Ever felt like committing suicide?..

[bryand]

This topic brings to mind the guy that tried to kill himself by going over Niagara Falls but had second thoughts and then gets his feet caught beteen the rocks near the cliff. Would be my luck if I tried.....

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[Fleur-De-Lis]

......and if you look like only 50% of your new icon..... you
only need to give me your address....and toghether we will "fight "the depression......

Kakata... you should be French. Are you?
Your post made me smile and feel confident, even if for an instance. I used this avatar in all other (non-gambling)forums I ever frequented. I do not look this spectacular, I am afraid (photo is in profile)

 

[kakata]

Kakata... you should be French. Are you?
Your post made me smile and feel confident, even if for an instance. I used this avatar in all other (non-gambling)forums I ever frequented. I do not look this spectacular, I am afraid (photo is in profile)

Well Im Italian (nobody is perfect).
Ive had a look at your profile....Im already on my way to Cyprus.

Be ready to divorce if you are married.....lol
Love you.....
Dont worry you will go thru this, maybe you will have some more of this very sad times too, I hope not, for you.
Ive been thru it several times...
Im sure u are not married,why I Know? I dont know.
BTW you can PM me as you can PM all the FRIENDS you already have on this forum.....we will be there 4 you.
We, the gamblers, are worth more than that.....
Ciao

PS
hope you undearsteand my english.

 

[james01]

I don't have a lot of experience with this, but often the people who chase thrills and then get deeply disappointed suffer from bipolar disorder.

Gambling is only one symptom of the problem. Often the problem cannot be solved with just gambling help. Often the only way to resolve the problem is to receive adequate therapy, sometimes including medication.

For those who are wondering, Tamtam is off gambling, but had to go on prozac because she was experiencing very bad cycles of hypomania and depression. She's not the only person I know who had this kind of problem and gambling became a big symptom.

Weirdly, the other was a teenage boy whose parents are kind of friends of mine. He got stuck on skiball and other arcade games like that, and wasted about a hundred Euros that he'd borrowed from friends. He got really scared about paying back his friends. Fortunately, his little sister was snooping around in his room and found the rope before he had a chance to hang himself. He spent about 3 weeks in a hospital, and he's been in therapy since (about 2 years). It's scary - I mean it's an arcade, not a casino!

 

[GaryWatson]

Kakata... you should be French. Are you?
Your post made me smile and feel confident, even if for an instance. I used this avatar in all other (non-gambling)forums I ever frequented. I do not look this spectacular, I am afraid (photo is in profile)

Definately a french look going on there, class. I am not from the English part of the UK, you are allowed to like us

 

[Matthew23]

With gambling you are guaranteed to experience lows. The only option here is to quit 100%. Do not make even one more bet whether it's with free money or your own. You only need to make one bet to trigger that part of the brain that says 'MORE'.

About committing suicide - when I was a teenager I suffered very badly from OCD. It controlled every second of my life. My life was dominated by maths, colours and bizar pointless routines both mental and physical. An object sitting in the wrong place would make me feel ill. I remember thinking I was insane. Suicide definitely crossed my mind as I believed there was no other way out.

Anyway, here I am 10 years later and my life has completly changed. My OCD is 99% gone and I am a very happy person who enjoys life very much, infact I can't get enough!

It made me realize that no matter how depressed someone might feel, no matter what the problem is, things can turn around dramatically in such a short space of time. In your case I believe ture happiness can only begin once you quit gambling. Hopefully you'll find something you enjoy 10 times more than gambling and that doesn't contain 'lows'.

I really hope things work out for you and you get the help you need! I wish you all the best!!

 

[LOOKAWAY]

Brian, SlotMonster, guys - thank you. Sorry if my post was offensive or against forum rules or ethics. Truly, my only excuse is that I had no other place to go than this forum, no other people to turn to - everybody I know in 'real' offline world have no idea I am a gambler... May be in my case it is not so much about gambling but about self-destruction in general: everything I do, I do in excess. If i crave ice-cream, I'd buy 3 or 4 at a time

P.S. And yes, I am a 'she'

Blimey Fleur De Lis you do sound like me i am mr excess and in that i dont think your problem is gambling.

I was going to mention if you feel like biting the big one dont! rob a bank get high and go on a bender any thing is better than biting the big nothing.

But i fear that the excess problem would lead to a bonnie and clyde situation and alot off bank clerks seeing shrinks for life.

Not to mention your life sentance

Just look at it this way if you got left with nothing from a gambling problem something is everything and play that to the max.

My self i didnt realy have the right genetics to be mr excessive and i lasted to i was sixteen and three quaters now 28 and gambling is all i got left problay why you may see me refered or tagged as a illiterate retard alot

 

[lauram]

Hi sweetie how you feeling today. Remember today is dif day then yesterday and so on. One foot forward and yes sorry to say times 4 feet back and then again forward. Go with the punches duck when you can but rmbr we are here to chat if you need us. Im sure there are alot of us on here disgusted with ourself and so on so smile sweetie your not in members 1 only group.

 

[Jasminebed]

Geez I'm Frank

Well, just entered my fifitieth year (hate to say I am forty-nine) and I have had depression problems since my childhood. Gambling can be an addiction the same as many other vices. Following my mother's death in 1990 and a failed marriage I had not dealt with 1988, partly because my mom was dying by little bits & pieces, as a single parent my gambling did not make me feel good about myself. But there has always been somebody in my life that my death would hurt enough that I would not go there.

I was suicidial in my twenties, before gambling. But the escapism of gambling is seductive.

Now I save to gamble, and I am fighting for my life, and to be a really cool grandma.

Money or debts are not worth dying over. To have the strength to not hurt those who love you is important, even if you have to admit your flaws.

 

[bb28]

Jasmine.........your post was very touching and it's very brave of you to post such an honest response. My hat is off to you and I'm sure that someone besides me will read it and will be inspired by it.
Keep hanging in there!

 

[ballysdb]

I too understand chasing the thrills...

I do most things to excess, gamble, drink, eat, sleep.

I have been in therapy for a year now and it's been so very helpful. I tend to love chaos. If my life is chaotic I don't have to think about things. It's complicated but what I want to say is that just being "self aware" as my therapist says, has helped me 1000%!

For example I went on a date with a guy last week that I dated a year ago. Last year he would be all about me and then not call. My therapist said "why go into the same situations expecting different results?"

So guess what? We were supposed to go to a party today. He has not called. I am not upset in the least. I believe this is because of the hard work I am doing in therapy.

Sorrry to go on about me. I just wanted to make the point that sometimes just being still is hard for some people and yes, it's possible I have a mental illness. It's something I am willing to check into to see if I need meds.

Mental Illness is just that, an illness. Nothing to be ashamed of.

BTW...my sisters fiancee killed himself back in '94. He was mentally ill. The aftermath is not good.

God Bless...

 

[GaryWatson]

Gambling can affect your seratonin levels. The extreme highs and lows wear away at your natural defenses. It is a medical thing. It can often be helped by replacing the lost seratonin through medication. Often the loss of cash and the worry that brings with its compounds the situation. Exercise is a good way to naturally build back up your defenses and bring back that feel good factor. Maybe its a good time to replace one habit for another.

 

[happygobrokey]

...Maybe its a good time to replace one habit for another.

read: :xxx

 

[GaryWatson]

read: :xxx

erm, thats not what I meant but it does the trick lol
All kinds of physical activity with boost your seratonin levels, as long as your schedule is not too rigerous.

 

[kauphy]

o.k i have 3 things to say. one if you do kill urself and u get to the other side and u find that u hate it more then anything well now ur stuck and you can,t come back but u can,t change anything eather. at least here u can change things and the way u feel its all a state of mind. 2. i just had a baby 2 months ago the most perttest little thing u ever saw but he was borned with down sydome i went thought 2 weeks of living hell trying to deal with the guilt and pain of what i thought i had done to his life but never once did i think of leaving that way almost had a nervos brakedown but still never thought of doing that was told i should go on meds but not that type so i tied a knot at the end of my rope and talked to the people i love and people i did,nt even know until i found the will inside of myself to deal with how i felt and i talked to god alot alot lot and he listened and help wheather or not u belive in a higher power find something u can hold on to and then hold on with all ur might. 3. my brother was a drugie for almost all his life he has been clean now for 2 years with the help of alot of people he went thought open heart sug and has been in and out of the hospital and with all that has happened to him since he got clean, the hospital.devoice after 27 years lost almost everything u would think he would have fallen and went back to the drugs but no still clean and loving life when u almost lose something that u can never get back or say ur sorrie for then u learn to love urself for everything that u are ur falts and ur good points everything that makes u u and that sometimes means feeling like u can,t go on but take today as one little step and smile one little smile and u will find it will get easyer with each passing day we love u and will be parying for u

 

[james01]

There's an expression "True happiness doesn't come from the people around you - it comes from within."

I like to say "True happiness doesn't come from the people around you. It comes from seratonin and dopamine in your brain"

Seriously, if you're having suicidal thoughts, medicine is your best friend. And if the first one doesn't work, try a second, a third, a fourth, etc.

I think it took me 6 different medications to get one that worked for me. Before that, I'd have weeks when all I could do was lie in bed and watch tv.

 

[anniemac]

Has anyone heard from Fleur-de-lis? Kinda wondering about her.

 

[kakata]

Has anyone heard from Fleur-de-lis? Kinda wondering about her.

she is okay watching Italy lose to Spain on penalty Kicks....damn.

 

[Fleur-De-Lis]

I got so many truly kind and considerate personal messages... I was overwhelmed. Thanks to all of you.

P.S. https://www.casinomeister.com/forums/threads/russia-is-in-euro2008-semi-finals.25379/
And kakata - penalties are so close to gambling, really. Please do not take it hard

 

[james01]

F-D-L: I hope you're feeling better.

I've been depressed and it's really horrible. I hope that other than the help you're getting in here, you're getting some professional help. We all care and want to help, but we're not professionals.

 

[babs7262]

Hiya Fleur

Sorry I took so long to respond but its a sensitive question and I wanted time to think. I also didnt read alot of what others said so not to be influenced in my opinion or end up derailing .

IMO...I never feel its one reason for thoughts of suicide. I feel that there is something else going on in your life that is making you "depress gamble" which makes you probably lose and make things worse. Maybe you are gambling because you "think" its gonna put you in a better mood but in reality if you gamble while depressed it makes you make bad decisions on your play choice (like betting too high or playing the wrong game because you like that particular game and you think it will put you in a better mood)

Just like any vice, whether it be gambling, shopping or eating it all comes down to the same thing , You wanna feel better. Except in the case of gambling it could be worse because more is at stake. You can only eat so much before you get sick or do so many drugs until you get so high. THere really isnt a stop point in gaming because those type of side effects dont exist.

Bryan is right, take his advice and look at his links to get to the root of the problem because its never the vice, its the reason for the vice. I truly hope you get some help and some peace in your life

 

[Fleur-De-Lis]

babs7262, thank you for a very thoughtful post.
You are certainly right, in more than one aspects. If a person is truly desperate/suicidal, it must be more than just losing money or being addicted to gambling. It is more about feeling that life in general is meaningless, yourself is totally worthless, and isolation is like complete...

My personal problem is that I am what one poster called 'an addictive personality'. Another valid point may be that I guess I started gambling for all the wrong reasons - i.e. not to gain few bucks, and not for entertainment either, but to fill up the void I had been hurting from... some very private drama Started this way, it could lead to no good, only to cause more pain and kick-start self-destruction behaviour... unless I try and re-evaluate my attitude to gambling and re-adjust my gambling-related financial arrangements. Funny, but I still am not ready to quit

P.S. I am out of any immediate danger, that's for sure. Thanks go to all posters who participated in this thread, to all members who sent me messages with advice, own stories and showed sympathy, to all who voted (I am not alone, sic!). Special thanks to Enzo who spent over an hour in chat with me and making me feel no longer isolated. Thanks to EURO-2008 and short-lived but still exciting miracle presented by a Russian team...

P.P.S. And finally, the last thing which made me stop and think, happened just yesterday when I took my son to the beach. I saw a foreign-looking couple there, obviously tourists, in swimsuits, looking relaxed and content. They were about 50-something, and - how to say it without sounding pathetic? - the lady had no arms. For God's sake... one look at her, and I felt SO ashamed of being SO selfish and low, demanding much from life, and not apprreciating what I have already got...
...I do not think I need to elaborate on this...
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[james01]

F-D-L: There was an episode of Ally McBeal where one of the men asked Ally why she thought her problems were so special.
Her response was: because they're mine.

Sure it's important to appreciate the good things you have. But it shouldn't make you feel guilty to feel bad about your problems just because someone has it worse.

Do remember, though, that whatever your problems are, you can only solve them if you're still alive. No matter how far your back is against the wall, there's always a solution, and it never involves killing yourself. You have a son? What would he do without a mother?