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managra said:
Last Sunday, however, i made one small deposit and am still playing with it. No progressive betting, no big expectations, just for entertainment. I feel rather pleased that i have exercised a nice bit of control this week.
From what I read you havn't been gamblig for so many years, however by the sound of things I reccon you are open and admit that your gambling experience is more than a habbit than for fun. Im really camouflaging the words here, just to be nice, you know what I mean. I would also guess that you reainstalled the casino and did that small deposit bacause you do want to be able to have the share fun of wagering inside the casino, you want to have the opportunity to atleast be able to hit a lucky win. After all, by your won words - low wagers can indeed give huge payouts on slots.
I do not want to comment on the fact reinstalling the casino, since I totally understand you and where you are comming from (Mind I say and where we are going, hehe). Be strong - use the force - try having a leach on your gambling habbits online for atleast a month, if you can manage to stay alive inside online casinoes for a month on low wagerings just maby you have a working model. If you on the other hand bust out and go all-in in say a week, I would recommend that you use some time to your fourth argument, and beat yourself up and infact stay away from online gambling and rather visit landbased casinoes.
I wish all good luck on your "experiment",
been there done that, and probably will do it again some day.
Easy Money
I have another big problem here, and that is "Easy come easy go". When you don't work you ass off for the money, you will most likely blow them away like they were air. I'm speaking a little sarkastic now, for the record,
. Another problem with easy money, is that inserting that extra $100 has a legit reason, it could mean you win it all back...
Escape from problems
What you mean here is your second love? Isn't it almost like you have love affair with that slot? I have been much worse a few years ago, but I have had times where I caress the slot, talk softly to it and even slap it when not going my way. What's up with caressing and talking dirty to a slot? I know I'm not the only one...
But absolutely, you escape your problems. Whatever is happening on the outside, for me entering the Casino is going into a Vacuum. All my problems, all my concerns - everything - is left outside. Inside it's all about me, and the sexy slot which will open up for me so to speak... Many of the Online Casinoes are referring to "Lady Luck" in the emails sendt to me, I wonder why luck has to be a she? A very powerful analogy since we know that gambling addicts have a very tight relationship with their thrusted slots...
Beat myself up
Well, I totally agree. The times I have used a "gambling gone bad" incident to make life misserable for myself, countless. The later years however I have become imune and will just shrug my shulders, I have come to the point where I really don't care anymore. By this I mean that I do not care to beat myself up anymore, since I have realized it doesnt help, and that if I just had used my brain (Which by the way always is left behind outside the casino) I would have no reason to beat myself up in the first place. I therefore deside not to cry over spilt milk, and rather try not to do the same mistake next time. And I do try to alter habbits, meaning if there was one particular slot that killed me - i'll stay away from that slot!
I have a theory that you to managra, if not already, will come to the same stage I'm at - where beating up becomes no more than a shrug on you shoulders and you telling yourself a simple "Damn, I did it again.. Oh well, Ill get a bear and a cigarette instead...".
Winning = Loosing
This cannot be stressed enough. Ask any gambling addicts how their "gambling career" started... I would guess they all would tell you the same story... I was sitting there playing for fun for some pennies I had after buing a beer, and WOW I won like a 1000 bucks! Incredible! I didnt feel the urge to play more and celebrated, next week I was there again and since I won 1000 bucks, I desided to play for 100 bucks - after all I still had a great win. And what do you know! I won again, I won 1000 more bucks!
Now we are at the breaking point, the point where the gambling addicts eggs are hatched...
A potential gambling addict would after that second win be convinced that this infact is a very easy way to gain money, and at the moment this was the easiest 2000 bucks ever! For the next machine it would be OK to wager atleast 1000 bucks, after all it was so easy winning that first 1000. And then it happends, you loose a 1000. Damn, how annoying... How stupid of me, habba habba chu chu. Since it was so easy winning a 1000, and the machine just ate 1000, this means that there has to be just a few spins for the 1000 to appear - or even better since it ate so much mabe 2000 win come instead. You argue with your brain that it could possible be a smart idea to insert the other 1000 bucks aswell in hope of getting back the first 1000, after all this was a dumb idea.
In a little while you will probably have lost all the 2000 bucks, and by this you have learned a valuable lesson - or you new career has just been started!
Ain't this fun people,