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I can't stop the bleeding, so I am on sabbatical. And I just got that winning feelin

Discussion in 'Online Casinos' started by 3mptyseat, Jan 20, 2011.

    Jan 20, 2011
  1. 3mptyseat

    3mptyseat Quit Gambling PABnonaccred

    Occupation:
    Pressing Buttons
    Location:
    California de Norte
    I am no stranger to bad luck. And I am no dummy (I just play one in real life). I know the ways of that cruel mistress, variance. I can remember the first time I had a RTP of 100x bet on one of the pub IGT video lottery machines at a campus bar in Oregon. It was 1999. I was 19, but bald enough the bouncer never carded me. It was glorious. I didn't need booze, inhalants, or smoke, like my peers did; I just needed the machine.

    I also remember some real quick u turns at the casino. And I remember some of the 'shouldn't have lost that much' weekends. What I don't remember is ever feeling that the wins could make up for the loses. So I made the activity fun, and that fun I made the point of the habit.

    I grew to respect the machine as a god of sorts, for the machine giveth AND the machine taketh away. And though it wasn't easy at first, I eventually learned to gamble with limits, accept those limits, and have fun or get up.

    Until the last few months. And I don't need to look into my current streak at all. I don't need an analysis of my RTD (Return to Dusty). I don't want to even complain. I just intend to take every single casino off of my computers that I don't have fun at. I started this morning with the Level 11 platform, every last one of them. I am on holiday for awhile, and heres why...

    I have deposited a ton of coin at a couple of those level 11 casinos, and I haven't had a cashout since November. And that is 100 percent on me. I get juicer than Phil Hellmuth on a nut flush draw with 2 pair at times (for those who need a clearer analogy, I make bets and deposits like the big girl at the buffet makes trips back to the line), and before I know it, the winnings are gone and that 3mptyseat becomes occupied by a man (a dapper, handsome man at that!) with an 3mpty hole where his soul used to sit.

    I ain't quitting gambling, its a lifestyle, and I enjoy it nearly as much as I respect it. BUT GODDAMN if its not time for a break. I think, like many chemicals for some people, like money for others, and like sex for the lucky few, it's super fucking addictive when you let urself go. At least for me, before I know it, I can't remember the last time I had fun. For me, I have been compromising my standards of bankroll mang. and max loss limit in favor of my impulses lately. And it had to stop. I just excluded myself permanently from a couple places that I felt were unethical, and I have been uninstalling like a man possessed.

    And it feels great to take some of the power back. I know that people complain a lot, and it's okay. In fact, its not a bad thing in a forum that 'advocates fair play', bc we need to hear the bad stuff so we can avoid it, and lets face it, you are just not going to hear about it too often when players are treated square and without incident...(BC they are at the bank or living la vida loca, not cpu'ing it all night in a pity party post parade. Yes, like this pity party I am hosting here, lol)

    And, IMHO, it's the nature of the gambler to have a distorted sense of the way things played out. I have been thinking about Hamlet, and frankly, I have not been true to thyself lately. I often hear losing poker players explaining their losses in terms that omit fact, and depend on the pretense of brighter days to come. They seem dishonest to their listeners, for sure, but worse, to THEMSELVES as well. SO, I want to make note of the fact that I am happy I have been on such a shit streak of late. It was all my fault and nary one time did I get fuct by a cheating game or even by a lil bad luck. And so I'm thankful and feel lucky that I issued the 'stop loss' before it got uglier. And I am glad I did not hit a big win yest or last week, it might have strung me along for a lot longer.

    And I am 100 percent positive, tonight after work, its gonna be brutal. But I was bleeding out bad. Since I couldn't stop the bleeding, I have taken a break. And it feels like I just hit the big one!
     
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  2. Jan 20, 2011
  3. rockycatt

    rockycatt meistercatt CAG MM

    Occupation:
    carpenter
    Location:
    Boston
    written eloquently :thumbsup:

    PS :D spell check off
     
  4. Jan 20, 2011
  5. 3mptyseat

    3mptyseat Quit Gambling PABnonaccred

    Occupation:
    Pressing Buttons
    Location:
    California de Norte
    What did I misspell? I got extra time to proofread ish now :eek2:
     
  6. Jan 20, 2011
  7. LHofsdal

    LHofsdal Ueber Meister MM

    Occupation:
    Retired
    Location:
    NY
    Hang in there, you can do it. You knew when to take a break, your strong enough to stay away!!

    Your going to be just fine, I know it.

    All the best,'
    LH
     
  8. Jan 20, 2011
  9. silcnlayc

    silcnlayc Just one more spin pleez! CAG MM PABnonaccred PABaccred

    Occupation:
    IT Director of Operations
    Location:
    Left Hungary
    It feels good, being free..and it does take time to get used to it. I uninstalled ALL casinos also...and only have 2 on my computer at this time (been a few months now since I backed off my depositing frenzy) Those two have only been on my computer a week now..and they both had free chips offered. As I play the free chips, I uninstall again....after a while you will get tired of uninstalling and installing...so you limit your damage..I started selling some stuff on ebay again (been doing that since 1994) and it feels great! Now, I do not log into the casino but into Ebay for a fix...I love seeing the "Green" lit up (sold items with cash coming to me). This is how I weaned myself from those brutal nights...

    I, too loved online gambling...but it stopped loving me back..so as a cheating lover...I left it..the temptations are still there to download...but then I find myself popping into Ebay and forgetting it all again..

    Find something to do...that is the key, that you enjoy, that takes up your time and makes you work for it..(selling on Ebay is not easy, it involves a lot of work).

    When I stop seeing blank bonus rounds, and more winning screenshots, I won't be back to gambling full time like I used to..I would rather enjoy collecting my monies from Paypal...and hoarding it until I go on a trip again to a landbased casino..

    Hopefully, you will make it...as some of us have...to the point of calm...and taking back your control..

    .
     
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  10. Jan 21, 2011
  11. petro

    petro Dormant account, per user request PABnoaccred2 PABaccred

    Occupation:
    N/A
    Location:
    Narnia
    I wish you the best of luck 3mptyseat! I hope it turns out good for you. :)
     
  12. Jan 21, 2011
  13. jod5413

    jod5413 Is That Better?

    Occupation:
    having a good time doing anything
    Location:
    somewhere on the planet
    You have written a thought provoking and honest post here, 3mptyseat. It is good to turn your back on the "hobby" that is not fun any more.

    Good Luck on managing your "Break" from on line gambling. :thumbsup:
     
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  14. Jan 21, 2011
  15. rockycatt

    rockycatt meistercatt CAG MM

    Occupation:
    carpenter
    Location:
    Boston
    you did perfect im the one that uses spell check your post was written excellent the pun was on me
     
  16. Jan 21, 2011
  17. slotjunkie

    slotjunkie Dormant account

    Occupation:
    Interior Designer
    Location:
    Washington State
    Love that feeling! Yes it is hard work, but it is rewarding work!
    Good for you!
     
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  18. Jan 22, 2011
  19. Nate

    Nate Ueber Meister CAG webmeister

    Occupation:
    Monster
    Location:
    Cyberspace
    Thats why I find it VERY important to share my losing experiences. I post my winning screen shots 50% of the time and when im in the mood.

    I have had many nightmare sessions (put down to BAD LUCK by casinos) and I am almost certain that the bad luck was actually NOT the case. I have been a gambler for MANY years and I don't want to go into specifics BUT, it is very important that we share negative / losing experiences on this board as openly as we flaunt our big wins.

    One of the biggest problems about gambling is that individuals believe they can emulate past wins... Sharing is informative for those who are newbies and it would help so they are not easily lead into believing that winning is possible all the time... Winning is more openly advertised and people are sometimes ashamed to admit they have a problem or share it with others.

    Good Luck 3mptyseat...
     
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  20. Jan 25, 2011
  21. jod5413

    jod5413 Is That Better?

    Occupation:
    having a good time doing anything
    Location:
    somewhere on the planet
    WOW, 3empty! I just noticed you posted in the winning screen shots forum. What happened to "your bleeded out sabbatical"? :eek:
     
  22. Jan 25, 2011
  23. 3mptyseat

    3mptyseat Quit Gambling PABnonaccred

    Occupation:
    Pressing Buttons
    Location:
    California de Norte
    I took about 26 hours off, and have been limiting myself to $200 in deposits a day. Which seems like a lot to many I'm sure and yet, enough is never enough... I guess my point was to gather some support with which to inspire a change (check), and remind myself of the futile nature of chasing losses (check). And I think the process has yielded better results; I have put my hobby into perspective and kept it fun since the op... Also had some nice hits and my first cashout of 2011... On the other hand, I had cashout situations at inetbet and at 3dice that I squandered, so I still need to utilize my brain a bit more and my clicking finger a lil less...

    Um, yep, thats what I gotta say for myself...:oops:
     
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  24. Jan 25, 2011
  25. Papa-ya

    Papa-ya Dormant account

    Occupation:
    Retired
    Location:
    USA
    Cheers :thumbsup: to you 3emptyseat, you do have support and I know the process of redirecting ones thinking is just that, a process and over time your view and habits can change to suit you better.
    Besides, I think your car may need some attention at this time.
     
  26. Jan 25, 2011
  27. 3mptyseat

    3mptyseat Quit Gambling PABnonaccred

    Occupation:
    Pressing Buttons
    Location:
    California de Norte
    LOL! U know, funny thing is, that was a holiday weekend, and I could NOT find a wrecking yard to take it, but the police had told me it had to be removed from the street bc of toxicity... So I had to store it at the tow yard til Tuesday, at which time I sold it for $220 to a pick n pull yard. Which was $115 less than the 3 day storage fees. Anyway, funny how luck runs...
     
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