Some of that is true, but the big win part is completely wrong. I showed everyone I won £19,000 but I gambled every single penny back because of my illness. Yes, I am doing everything I can today both financially and from a recovery perspective.
I really hope that if and when 32 Red refund your money, you learn a lesson from what you have gone through and don't redeposit the money anywhere else. I assume you have not gambled since you started this thread, if that is the case, then you can manage to restrain yourself. Mark each day you don't gamble off on a calendar, as the days start to build up and you have something visually to see, your self esteem and pride will slowly return - your brain connects more with visual aids than memories.
Addictions come from attempting to fill in a part of your life with something that is missing, see your doctor and see if there is medication that can help you, even get referred to a Community Psychiatric Nurse, someone you can talk to and maybe even help you to get out the house even for the shortest time, get a support structure in place now. The start of any recovery comes from admitting you have a problem in the first place, which you have now done, I really wish you the best in your recovery journey and have my fingers crossed that you will turn your life around.