I never knew until now

[Luigi810]

YES, today is another accomplishment, I also know what you mean about getting caught up in ourselves, yesterday I started to read other threads to see if I can lend a helping hand when it comes to the good/bad casinos and deposits methods, Who of all people should know better, I've played in everyone. I am heading out now, (I really missed the sun ) but I will return shortly. Thanks Babs for everything, you fought for my stay here and I will never forget that, not to mention all the support, and for everyone else who supported/supports me, thank you all. Please don't argue with each other, as I learned here we all have our own opinions and there are no right or wrong answers, that's what makes this site so great, we can say how we feel and hopefully learn from one another. I'm on my way to see my dad, I miss him, he keeps asking me why I don't go see him to often, I'll use this opportunity to tell him why.

Congratulations on your 5 days!! Im very happy that so many people are helping you. In a way, (not that Im happy about your problem in any way) but the last couple of weeks in here havnt been the coziest (in which I partook in as well) and you coming here really shows no matter how upset we get at each other, when someone is really hurting....we put all feelings aside and help each other as a group.

Its so easy to get caught up in ourselves, especially with gambling. Its just a great feeling to know that I (as well as others in here) can share a problem and whether your a member for one day or one year, someone is here to help

I hope today is another accomplishment. Ill try to come in here once a day to say congratulations so you know we havnt forgotten you

 

[babs7262]

How you doing Diane? You ok? Need any chats?

 

[Jasminebed]

Diane: I've waited a while to speak in this thread, and I would like to encourage you keep fighting your addiction. Addictions are born out of pain, and you should seriously consider seeing a therapist. If you go to a GA meeting, you do not have to speak, you can just listen until you feel comfortable. There are medications that help with compulsive behaviour, at least for some people. Telling your dad is a good idea. Telling your husband is the right thing. Telling us, and telling yourself.

The more tools you have in your arsenal to fight this war, the better chance you have to lick it. I do think that strategies that make it more difficult to gamble are good ones, like getting rid of deposit methods, uninstalling casinos and self-excluding from the ones that offer such. Why tempt fate. And buy yourself a big calendar and proudly mark "I did not gamble today" on each square. Have a reward system like you do for little kids, and big kids too, which is why groups like AA, GA & NA have pins.

Should I even say "Good Luck" in your battle? We have all the luck we need, and should all remember just how blessed we are.

 

[Luigi810]

OMG after midnight tonight makes it a week, I cannot believe it, I have the urge every once in a while but everytime I get the urge I do something, yesterday was bad, I woke up at 6:30 in the morning so I had the whole day and nothing to do, and I knew that was dangerous for me, I was actually mad at myself because I could have played if I was careful when I did play so I was pissed that what I enjoyed so much I ruined for myself. I started to clean at 7:00am and didn't stop until 6:00pm, then I cooked dinner and baked right after, by the time I got finished I was to exhausted to even think about gambling.
Today I had the urge too so I went to the farm and bought a bushel of eggplant to make jars for the year, that should keep me busy for about 4 hours, I'm ok when I'm busy so all week I made sure I had something to do.
I didn't tell my dad and I'm not sure if thats good or bad, when I walked in his house he was soooo happy to see me, I only live a few blocks away so going over 3 times a month made me feel so bad and I wanted to explain why but I was not only ashamed but he was so happy and I didn't want to ruin it for him. I told him I was busy at work all the time and I told him he would see me more because I quit my job, I do work but I only work 10 hours a week but nobody ever knew that. I use to holler at him all the time for gambling, I was paying all the bills when I lived at home because he would always gamble and I didn't want my sisters, brother and mom to suffer for it so I always made sure everyone was taken care of, he hasn't gambled in about 15 years. He went from being a millionaire to me paying the bills. When I first started playing online, he knew I was playing, he didn't now how much but he didn't warn me about how bad it could have gotten, you think I would have learned by what I went through with him, I still can't believe I even gambled after all I've been through, oh well, I guess ya live, ya learn.
Every time I write like this it makes me remember so much, I hated it when I first started because I wanted to forget, but now I like it because I feel like it's making me stronger and I go from sitting here missing the casino to so being mad I even want to play. I'm glad you wrote me Babs, I get so much out when I write, thanks so much for thinking of me. How are you?
Baked any pretzels lately

 

[Luigi810]

I watched Dr. Phil a couple of nights ago, it was about gambling, I got so upset listening to the guy with the problem I cried the whole night, I don't know if I could do GA, when people are hurt it upsets me to no end. I couldn't even tell my dad, I felt ashamed and he was so happy I couldn't hurt him. I do believe addictions are born out of pain, my dad was a gambler and my mom was bed ridden for 18 years, but yet although there were these problems, I had the best childhood if you could believe it, besides my parents issues, we were all so close, still today. My mom passing away was hard, thats when I decided to have children, I waited because I knew she needed me more than anything, then of course I found out I couldn't have children, I tried for 7 years with infertility treatments and nothing, then I even tried to adopt 2 times, the first time the mother changed her mind the day she had the baby, which I understood and got through it, it must have been hard for her, I still have a birthday cake for him every April 21st, she named him Jordan, but thats my little way of not forgetting the son I almost had, he'll be 18 this April... The second time I was on a waiting list with an agency for 2 years, I called one day to see how things were going and they closed up without even telling me, that was harder than anything, I tracked down the social worker I was dealing with, it took me 5 years to find her, she changed her name, moved and got a new job but I was determined to find her just to let her know what she did hurt me. I could never do that to anybody.
But I did get through it all, so yes I do believe additions are born out of pain, but then again I also believe in not making excuses. The only thing I DO know right now is that meeting everyone on here saved me. Thanks so much Jasminebed for the support, I could NOT get through this without you all.
I do and always considered myself blessed, I am a very lucky person,

 

[babs7262]

I didnt make pretzles but made homemade pizza today. It was good. I sauteed up some nystrip and onions and used bbqsauce and shredded 3 cheese mixtures. It was really good. I used the same dough as the auntie annes.

There's this documentary on netflix and probably at the video store called "chemical dependentcy" (sp). I know the name sounds just like drugs and drinking but it covers all addictions, how you get it, if your family has a tendency towards addiction and its very informative.

Gambling really has nothing to do with money, if it did, most addicts would cashout at decent balances. Its that feeling, that rush they get when they hit something. Just like other behavior problems like rapists..it has nothing to do with sex, its the power. There is something in addicts brains that arrnt releasing the endorphines we need to get satisfied so we are constantly looking for it.

You are probably gambling because you said your dad did and couldnt believe it that you wanted to after going through that. Well, there are two ways a person can go when a parent has an addiction. One is the opposite way so far apart they cant even see them The other way is doing what they did so you can understand them and make you feel closer to them in a way. Human behavior is very difficult in a way.

Im happy your finding things to do. Ive been watching alot of Columbos this weekend LOL.

 

[Luigi810]

Boy do we have ALOT in common, Columbo is the best, I just bought all 3 of the best of columbos dvd's collection, from the very first to the last columbo, I even dvr it when it comes on tv, my dad would call me down late at night when it came on, he knew I loved it, my mom would scream at him cause I had school in the morning, LOL..The pizza sounds great, I just read the ingredients to my husband he wants to know when I'm making it, lol..
I just looked up Chemical Dependence, netflix does had it and I will rent it.
Thanks for that info. I use to get mad when people bring family issues as to why they have problems, I would always say get over it, it happened now you move on, your stronger than that, If that was my problem I should have practiced what I preached. Thanks for checking in on me, makes me feel good knowing I can turn to a good friend..Any more good recipes just pass them right along Happy Cooking

I didnt make pretzles but made homemade pizza today. It was good. I sauteed up some nystrip and onions and used bbqsauce and shredded 3 cheese mixtures. It was really good. I used the same dough as the auntie annes.

There's this documentary on netflix and probably at the video store called "chemical dependentcy" (sp). I know the name sounds just like drugs and drinking but it covers all addictions, how you get it, if your family has a tendency towards addiction and its very informative.

Gambling really has nothing to do with money, if it did, most addicts would cashout at decent balances. Its that feeling, that rush they get when they hit something. Just like other behavior problems like rapists..it has nothing to do with sex, its the power. There is something in addicts brains that arrnt releasing the endorphines we need to get satisfied so we are constantly looking for it.

You are probably gambling because you said your dad did and couldnt believe it that you wanted to after going through that. Well, there are two ways a person can go when a parent has an addiction. One is the opposite way so far apart they cant even see them The other way is doing what they did so you can understand them and make you feel closer to them in a way. Human behavior is very difficult in a way.

Im happy your finding things to do. Ive been watching alot of Columbos this weekend LOL.

 

[Casinomeister]

Hi all,

Just beginning to catch up a bit, and I'm surprised that no one has pointed Diane to this page:
https://www.casinomeister.com/quit-gambling/

Google "stop gambling now" and it's right there staring at you.

Also, if anyone wants to start a new thread that includes creative ways to quit that haven't been mentioned before, by all means please do so. I can add these if they're good enough

And Diane - more power to ya. As you have discovered, this forum is not merely a place where gamblers hang out. This is a dynamic community that assists in many ways. You can also choose to opt out if you think that will help.

 

[suzecat]

Hi all,

Just beginning to catch up a bit, and I'm surprised that no one has pointed Diane to this page:
https://www.casinomeister.com/quit-gambling/

Google "stop gambling now" and it's right there staring at you.

Also, if anyone wants to start a new thread that includes creative ways to quit that haven't been mentioned before, by all means please do so. I can add these if they're good enough

And Diane - more power to ya. As you have discovered, this forum is not merely a place where gamblers hang out. This is a dynamic community that assists in many ways. You can also choose to opt out if you think that will help.

Bryan.........we've been waiting for you to post so we could click the Quit Gambling! link in your sig............ Difficult to find otherwise.

 

[catrina m]

If you click the I game reps in Bryans sig you can see the ones that read here, even if they do not respond.

Important to stay well read on casinomeister

 

[Luigi810]

Hi Bryan, I'm going to try that page now, thank you...I also now realize that this forum is not just about gamblers hanging out, I have had so much support and made so many new friends, If I didn't find casinomeister when I did I would still be gambling, I'm sure you read my thread and how I came on here to complain about a couple of casinos and to also add a few good casinos and didn't realize how bad I WAS until I read the GA page and from there I wrote a letter, just to vent, I had no clue that I would get a response.
I would never "Opt Out" never, this place saved me..I would also like you to know that Simmo saved me from getting blocked out of here, along with a really good supporter and friend babs7262, a not so friendly person thought I belonged somewhere else and was trying to get me blocked, I just wanted you to be aware of that...I am doing great, I did play one night just 200.00, I'm still trying to figure out why, maybe it was to test myself, who knows, but it made me feel so guilty, 2 weeks and going strong ..Thanks so much for your concern Bryan, I really appreciate it..
P.S. Who knows, maybe I can start a new thread on how to stop, wouldn't that be nice, lol