Baconsandwich
Dormant account
- Joined
- Dec 18, 2012
- Location
- California, USA
Hello everyone ~ I know I have a gambling obsession, it comes and goes. I'm in my mid 20's, I have a 40k~/year job in California and don't have many expenses.
Let me just talk about my history.
About 2-3 years ago I turned 21 and went to Las Vegas, at first I only wanted to gamble because I wasn't old enough prior to this trip and it sucked because all my friends are older and I had to sit in the sidelines... So this was my first real trip so I brought $500 just to gamble with. I would have been totally fine losing it all, after all - it was just for the experience (I spend so much more on other things on that trip anyways).
I played some BJ (without knowledge of basic strategy).. And randomly went to whatever slot machine caught my eye - It was fun. Then I won a 1k jackpot (beginners luck =D) I gave about half of it back to Vegas before leaving.. So I won about 400-500$ on my first trip.. Not bad!
I like to be knowledgeable about any of my endeavors so I was naturally curious on how to play blackjack properly, and how to be the 'best kind of gambler.' - I found this website called vegasclick.com (A fantastic website... I can't say enough good things about it even to this day.) I learned what to avoid, how to bet smart, how to play blackjack.. etc.
That website advertises the accredited online casino Bodog (now called Bovada).. So with my new 'knowledge' I wanted to immediately put it to 'use'.. I was a conservative person.. I naturally thought all online casinos are suspect. So I just deposited $20 into this RTG casino and see how it goes.
I played $.20 spins and $1 hands at blackjack, and had a great time, it lasted me an hour or two. So I had no problem depositing $80 more just for fun. I stayed at .20 spins like usual and $1 hands. That lasted the whole day.
The next weekend I deposited about $50 and was craving some slots. Still only doing .20 spins, I managed to get a spin bonus on Enchanted Garden that put me up to about $175... that was insane. But then I wondered to myself... what if I had bet .40 instead? Or $1 on that spin? This is where it began..
I started betting $1 per spin and quickly lost the entire bankroll, I deposited $200 and would vow to stop if I hit a bonus.. I wasn't addicted at the time. Soon enough I hit the bonus and that $200 became something like $400.. I actually cashed that amount and didn't play for a month or so.
I had finally received the money from Bovada, and what better way to celebrate then to play a bit more? I deposited half of that money and just settled for nothing less than $1 spins and $5-$10 hands in blackjack... I lost it all in 30 minutes. Then I deposited $200 more and it lasted me the rest of the night before losing all of it again. I was even up $7k at one point.. AND LOST IT ALL THE SAME DAY!
I WAS ADDICTED! From then until now I have been playing on and off... but each time I did I lost a ton of money, I have made some cash outs, a few of them being $1000-3000 - But in the end... I am about $10-15k in the hole in gambling in a couple years of playing. I am about 6k in debt (About 3k from gambling).
I wonder if somehow convincing myself to be a lowroller ($.20 spins and $1 hands) would solve much of this problem.. Because as I recall I had more fun when it was that way it was the entertainment cost if anything.
What should I do? Should I just focus on quitting online casinos altogether? B&M casinos are not the the problem here and I will continue to keep going to those, because losing $200-400 every few months is doing nothing more than a slight dent.
SUGGESTIONS? Sorry this post is very long... But I really need to stop this. I haaaaate being in debt...
Thank you for reading.
Let me just talk about my history.
About 2-3 years ago I turned 21 and went to Las Vegas, at first I only wanted to gamble because I wasn't old enough prior to this trip and it sucked because all my friends are older and I had to sit in the sidelines... So this was my first real trip so I brought $500 just to gamble with. I would have been totally fine losing it all, after all - it was just for the experience (I spend so much more on other things on that trip anyways).
I played some BJ (without knowledge of basic strategy).. And randomly went to whatever slot machine caught my eye - It was fun. Then I won a 1k jackpot (beginners luck =D) I gave about half of it back to Vegas before leaving.. So I won about 400-500$ on my first trip.. Not bad!
I like to be knowledgeable about any of my endeavors so I was naturally curious on how to play blackjack properly, and how to be the 'best kind of gambler.' - I found this website called vegasclick.com (A fantastic website... I can't say enough good things about it even to this day.) I learned what to avoid, how to bet smart, how to play blackjack.. etc.
That website advertises the accredited online casino Bodog (now called Bovada).. So with my new 'knowledge' I wanted to immediately put it to 'use'.. I was a conservative person.. I naturally thought all online casinos are suspect. So I just deposited $20 into this RTG casino and see how it goes.
I played $.20 spins and $1 hands at blackjack, and had a great time, it lasted me an hour or two. So I had no problem depositing $80 more just for fun. I stayed at .20 spins like usual and $1 hands. That lasted the whole day.
The next weekend I deposited about $50 and was craving some slots. Still only doing .20 spins, I managed to get a spin bonus on Enchanted Garden that put me up to about $175... that was insane. But then I wondered to myself... what if I had bet .40 instead? Or $1 on that spin? This is where it began..
I started betting $1 per spin and quickly lost the entire bankroll, I deposited $200 and would vow to stop if I hit a bonus.. I wasn't addicted at the time. Soon enough I hit the bonus and that $200 became something like $400.. I actually cashed that amount and didn't play for a month or so.
I had finally received the money from Bovada, and what better way to celebrate then to play a bit more? I deposited half of that money and just settled for nothing less than $1 spins and $5-$10 hands in blackjack... I lost it all in 30 minutes. Then I deposited $200 more and it lasted me the rest of the night before losing all of it again. I was even up $7k at one point.. AND LOST IT ALL THE SAME DAY!
I WAS ADDICTED! From then until now I have been playing on and off... but each time I did I lost a ton of money, I have made some cash outs, a few of them being $1000-3000 - But in the end... I am about $10-15k in the hole in gambling in a couple years of playing. I am about 6k in debt (About 3k from gambling).
I wonder if somehow convincing myself to be a lowroller ($.20 spins and $1 hands) would solve much of this problem.. Because as I recall I had more fun when it was that way it was the entertainment cost if anything.
What should I do? Should I just focus on quitting online casinos altogether? B&M casinos are not the the problem here and I will continue to keep going to those, because losing $200-400 every few months is doing nothing more than a slight dent.
SUGGESTIONS? Sorry this post is very long... But I really need to stop this. I haaaaate being in debt...
Thank you for reading.