking of you all

 

[MaryJean]

I PRAY FOR YOUR STRENGTH AS THE NEW DAYS DAWN H1 ROLLER

Yes, most of us know what you are going through and cry for you.
My mom fell in the middle of the night and I didn't find her until 8 in
the morning. It is hard!

HOWEVER---I found that a way to cope and feel her still near was to
start a family Genealogy. It was very strengthening to have something
solid that I could research and accomplish for my family. In this way they
will always be able to remember her and what she meant to all of you.

Your children's memory will dim sooner than yours, but the family history
will keep her alive for them---and you!

It is also a way to use this old internet to gain courage and strength.

God Bless you and your family!

MaryJean

 

[unicorn40]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my Mom in 2006 and my Dad died when i was 8 yrs. old, so Mom was all we had for those yrs. I feel your loss because for me, theres nothing that hurt that bad to this point in my life. I cried i think it seemed like the whole first yr. and still cry to this day and miss her sooooooooo much. My Moms was sudden and unexpected and we found out it was Cancer...You know, to that point i didn't know what true sort of heartache was. My children were in school and i picked them up after as usual, but in tears. It's hard to find the words for kids, right now honestly it's a blurr what i even said besides Gramma had passed away. I send our deepest condolences to you and yours on the loss of your Mom.

 

[nisosbar]

My deepest condolences to you. :-( I send you hugs and warm, comforting thoughts in this difficult time.

 

[lauram]

I am so so sorry. When my dad passed my youngest was 9, we stayed at my moms house after the funeral. Later he looked up at grandma and i and said so when is grandpa coming back home. Well at the very least that was the hardest thing i had to deal with when my children had been small. And last year their dad passed away at age 56, so this was another mile stone in their life to deal with. Hard i know for you but if you get any comfort what so ever by posting with us by all means please do. I know we cant be there to give you that direct hug. But at least on here we can respond and hug you from afar if that helps. I found during the days following, i would grab their movies they loved best and toss it in the vcr.
I would watch with and make snacks to keep them going, and off anywhere after that the mall anywhere where they did not have time to think on all this. As time went on it did get easier for them. The tough part is you dear, dealing with mom and how to comfort the children. So as i said keep typing as you will get the support here from the cm family.


thoughts are with you

laura

 

[felicie]

Just checking in

How you doing hi roller? A long ways to go I know. Someone gave me this little verse a long time ago and out of all the little things we memorize in our lives, this and John 3:16 are the two I get the most comfort from. Well that and a small list of edibles. ok you got me, it's a long list.
I hope you like it.

Nothing is ever wholly lost.
That which is excellent
remains forever
a part of this Universe.
~R.W.Emerson~

And in our hearts.

 

[taysh075]

Just checked in Mia. So dreadfully sorry to hear your news. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

 

[Nate]

Dear H1_Roller,

Please accept my sincere condolences. It's never easy losing a loved one and nobody would like to get to that stage or relive that moment. It's probably one of the hardest things in letting go of your Mother - who you were so used to having around. Life has its moments - remember the good times you spent with your mom and know that she has moved on from this world, probably to a better place.

I hope God gives you and your family the strength in this tough time. Once again, My sincere Condolences.

Nate

 

[maxd]

H1_Roller, as the others have said, please accept my condolences for your loss. My father died a few years ago -- heart, not the big C -- but too young and very suddenly. Either way I reckon I can imagine what you're going through about now and, yeah, it's pretty crappy. There's nothing good about it, ever, but you'll be surprised how much your mom will stay with you. It's been years now and I still think of my father every other day or so. I can still hear his voice, still care what he would think about the things I do, still draw from his strong spirit when I need to work through difficult times. They're part of us and that never goes away. Be well, care for those that are close to you and never let the memories stray too far. Best wishes to you in this difficult time.

PS. You never need to apologise for your posts here, nothing could be further from the truth.

 

[Silencio]

My sincere condolences..

(Why don't they hurry up with those nanorobots... stupid cancer )

Sorry I don't know what to say, wish you all the best in coping with your grief

 

[PNEFOREVER2]

Sorry for your loss H1,probably doesn't feel like it right now but things get a lot easier with time-I lost my dad when I was 11 and it elt like the end of the world.

My thoughts are with you and your family.

 

[legenden1]

So very sorry for your loss