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- Jul 8, 2016
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I'm sat here feeling physically sick. I did some lessons aged 17 that was 17 years a go but stopped, I think due to nerves and it's been niggling me to start again as well as pressure from family etc.
So had a little win recently so decided to buy a bunch of lessons my first was last week, my next is tomorrow morning I'm coming out in spots and feel like I'm going to be sick haven't been sleeping properly either. Started taking rapid relief and beta blockers from the doctor to help which they do but just don't want to be taking too many. Anyway my lesson is tomorrow and another at the end of this week. I absolutely hate it but deep down I need to do this, I want to be a driver but not stuck in a car with someone telling me what to do. Even starting watching some videos on examiners and that just doubles my anxiety even more. I just keeping looking at the clock and seeing the time pass by quickly but then thinking this time tomorrow it will be over for another few days.
Only positive I passed by theory first time last week after spending 12 months revising and on my way down the stairs I cried in the test centre.
Sorry just needed to get the way I'm feeling out the way.
So had a little win recently so decided to buy a bunch of lessons my first was last week, my next is tomorrow morning I'm coming out in spots and feel like I'm going to be sick haven't been sleeping properly either. Started taking rapid relief and beta blockers from the doctor to help which they do but just don't want to be taking too many. Anyway my lesson is tomorrow and another at the end of this week. I absolutely hate it but deep down I need to do this, I want to be a driver but not stuck in a car with someone telling me what to do. Even starting watching some videos on examiners and that just doubles my anxiety even more. I just keeping looking at the clock and seeing the time pass by quickly but then thinking this time tomorrow it will be over for another few days.
Only positive I passed by theory first time last week after spending 12 months revising and on my way down the stairs I cried in the test centre.
Sorry just needed to get the way I'm feeling out the way.