I have not gambled since no, and I can prove that if need be, and yes I promise you my friend it's the single worst moment of my life I have learned a lesson and I NEVER want to be in the position again or feel this way. Yes, that's what it was because I can't leave the house I try and escape my problems, but I do need support and I am seeking help now.
If 32Red refund the deposits, one thing I would be truly passionate about doing is being a regular here to help addicts like myself, I think being "an addict" I can relate and I can help a lot of people. I know God put me on this earth to help some how, and I think this is now what I can do to really make a difference in this world, constantly recovering and also helping others like myself to recover from this and at all costs not to get in the position I am in.
No, you won't help anyone unless you decide to stop gamble. You're no victim. You have a choice and you've had it every time you started playing..
Being in here is not a way to recover at all. Maybe when you've been free from gambling and have learned how it works you can advice others, but that will take time. Time that you should use to learn how to live without being a gambler.
Self exclusion won't work until you decide you want to quit. Make the decision and stick with it. Nothing else is important and certainly not the money.
Just read the decision. I guess you won't rest with this but seek other ways to get the money. Well good luck with that because I trust 32Red knows exactly what they are doing, and they know they will win this battle.
My advice is that you accept what you have done, and see it as a way of being able to start a new life. It's your chance.