I never knew until now

[Luigi810]

GA is where I belong, I just got done reading the GA page and I am sick to my stomach. How can I be so stupid, how could I have lost so much money, how could I hurt my family, this pain is unbearable. I read all the signs of a gambler and I fit everyone to a tee, why was I so blind. I'm 42 years old, I had so much money from an inheritance, I had no mortgage, no credit cards, no car payments and now I sit hear with a mortgage, and a car payment and no one to blame but myself. I was doing so good with my wins, cashing out, paying off credits cards, etc. and it sucked me right in, I won so much and now I sit here and see what I really won, "nothing" The more I won the more I played and when I lost I needed money to play so I turned to the good old refinancing the house. What the hell was I thinking. How could I have been so stupid. I sit here and read some of the threads and I want to be sick, I just joined last night to put in a complaint about 2 casinos (which are true, so stay away), and the more I read the more I hate myself. I don't like me right now, I'm not sure if I'm glad I found this site or happy that I realized before it's really to late, if it's not to late already. How do I get back all I lost, my self esteem, my dignity, how do I get it all back. How do I not go back to gambling, how do I lose this urge. I know it's killing me but yet I'm gonna miss the rush of seeing those 4 of a kinds pop up, they are so hard to get and when I got them, oh boy, not to mention the royal flushes at 25.00 a hand, yet the weird thing is I would rather see the 4 of a kind only winning 800.00 then to see the royal and winning 25,000.00, what the hell is my problem. And now I sit here reading all about the terrible casinos and how a lot of casinos don't pay you, plus I just went through the same thing with 2 casinos and I still want to play. I am so confused, so frustrated. I use to get so mad at my dad when he gambled and now I sit here and do the same. I hated him for it and now I hate myself. I hope I make it through this, I can always make the money I work very hard but will I ever get past the pain of guilt? thanks for hearing me vent, I needed it

 

[suzecat]

GA is where I belong, I just got done reading the GA page and I am sick to my stomach. How can I be so stupid, how could I have lost so much money, how could I hurt my family, this pain is unbearable. I read all the signs of a gambler and I fit everyone to a tee, why was I so blind. I'm 42 years old, I had so much money from an inheritance, I had no mortgage, no credit cards, no car payments and now I sit hear with a mortgage, and a car payment and no one to blame but myself. I was doing so good with my wins, cashing out, paying off credits cards, etc. and it sucked me right in, I won so much and now I sit here and see what I really won, "nothing" The more I won the more I played and when I lost I needed money to play so I turned to the good old refinancing the house. What the hell was I thinking. How could I have been so stupid. I sit here and read some of the threads and I want to be sick, I just joined last night to put in a complaint about 2 casinos (which are true, so stay away), and the more I read the more I hate myself. I don't like me right now, I'm not sure if I'm glad I found this site or happy that I realized before it's really to late, if it's not to late already. How do I get back all I lost, my self esteem, my dignity, how do I get it all back. How do I not go back to gambling, how do I lose this urge. I know it's killing me but yet I'm gonna miss the rush of seeing those 4 of a kinds pop up, they are so hard to get and when I got them, oh boy, not to mention the royal flushes at 25.00 a hand, yet the weird thing is I would rather see the 4 of a kind only winning 800.00 then to see the royal and winning 25,000.00, what the hell is my problem. And now I sit here reading all about the terrible casinos and how a lot of casinos don't pay you, plus I just went through the same thing with 2 casinos and I still want to play. I am so confused, so frustrated. I use to get so mad at my dad when he gambled and now I sit here and do the same. I hated him for it and now I hate myself. I hope I make it through this, I can always make the money I work very hard but will I ever get past the pain of guilt? thanks for hearing me vent, I needed it

Luigi810..........bless your soul............you've had a light bulb moment! THAT is what you can build on and be proud of........

 

[winbig]

Yep, admitting you have a problem is a great step in the right direction...so please follow through with it, and be strong. You can do it.

 

[babs7262]

Hi Luigi

You are very brave!! Dont be sickened by your "past" behaviour because today is a new new and you can start anew. Addiction has no class , color, sex or religion. Anyone can get caught up in it. You are no different than anyone else but that is also a good thing. Other ppl have gone to GA or whatever group they needed and got passed their addiction. Today is not the day to get mad at yourself, today is the day to get proud of yourself for recognizing you have a problem and hitting it head on!

I am a recovering addict myself, not from gambling or drinking but still a recovering addict and yesterday (im proud to say) was my 10th anniversary clean. August 16 1998 was the last day my life became unmanagable and today is your first day for you IF YOU WANT IT TI BE. It wont be easy but nothing in life that's good enough to accomplish is.

If you need someone to chat with, please feel free to pm me. Your in the right direction my friend

 

[BingoT]

It takes courage to say what you did.
I give you all the best in the best direction you may take.
Take day by day and never never blame yourself.We are all human and we all learn by our mistakes we shall make in our lives.
A great way to start a new beginning is to admit your faults.& you showed us all here.
Be Proud and never look back to the faults in life and always think positive.
The first step you took in the right direction to recovery is by admitting it.
God Bless Ya
Stand Tall & Be Proud Luigi
Tom

 

[Luigi810]

Luigi810..........bless your soul............you've had a light bulb moment! THAT is what you can build on and be proud of........

Thank you so much for your support.

 

[mojo]

the more I read the more I hate myself

Please don't be so hard on yourself Luigi. It will be ok and it is ok to forgive yourself. You are human and sometimes things get the best of us. The self loathing is a part of it and I hope you move on from it quickly. I've been there. I hope to see you try to leave that behind and brush yourself off. The finanicial situation improves quickly once you stop depositing. In my case, I had to stop my funding methods. I really hated myself. To this day I cannot be trusted with an atm card so I don't have one. The bank keeps offering it and I keep refusing. I play mostly with prepaid debit cards and only when I have the cash.

Hang in there luigi and talking about it openly will help you even though it's hard. There is a good crew here to help you in any way they can.

 

[Luigi810]

Yep, admitting you have a problem is a great step in the right direction...so please follow through with it, and be strong. You can do it.

I like to think of myself as strong, I will do this, thanks so much for your support.

 

[Luigi810]

Thank you, and congratulations to you, you should really be proud of yourself,
Addictions are not hard to beat, but you give me hope, I may take you up on that chat if things get unbearable, If feels great knowing there are good people out there that we all can turn to, everyone has been so supportive, I didn't get one negative, I really thought I would get bashed.
Thanks again for all your support.

You are very brave!! Dont be sickened by your "past" behaviour because today is a new new and you can start anew. Addiction has no class , color, sex or religion. Anyone can get caught up in it. You are no different than anyone else but that is also a good thing. Other ppl have gone to GA or whatever group they needed and got passed their addiction. Today is not the day to get mad at yourself, today is the day to get proud of yourself for recognizing you have a problem and hitting it head on!

I am a recovering addict myself, not from gambling or drinking but still a recovering addict and yesterday (im proud to say) was my 10th anniversary clean. August 16 1998 was the last day my life became unmanagable and today is your first day for you IF YOU WANT IT TI BE. It wont be easy but nothing in life that's good enough to accomplish is.

If you need someone to chat with, please feel free to pm me. Your in the right direction my friend[/QUOTE]

 

[Luigi810]

Please don't be so hard on yourself Luigi. It will be ok and it is ok to forgive yourself. You are human and sometimes things get the best of us. The self loathing is a part of it and I hope you move on from it quickly. I've been there. I hope to see you try to leave that behind and brush yourself off. The finanicial situation improves quickly once you stop depositing. In my case, I had to stop my funding methods. I really hated myself. To this day I cannot be trusted with an atm card so I don't have one. The bank keeps offering it and I keep refusing. I play mostly with prepaid debit cards and only when I have the cash.

Hang in there luigi and talking about it openly will help you even though it's hard. There is a good crew here to help you in any way they can.

You just gave me a great idea with the atm card, I am closing my bank account tomorrow, the only method I was able to use was my debit card and my bank account because I live in the US, in just a few small hours I have made so many changes, I DON'T want to gamble anymore, I am sickened by this feeling. I am so grateful I have you all to turn too, I didn't realize there were so many others like me out there. THANK YOU SO MUCH and GOOD LUCK TO YOU TOO, you seem to have your act together, that is great.

 

[anniemac]

Hey Luigi,

Hang in there. Been there, done that, got the teeshirt. The debit card is the way to go if you don't just quit cold turkey. Then you have to make a conscious decision to put the money on it. Makes you think about it instead of just doing it.

Find you something else to do. You have a wife, I know, any kids? Do anything that will take away the thought of gambling.

Any time you want to talk, just PM me. I'm not on here all the time but most of the time I check in pretty often.

anniemac

 

[silcnlayc]

Luigi: I DON'T want to gamble anymore, I am sickened by this feeling

Luigi, we all have our vices (addictions) in life and once you recognize the one you have and start controlling it, you will have it licked in no time...the first thing was admitting it..which you have done..second is to set your limits and bounderies...which looks like you are doing..

Just keep doing these things and you will find your way...and if you ever fall off this path, do not beat yourself up, just pick yourself up , shake it off and continue down this path...it is a very hard road but if one puts their mind to it they can do anything...

If you need a hand going down this road...always remember you are not alone, we are right there by you, helping you on your way to peace within yourself about yourself...a lot of the tools needed to go this route are right here, our experiences and downfalls, to help you avoid them..

Good luck Luigi,....we are here for you!

 

[Luigi810]

Let me start off by saying I am female, my husband is Luigi, my name is Diane,
I am the one with the problem, I unfortunately cannot have any kids and I think that has a lot to do with my gambling, to much free time and it does make me forget everything, I talk about forgetting everything but I had no worries to begin with, I just don't know what happened and how I got this far.
And how I never realized I had a problem. I'm spending 5-10,000.00 a week, like it was always going to be there and I didn't even care I was losing. I cannot be trusted with any cards whatsoever, if I have money in the bank to pay bills I just use it and replace it the next day and hope that nothing will bounce before I get to deposit it. I have so many changes to make that my head is spinning, I really need to get rid of this guilt first so I can move on, and so much to make up to my husband, I blame him for not stopping me, he said I had a problem but I didn't believe him, if he knew I had a problem why didn't he take away the money instead of trusting me with it all. I know it's not his fault, he never got mad at me, and look what I've done to him.
I haven't gambled in 2 days, this is the longest time in 5 years..I am so grateful I found you all, If it wasn't for all this support I don't know where I'd turn. When I first started reading the GA page I hated this site, I was mad at casinomeister for even having that page, now I am so grateful and I can't thank them enough. Thanks for eveything, I will keep all posted. And if anyone needs me, I will always be here


Hang in there. Been there, done that, got the teeshirt. The debit card is the way to go if you don't just quit cold turkey. Then you have to make a conscious decision to put the money on it. Makes you think about it instead of just doing it.

Find you something else to do. You have a wife, I know, any kids? Do anything that will take away the thought of gambling.

Any time you want to talk, just PM me. I'm not on here all the time but most of the time I check in pretty often.

anniemac[/QUOTE]

 

[anniemac]

Sorry, Diane. I thought, as I am sure others did, that you were male. That being said, it really makes no difference.

Here's my story. This is not to make anyone feel sorry for me but here it is. I lost my father in April, 1997. My husband was killed on the job in October, 1997 and my first grandchild was born December, 1997. I had kidney surgery in February, 1998 and my daughter left her husband in April, 1998. Oh, and I had a 15 yr. old son left at home. After 2 years of trying to find my "behind with both hands" and waiting on the next crisis, I discovered bingo. Well, here I went. 7 days a week. From bingo, I went to the casinos. I went through an awful lot of money. Then I found online casinos. Oh boy, I could stay at home and still gamble. Well, that fun soon turned to NOT!! The first win is wonderful. The succession of losses were depressing. Slowly but surely, I have cut down. Set limits, closed accounts and am seriously considering a netnanny type of lockout. And I have been to the GA website also.

So, when I said I had been there, I have. But do not blame anyone else. Nobody made me spend what I did. So, it is up to you to stop. Get help from someone if you can't help yourself. Alot of us here on this forum have or have had the same problems. We will help where we can.

Offer still stands, PM me if you would like. I will give you my email address if you don't want to come on this forum.

anniemac

 

[catrina m]

This forum isnt just about gambling

its about the people that gamble, and the members here are very fast to offer support and advice

a good place to be!

 

[catrina m]

The casino's are basically all the same

They will let you play awhile at a low roll but eventually take it

Has anyone ever noticed that you can hit low rolling, not much mind you, but get a few nice wins

raise your bet where they are in danger of a real payout and it shuts down

I low roll, and cash a hundred or two here and there, but my deposits usually equal it or I am actually on the losing end

Hit a nice one, think its paying and raise the bet. BOOM! bye bye money

lol

How can you actually win?

All in all, They let me win enough to keep depositing and hoping, but I am a loser in the long run, as is most that will admit it ( except for KK who has discipline and self control)

I haven't put myself in a bad predicament because I refuse to lose any more than what I have extra

But I could do a lot with that

This thread has inspired me to buy something for myself with my extra money and cut down on my deposits to a minimum. If I lose it so be it, I am tired of chasing the elusive big payout. If I hit on 25% of what I am spending now it will be that much sweeter!

 

[lauram]

First off Diane i think you need a hugggg. I think a few of us here at cm have also walked in those steps of over depositing. I for one when i first started to deposit in jan this year I was making large deposits with few returns then when the losses started rolling in I also was disgusted in myself. I found a bit of content with by looking at it all this way at the time i was dropping in large sums of money i was very happy and having fun playing so why take that part away from myself. Then as you said, it catches upwith you so i laid back for a bit. Then i did a google search and found a site to chat with others about it and found one very helpful person that said they also have been there done that. They now play tourneys lower deposits and so on. So i in turn started to do 20 to 50 deposit, playing lowest bets and i seem to have more fun this way i see more bonus rounds free spins and i limit myself to what i would spend as pocket money rather then over doing it. Not saying this will work for everyone but this did work for me at times i go weeks with no deposits now. Give it a few days you should feel a little better if need be to chat give me a pm or any of the others that you might feel comfortable with.
Laura

 

[babs7262]

One thing I also wanted to add since youve stated your bankroll each week. Alot of people are under the assumption that if you can afford to lose that much its ok. This is why alot of celebrities have drug.,drinking and gambling problems. The amount you have to spend doesnt mean you are not addicted or not have a problem. Im not saying you said that Diane. I just felt like I wanted to say that.

If I made $1 million a year and could afford to spend $10K a week and did does that mean I dont have a problem? THere is a huge misconception about hitting rock bottom. I dont believe a person has to reach rock bottom in order to get help, infact, its much stronger for a person to stop before he reaches it. THat show willpower while rock bottom shows "no choice"

 

[anniemac]

So right, Babs.

You know I think that every player - B&M or online - should sit down and put pencil to paper and see exactly where they are for some period of time. I used a month because for the last 6 months all my play has been about the same. I figured up deposits, withdrawals, coupons etc. Sure did open my eyes.

I also think that gambling addiction is like alcohol addiction - runs in the family. My dad was a poker player. Strange thing was that he would never let me play poker with him even in fun. Not a woman's game. At aone time I was a pretty fair poker player. Be interesting to know the odds on that.

Slowly but surely, I am working on mine. From 10-15 casino down to 3. Thousands down to a hundred. Will be down to 1-2 soon.

Besides I have to save up to go pick up my son in NC when he gets out of the Marines in November.

 

[same_old]

Luigi your a good soul mate and I honestly wish you nothing but the best in life for you and your family.


Money is only a material possesion mate you have family,friends and I'm sure a caring husband.
Yes it is very upsetting but not the end of the world for you, keep your head up buddy. As the others have said the first step is actually acknowledging you have a problem ( which you already have done), Do those things you used to do before online gambling, what does it for me is fishing,computer games,my new little baby boy and my wife, not to mention the lovely bunch here who will move mountains to help you.

Keep on Keepin on Girl!!!!

 

[Luigi810]

It's NOT ok to spend foolishly no matter how much a person has, and by no means could I have afforded it, that was a one time inheritance and now it's gone, I lost more than a half a million dollars in just 6 months, not to mention what I spent the other 4 years I didn't have money, If I had to sit here and tell everyone all I've done in the past 5 years no one would believe it, I don't care as much about losing the money, I care that I hurt my husband, money comes and goes, gambling is just not about losing money, it's about hurting the people you love. I work hard, I know I'll make it, I just need my husband to know how sorry I am. I hate myself because I neglected the one person that means the world to me, I hate myself because I could have gave some of that money to a charity, and I hate myself because it took me so long to find out I had a problem. I'm not bragging about what I spent, I'm not proud of it, I didn't earn it, the bottom line is I hurt my husband and I need to make sure he knows just how much he means to me.

One thing I also wanted to add since youve stated your bankroll each week. Alot of people are under the assumption that if you can afford to lose that much its ok. This is why alot of celebrities have drug.,drinking and gambling problems. The amount you have to spend doesnt mean you are not addicted or not have a problem. Im not saying you said that Diane. I just felt like I wanted to say that.

If I made $1 million a year and could afford to spend $10K a week and did does that mean I dont have a problem? THere is a huge misconception about hitting rock bottom. I dont believe a person has to reach rock bottom in order to get help, infact, its much stronger for a person to stop before he reaches it. THat show willpower while rock bottom shows "no choice"

 

[Luigi810]

I could use that huggg right about now, everyone is being so nice but yet I feel like a good fight. I wish I was playing and I am so mad that I'm not, I'm sitting here at 1:14am tired as hell, I have to be up for work at 7:00 and I feel so restless. I wish I could play like a lot of you do but I can't stop, if I win I won't go to bed until it's gone, I could never just walk away. I will not give in to this disease. Thanks Laura for the hugg, I needed it, and thanks so much for your support.

First off Diane i think you need a hugggg. I think a few of us here at cm have also walked in those steps of over depositing. I for one when i first started to deposit in jan this year I was making large deposits with few returns then when the losses started rolling in I also was disgusted in myself. I found a bit of content with by looking at it all this way at the time i was dropping in large sums of money i was very happy and having fun playing so why take that part away from myself. Then as you said, it catches upwith you so i laid back for a bit. Then i did a google search and found a site to chat with others about it and found one very helpful person that said they also have been there done that. They now play tourneys lower deposits and so on. So i in turn started to do 20 to 50 deposit, playing lowest bets and i seem to have more fun this way i see more bonus rounds free spins and i limit myself to what i would spend as pocket money rather then over doing it. Not saying this will work for everyone but this did work for me at times i go weeks with no deposits now. Give it a few days you should feel a little better if need be to chat give me a pm or any of the others that you might feel comfortable with.
Laura

 

[bb28]

Try to be kind to yourself Luigi and forgiving......and yes I know that is the hardest thing of all, is to forgive yourself, but you have to in order to move on. You've taken the first big step and realized that it's a problem, so don't give in to it now, because you will only be setting up a cycle of a high while you are playing and then it will be back to self loathing........so don't do it, please. Uninstall them, unsubscribe from the emails, give yourself something good to feel instead of self hate. Start right NOW!

Hugs......
BB

 

[Spikey]

"so much to make up to my husband, I blame him for not stopping me".

I found out a while ago I had a gambling problem too. But I know that nobody could have told me that I would end up addicted or even that I was addicted. If someone had stopped me I would have resented them and I would never have discovered that I needed to stop on my own. I believe that's why we have a life, to learn the things that don't make sense.


One important thing is to take one day at a time. Don't look at all the damage that you have done over the years and expect to fix it tomorrow, it will make you worse. It's best to look at what problems you have today and what you can do today. Do that every day and your life will slowly but surely get better.

 

[zebedy]

hi diane,
sorry to hear about your troubles, it looks like your on your way to recovery though by admitting you have a problem

i dont really have much to add as the members here already posted what i would have said but one thing you should do is to not regret or waste your time and energy on things that have already happened, i know its hard to do but you must look forward,
i expect everybody has done some dumb things in there lives, but regretting them gets you nowhere,
good luck i hope things get better

 

[babs7262]

"so much to make up to my husband, I blame him for not stopping me".

I found out a while ago I had a gambling problem too. But I know that nobody could have told me that I would end up addicted or even that I was addicted. If someone had stopped me I would have resented them and I would never have discovered that I needed to stop on my own. I believe that's why we have a life, to learn the things that don't make sense.


One important thing is to take one day at a time. Don't look at all the damage that you have done over the years and expect to fix it tomorrow, it will make you worse. It's best to look at what problems you have today and what you can do today. Do that every day and your life will slowly but surely get better.

This last paragraph couldnt be truer!! When I was in that rehab, the first thing he asked me was "how long have you been doing this" I said "about 8 yrs" he then said "It took you 8 years to get here, so expect it to take another 8 years to get back" Very true, it wont take one day, one month or even one year. It takes a lifetime. Its hard, very hard. Even though its been 10 yrs for me, I still cant go into certain places without getting the itch.

IMHO (no disrespect to those who said this, honestly) I dont think Diane will be ok just to low roll and uninstall all but one or two casinos. She is way passed that. I feel she needs to uninstall all of them and limit or even stay away from parts of this site. Please dont look at winner screenshots or anything that will trigger you. I say this with care, I think you should PM people from here that your comfortable with and give/ask for emails and not come in here for a bit. I mean that in the most caring way Diane. I enjoy our pm's and feel we can get the same result in emails. Some can cut back but I just think her having even one casino on her desktop could be damaging. Ill pm you my email and others can too who wish to keep helping her

 

[anniemac]

Babs,

Right again. When I was talking about cutting down, I said "if you can't quit cold turkey".

I know exactly how she feels. I, too, have been mad because I didn't have the money to play and I am one of the ones that will play til it's gone.

I wish I could just quit but not quite there yet. But getting closer every day. Like you said, did get this way overnight and won't go away overnight.

All have a good and blessed day.

 

[Luigi810]

3 days and counting, LOL I CANNOT believe it..and yes Babs I cannot even have one casino on my computer, it would be to tempting for me. I actually felt great when I woke up and didn't have to run money to the bank to make sure nothing was going to bounce. For 5 years I played at least 10 hours a day so 3 days is actually long for me, last night was a bad night, I fought not to download a casino but I made it. When I think of playing I get that sick feeling again and then I think of all the people out there for me showing me so much support and I feel terrible, not to mention my husband and how I feel when I think of hurting him again. I just hope hope hope I don't have a brain freeze and start playing again, but I don't think I will, not sure yet, but I really don't think I will..I'll keep you posted...I feel like there is so much pressure off of me, I never had this feeling before. It feel sooo good

Try to be kind to yourself Luigi and forgiving......and yes I know that is the hardest thing of all, is to forgive yourself, but you have to in order to move on. You've taken the first big step and realized that it's a problem, so don't give in to it now, because you will only be setting up a cycle of a high while you are playing and then it will be back to self loathing........so don't do it, please. Uninstall them, unsubscribe from the emails, give yourself something good to feel instead of self hate. Start right NOW!

Hugs......
BB

"so much to make up to my husband, I blame him for not stopping me".

I found out a while ago I had a gambling problem too. But I know that nobody could have told me that I would end up addicted or even that I was addicted. If someone had stopped me I would have resented them and I would never have discovered that I needed to stop on my own. I believe that's why we have a life, to learn the things that don't make sense.


One important thing is to take one day at a time. Don't look at all the damage that you have done over the years and expect to fix it tomorrow, it will make you worse. It's best to look at what problems you have today and what you can do today. Do that every day and your life will slowly but surely get better.

hi diane,
sorry to hear about your troubles, it looks like your on your way to recovery though by admitting you have a problem

i dont really have much to add as the members here already posted what i would have said but one thing you should do is to not regret or waste your time and energy on things that have already happened, i know its hard to do but you must look forward,
i expect everybody has done some dumb things in there lives, but regretting them gets you nowhere,
good luck i hope things get better

This last paragraph couldnt be truer!! When I was in that rehab, the first thing he asked me was "how long have you been doing this" I said "about 8 yrs" he then said "It took you 8 years to get here, so expect it to take another 8 years to get back" Very true, it wont take one day, one month or even one year. It takes a lifetime. Its hard, very hard. Even though its been 10 yrs for me, I still cant go into certain places without getting the itch.

IMHO (no disrespect to those who said this, honestly) I dont think Diane will be ok just to low roll and uninstall all but one or two casinos. She is way passed that. I feel she needs to uninstall all of them and limit or even stay away from parts of this site. Please dont look at winner screenshots or anything that will trigger you. I say this with care, I think you should PM people from here that your comfortable with and give/ask for emails and not come in here for a bit. I mean that in the most caring way Diane. I enjoy our pm's and feel we can get the same result in emails. Some can cut back but I just think her having even one casino on her desktop could be damaging. Ill pm you my email and others can too who wish to keep helping her

Babs,

Right again. When I was talking about cutting down, I said "if you can't quit cold turkey".

I know exactly how she feels. I, too, have been mad because I didn't have the money to play and I am one of the ones that will play til it's gone.

I wish I could just quit but not quite there yet. But getting closer every day. Like you said, did get this way overnight and won't go away overnight.

All have a good and blessed day.

 

[kauphy]

hi

hi i play on-line and have been coming to this site for a long time. the people r great here. i have a story to tell hope it helps. not about myself but about my brother who has been into drugs for almost all his life. 2 and a half years ago. i got a phone call it was from my brother and he told me his wife lifted him after 27 years of bring marryed she 2 was into drugs. she was no winner. he wanted to kill himself so my mom and i went over to help. to make a long story short he has been clean for over 2 years has remarried and is happyer now then he has ever been in his life it was a long walk but he had alot of help along the way and he still has hes days but he takes it one step at a time. the point is he never gave up and he could have caz he had alot of health prombles been in the hospital 15 times and lost alot to his ex but now he has more then he ever had. be happy not hard on urself you still have ur husband and ur health what you lost is nothing to what you could have lost. trust in god and he will help you find ur way.

 

[Luigi810]

I am really glad to hear a happy ending for your brother, it's give all of us here who have additions , hope, thanks for taking the time to write me, it means a lot. Diane

hi i play on-line and have been coming to this site for a long time. the people r great here. i have a story to tell hope it helps. not about myself but about my brother who has been into drugs for almost all his life. 2 and a half years ago. i got a phone call it was from my brother and he told me his wife lifted him after 27 years of bring marryed she 2 was into drugs. she was no winner. he wanted to kill himself so my mom and i went over to help. to make a long story short he has been clean for over 2 years has remarried and is happyer now then he has ever been in his life it was a long walk but he had alot of help along the way and he still has hes days but he takes it one step at a time. the point is he never gave up and he could have caz he had alot of health prombles been in the hospital 15 times and lost alot to his ex but now he has more then he ever had. be happy not hard on urself you still have ur husband and ur health what you lost is nothing to what you could have lost. trust in god and he will help you find ur way.

 

[babs7262]

Annie Mac

You gave an inspiration. Last night I was playing and was very tired. I too play until its gone (unless i hit something big). Well, after reading that I decided to close the casino with $8 left for this morning. I didnt have a cashout and only got it up to about $40 BUT...it lasted awhile, I was well rested and didnt have to make a deposit this morning.

I think we can all learn a lesson from this thread.

Congratulations on your 3rd day Diane!

 

[Luigi810]

Annie Mac

You gave an inspiration. Last night I was playing and was very tired. I too play until its gone (unless i hit something big). Well, after reading that I decided to close the casino with $8 left for this morning. I didnt have a cashout and only got it up to about $40 BUT...it lasted awhile, I was well rested and didnt have to make a deposit this morning.

I think we can all learn a lesson from this thread.

Congratulations on your 3rd day Diane![/QUOTE

I'm so glad for you AnnieMac, I now know that feeling of not having to rush to make a deposit, even though it's just one day, it's a great feeling plus waking up and still having money left to play, keep it up.
And thanks so much for the Congrats. it feels great

 

[anniemac]

Lord, ya'll, don't use me for inspiration.

I am probably the worst person for that. But I did send one more down the road today so I am now down to two.

Luigi810, it does feel good to get up in the morning and actually feel good about yourself. Not be going "Oh crap, now what do I do?"

So here we go, one minute at a time, one hour at a time, one day at a time.

 

[Alexishot69]

please

please tell me if i am way out of order however the minute someone realises that gambling has cost them a few pennies more than they can afford to lose and that theyre happy they dont have to deposit one day then forgive me if i am wrong but isnt it time to close this chapter? I had a close friend who had a gambling addiction and i hope casinomeister will forgive me for posting this link but www.gamcare.co.uk was the place he turned for help and it worked for him ..its so easy to gamble these days infact 24/7 unlike other aaddictions ;like alcohol where theres only so much u can drink or smoking only so many u can smoke but gambling keeps going until you have no funds available and thats rock bottom...if you go t that sitte you will read some terribly sad stories about just how bad it can and will get if u dont stop and i know its easier said than done..i will say onething though maybe its not such a great idea you found this site because to be honest for the most part its about promoting gambling and it might maybe not now but in the future lead you back and i think its a good idea to take temptation away ..please forgive me if you feel this is a bit strong but just my honest opinion and goes for anyone with a problem regarding gambling....alex x

 

[anniemac]

Alexishot,

You are probably right about not coming back to this site. But I think Luigi810 felt like she had made friends here and needed someone to talk to. And this was where she felt comfortable.

I know that's why I come here so often. I can find gambling tips all over the net. I just like the folks here.

 

[1819]

wow. all i can say is wow. to all you folks, who lent support to this girl, you should be commended. i also commend her for turning the corner and attempting to right a wrong. it will not be easy. there are never any quick fixes to these situations. diane i wish you all the best. i also congratulate the others who told stories of trouble. good to see folks not giving up when they are up against it. life is a one shot deal. we get one. wish it were more. mistakes will be made. there is no doubt about that. how we handle those mistakes determines how are lives will be. if you could talk to one person who is dead i guarantee they would take all the problems we have to be alive again. not the way it works though. so to those of us who have problems, some bigger than others but all important, keep pluggin away.

 

[suzecat]

Alexishot,

You are probably right about not coming back to this site. But I think Luigi810 felt like she had made friends here and needed someone to talk to. And this was where she felt comfortable.

I know that's why I come here so often. I can find gambling tips all over the net. I just like the folks here.

This forum was where Diane came at her low point ..........kinda like she knew this was where someone (or many) would have a lantern lit to show her the way out of the cave. Can't say this is the only place she would have found direction, but it was her choice and sure am sure we have all learned from it! Thank you Diane!

 

[Alexishot69]

well

This forum was where Diane came at her low point ..........kinda like she knew this was where someone (or many) would have a lantern lit to show her the way out of the cave. Can't say this is the only place she would have found direction, but it was her choice and sure am sure we have all learned from it! Thank you Diane!

Hey i totally appreciate that it was her choice 100% thats not even close to what i was saying..if i was in and many more were in that predicament the LAST place on earth id want to find comfort is at a gambling associated site...its like being an alcoholic and only place you can get is comfort iss at a pub/bar etc ...sorry to sound harsh but to get your life back on track you must stay away from all sites assoc. with gambling...and anyone who disagrees with this certainly does not know the true implications or consequences of what gambling can do to a person....

 

[mojo]

afford to lose and that theyre happy they dont have to deposit one day then forgive me if i am wrong but isnt it time to close this chapter? I had a close friend who had a gambling addiction and i hope casinomeister will forgive me for posting this link but www.gamcare.co.uk was the place he turned for help and it worked for him

I agree Game Care is a great service. It works for some. It wouldn't work for me, I would just use another computer in the house or if it was that bad, re-installing windows doesn't take tooo long. Heck, computers are pretty cheap these days. Point is, if you want to gamble, you will.

I can only speak for myself, what worked for me was cancelling my funding methods. Although there is an inconvience of not having an atm debit card on my checking account, it has sure fired worked for me. I can't play if I can't fund.

It's hard to say what will work for each individual. You are probably right, in AA they tell people to stay away from other alcoholics in the beginning. Perhaps problem gamblers should stay away from other gamblers. I'm no expert. For me other gamblers who told me that it was ok to forgive myself lifted my spirits more than i could ever say.

I think by Dianes posts she is on the right track in finding what is right for her. IMHO, the healing comes from caring support, whatever the source.

 

[Alexishot69]

""I think by Dianes posts she is on the right track in finding what is right for her. IMHO, the healing comes from caring support, whatever the source""

One thing i do know is this site or anyother gambling site is NOT THE SOURCE.few days away from glambling feeling good and comes on here feeling strong and all of a sudden "wow" a 200% bonus " ill just ....you know the rest ..www.gamblock.com is also a source more worthwhile diane ...you will never ever get better visiting here or anyother gambling sites i assure you 100%...please please take this as gospel...

 

[mojo]

Since I am not a professional in this field I would not give 100% assurance on anything. Game Care is a good site and Link Removed (Old/Invalid) .

Best Wishes.

 

[anniemac]

Alexis,

While you are correct about staying away from something that is your downfall, sometimes the only place you can turn is a place where people know how you feel. You don't have to hide the fact that you spent the grocery/mortgage etc. money. Can't tell your family so you have to tell someone. The gamblers I know don't pass judgement and they try to help the ones that want to quit.

I would rather someone came here for help than nowhere and ended up doing something really stupid.

Casinomeister offers help to those that want to quit. Bryan has made this offer more than once on the forum. This forum is more than just a promotion for online gambling. While GA and the others are the best places for most, you get help where you can.

 

[Luigi810]

To be honest, I came to this site to complain about 2 casino's, as I started to read the different pages to find out more about the site I came to the GA page, when I started to read about the signs I burst into tears, my husband always said I had a problem but I didn't believe him and would actually get mad when he said it, I wrote about my problem because I was feeling so low and needed to vent, never knowing I would get any responses, If it wasn't for all the support I would be gambling right now, I didn't stop because I ran out of money, of course I could never play like I was, I want to top because of all the lies I told my husband about what I was doing with the money and how much I hurt him, not to mention the sleepless nights from playing, the constant running to the bank to make a deposit, and all the days and nights I spent away from my family and friends, just to play, it was controlling me, just like it still is, I haven't played in 3 days but I am going through some kind of withhdraw, I feel like a part of me is missing, it's hard.. I love this site, this site saved me, I never dreamed in a million years I would here telling people all of my problems, besides my husband no one else knows what I've done. I feel like I got so much off my chest, so much pressure is gone, It was great today when I woke up and didn't have to be at the bank before it even opened. I need everyone here, I didn't have a clue that there were different GA sites out there, I am sticking with my friends here, I need them and hopefully they can depend on me or learn something from my mistakes.
I don't read some of the threads, I hate to hear how people are getting ripped off, it makes me sick, I also don't like to read some because they talk about good casinos, like I first mentioned when I wrote in. I am trying my best to remain casino free, I need you all..

""I think by Dianes posts she is on the right track in finding what is right for her. IMHO, the healing comes from caring support, whatever the source""

One thing i do know is this site or anyother gambling site is NOT THE SOURCE.few days away from glambling feeling good and comes on here feeling strong and all of a sudden "wow" a 200% bonus " ill just ....you know the rest ..www.gamblock.com is also a source more worthwhile diane ...you will never ever get better visiting here or anyother gambling sites i assure you 100%...please please take this as gospel...

I agree Game Care is a great service. It works for some. It wouldn't work for me, I would just use another computer in the house or if it was that bad, re-installing windows doesn't take tooo long. Heck, computers are pretty cheap these days. Point is, if you want to gamble, you will.

I can only speak for myself, what worked for me was cancelling my funding methods. Although there is an inconvience of not having an atm debit card on my checking account, it has sure fired worked for me. I can't play if I can't fund.

It's hard to say what will work for each individual. You are probably right, in AA they tell people to stay away from other alcoholics in the beginning. Perhaps problem gamblers should stay away from other gamblers. I'm no expert. For me other gamblers who told me that it was ok to forgive myself lifted my spirits more than i could ever say.

I think by Dianes posts she is on the right track in finding what is right for her. IMHO, the healing comes from caring support, whatever the source.

Hey i totally appreciate that it was her choice 100% thats not even close to what i was saying..if i was in and many more were in that predicament the LAST place on earth id want to find comfort is at a gambling associated site...its like being an alcoholic and only place you can get is comfort iss at a pub/bar etc ...sorry to sound harsh but to get your life back on track you must stay away from all sites assoc. with gambling...and anyone who disagrees with this certainly does not know the true implications or consequences of what gambling can do to a person....

This forum was where Diane came at her low point ..........kinda like she knew this was where someone (or many) would have a lantern lit to show her the way out of the cave. Can't say this is the only place she would have found direction, but it was her choice and sure am sure we have all learned from it! Thank you Diane!

wow. all i can say is wow. to all you folks, who lent support to this girl, you should be commended. i also commend her for turning the corner and attempting to right a wrong. it will not be easy. there are never any quick fixes to these situations. diane i wish you all the best. i also congratulate the others who told stories of trouble. good to see folks not giving up when they are up against it. life is a one shot deal. we get one. wish it were more. mistakes will be made. there is no doubt about that. how we handle those mistakes determines how are lives will be. if you could talk to one person who is dead i guarantee they would take all the problems we have to be alive again. not the way it works though. so to those of us who have problems, some bigger than others but all important, keep pluggin away.

Alexishot,

You are probably right about not coming back to this site. But I think Luigi810 felt like she had made friends here and needed someone to talk to. And this was where she felt comfortable.

I know that's why I come here so often. I can find gambling tips all over the net. I just like the folks here.

please tell me if i am way out of order however the minute someone realises that gambling has cost them a few pennies more than they can afford to lose and that theyre happy they dont have to deposit one day then forgive me if i am wrong but isnt it time to close this chapter? I had a close friend who had a gambling addiction and i hope casinomeister will forgive me for posting this link but www.gamcare.co.uk was the place he turned for help and it worked for him ..its so easy to gamble these days infact 24/7 unlike other aaddictions ;like alcohol where theres only so much u can drink or smoking only so many u can smoke but gambling keeps going until you have no funds available and thats rock bottom...if you go t that sitte you will read some terribly sad stories about just how bad it can and will get if u dont stop and i know its easier said than done..i will say onething though maybe its not such a great idea you found this site because to be honest for the most part its about promoting gambling and it might maybe not now but in the future lead you back and i think its a good idea to take temptation away ..please forgive me if you feel this is a bit strong but just my honest opinion and goes for anyone with a problem regarding gambling....alex x

 

[Alexishot69]

Alexis,

While you are correct about staying away from something that is your downfall, sometimes the only place you can turn is a place where people know how you feel. You don't have to hide the fact that you spent the grocery/mortgage etc. money. Can't tell your family so you have to tell someone. The gamblers I know don't pass judgement and they try to help the ones that want to quit.

I would rather someone came here for help than nowhere and ended up doing something really stupid.

Casinomeister offers help to those that want to quit. Bryan has made this offer more than once on the forum. This forum is more than just a promotion for online gambling. While GA and the others are the best places for most, you get help where you can.

Gee i really dont want to get into an argument here but if anyone seriosuly believes that coming to a site that predominatly promottes gambling looking for help to quit gambling then sorry but that goes against every single piece of professional advice..i seriously cannot believe anyone would advocate coming here to chat and look for help in quitting gambling NOT that i dislike the site far from it i think its cool but because theres too many possibilities to continue gambling..i wouldnt if i were an alcoholic go to a bar cos i had friends there would you?? geee i cant believe what im reading here....is there noone thinking along the same lines as me at all???

 

[mojo]

Gee i really dont want to get into an argument here but if anyone seriosuly believes that coming to a site that predominatly promottes gambling looking for help to quit gambling then sorry but that goes against every single piece of professional advice..i seriously cannot believe anyone would advocate coming here to chat and look for help in quitting gambling NOT that i dislike the site far from it i think its cool but because theres too many possibilities to continue gambling..i wouldnt if i were an alcoholic go to a bar cos i had friends there would you?? geee i cant believe what im reading here....is there noone thinking along the same lines as me at all???

No offense Alexishot and I'm sure you are coming from a good place but your advice wouldn't have worked for me when I was fighting this. I tried to explain that. While it's helpful to some what worked for me was support from other gamblers to help me overcome it. I think they saved me and I still get tears of gratitude. As far as alcoholics, I know one who has been a (sober) bartender for years. There is no cut and dry answer and I suggest seeking professional advice. I am not a professional so I will not give it. Just my own personal experience that I hope will help. I think all of the support here has helped tremendously. I would never tell anyone what to do, it's whatever WORKS.

 

[Alexishot69]

OMG

No offense Alexishot and I'm sure you are coming from a good place but your advice wouldn't have worked for me when I was fighting this. I tried to explain that. While it's helpful to some what worked for me was support from other gamblers to help me overcome it. I think they saved me and I still get tears of gratitude. As far as alcoholics, I know one who has been a (sober) bartender for years. There is no cut and dry answer and I suggest seeking professional advice. I am not a professional so I will not give it. Just my own personal experience that I hope will help. I think all of the support here has helped tremendously. I would never tell anyone what to do, it's whatever WORKS.

Ive sat and read this entire post alover again and still am shocked that someone who has a serious gambling adiction would welcome visiting ANY gambling site looking for help EXCEPT if it was gamcare or gamblersannonymous or such site...people who have a serious addiction like diane need proper professional help and that is obvious and part of the recovery from glambling advocates that you refrain from either going to,visiting sites ANYTHING that prmots or makes you think about gambling so if diane continues to visit here theres only gonna be one outcome and any sensible person out there who thinks otherwise im sorry but they are wrong..and the reason i say this is i am a social worker here in the uk and have come across many such people in this predicament ..not that i am saying i am a professional but i do know enough to feel confident in what i am writing...diane gamcare offers chatrooms where u can talk t other people in your situation WITHOUT flashing banners offering deposit bonuses etc etcwhich i assure you will inevitably lead you back to another bad night or more...trsut me i know...

 

[Luigi810]

No one is trying to argue with you, we all have different beliefs, this site has helped me more than I ever imagined and I found it by accident. I know all about the threads and how some promote gambling, I did the same myself just a few days ago, I was telling people where to play and where not to play, but now I try and stay away from those threads and get the support I need. There is no right or wrong here and I think it's great you voice your opinion and yes for some GA meetings is the way to go but I found comfort here for now and if I find it's getting hard for me I will try GA. Thank you for caring..

Gee i really dont want to get into an argument here but if anyone seriosuly believes that coming to a site that predominatly promottes gambling looking for help to quit gambling then sorry but that goes against every single piece of professional advice..i seriously cannot believe anyone would advocate coming here to chat and look for help in quitting gambling NOT that i dislike the site far from it i think its cool but because theres too many possibilities to continue gambling..i wouldnt if i were an alcoholic go to a bar cos i had friends there would you?? geee i cant believe what im reading here....is there noone thinking along the same lines as me at all???

 

[silcnlayc]

coming here to chat and look for help in quitting gambling

This is more than a gambling site. It is a community. You cannot gamble HERE unlike visiting a bar for support where you can actually drink...reformed alcoholics see liquor everywhere and drinking is "promoted" on every street corner bar, tv, billboards...just as gambling is just a small part of this site, the support, news, information etc is also a part of it.

Again I say, nowhere on here can you gamble...Just as you sit with other AA members in any group, for support and encouragement the same goes for here...it is a START..GA is not for everyone...many will not even attempt to go to a GA meeting or admit they have a problem.

Here is a stepping stone to understanding why it is you do what you do to be able to go the next step...GA if needed...there is also a list of suggestions from many of us who got ourselves under control and listed how we were able to get some of our lives back and try to pass this on to help others on how to start quitting and overcome the need that is so deep within oneself..

Bottom line is that we know, we feel, we understand the need and can help one through it in anonimity but with compassion and caring....that is what one needs ....group support..and while in here typing, reading and discussing, they are NOT gambling...also, the casinomeister also honors all requests for banning oneself if asked...

 

[Alexishot69]

are u serious?

This is more than a gambling site. It is a community. You cannot gamble HERE unlike visiting a bar for support where you can actually drink...reformed alcoholics see liquor everywhere and drinking is "promoted" on every street corner bar, tv, billboards...just as gambling is just a small part of this site, the support, news, information etc is also a part of it.

Again I say, nowhere on here can you gamble...Just as you sit with other AA members in any group, for support and encouragement the same goes for here...it is a START..GA is not for everyone...many will not even attempt to go to a GA meeting or admit they have a problem.

Here is a stepping stone to understanding why it is you do what you do to be able to go the next step...GA if needed...there is also a list of suggestions from many of us who got ourselves under control and listed how we were able to get some of our lives back and try to pass this on to help others on how to start quitting and overcome the need that is so deep within oneself..

Bottom line is that we know, we feel, we understand the need and can help one through it in anonimity but with compassion and caring....that is what one needs ....group support..and while in here typing, reading and discussing, they are NOT gambling...also, the casinomeister also honors all requests for banning oneself if asked...

Yes its a community BUT its a community where the ONE MAIN subject is gambling and how on earth are you meant to forget about gambling ,...ahh whats the point ;..

 

[mercy]

As an outsider, it is refreshing Alexis to read your posts regarding this serious matter.I hope that Diane listens to your advice, as it is the ONLY solution as any professional would agree.