Ever felt like committing suicide?..

[james01]

There's an expression "True happiness doesn't come from the people around you - it comes from within."

I like to say "True happiness doesn't come from the people around you. It comes from seratonin and dopamine in your brain"

Seriously, if you're having suicidal thoughts, medicine is your best friend. And if the first one doesn't work, try a second, a third, a fourth, etc.

I think it took me 6 different medications to get one that worked for me. Before that, I'd have weeks when all I could do was lie in bed and watch tv.

[anniemac]

Has anyone heard from Fleur-de-lis? Kinda wondering about her.

[kakata]

Has anyone heard from Fleur-de-lis? Kinda wondering about her.

she is okay watching Italy lose to Spain on penalty Kicks....damn.

[Fleur-De-Lis]

I got so many truly kind and considerate personal messages... I was overwhelmed. Thanks to all of you.

P.S. http://www.casinomeister.com/forums/...mi-finals.html
And kakata - penalties are so close to gambling, really. Please do not take it hard

[james01]

F-D-L: I hope you're feeling better.

I've been depressed and it's really horrible. I hope that other than the help you're getting in here, you're getting some professional help. We all care and want to help, but we're not professionals.

[babs7262]

Hiya Fleur

Sorry I took so long to respond but its a sensitive question and I wanted time to think. I also didnt read alot of what others said so not to be influenced in my opinion or end up derailing .

IMO...I never feel its one reason for thoughts of suicide. I feel that there is something else going on in your life that is making you "depress gamble" which makes you probably lose and make things worse. Maybe you are gambling because you "think" its gonna put you in a better mood but in reality if you gamble while depressed it makes you make bad decisions on your play choice (like betting too high or playing the wrong game because you like that particular game and you think it will put you in a better mood)

Just like any vice, whether it be gambling, shopping or eating it all comes down to the same thing , You wanna feel better. Except in the case of gambling it could be worse because more is at stake. You can only eat so much before you get sick or do so many drugs until you get so high. THere really isnt a stop point in gaming because those type of side effects dont exist.

Bryan is right, take his advice and look at his links to get to the root of the problem because its never the vice, its the reason for the vice. I truly hope you get some help and some peace in your life

[Fleur-De-Lis]

babs7262, thank you for a very thoughtful post.
You are certainly right, in more than one aspects. If a person is truly desperate/suicidal, it must be more than just losing money or being addicted to gambling. It is more about feeling that life in general is meaningless, yourself is totally worthless, and isolation is like complete...

My personal problem is that I am what one poster called 'an addictive personality'. Another valid point may be that I guess I started gambling for all the wrong reasons - i.e. not to gain few bucks, and not for entertainment either, but to fill up the void I had been hurting from... some very private drama Started this way, it could lead to no good, only to cause more pain and kick-start self-destruction behaviour... unless I try and re-evaluate my attitude to gambling and re-adjust my gambling-related financial arrangements. Funny, but I still am not ready to quit

P.S. I am out of any immediate danger, that's for sure. Thanks go to all posters who participated in this thread, to all members who sent me messages with advice, own stories and showed sympathy, to all who voted (I am not alone, sic!). Special thanks to Enzo who spent over an hour in chat with me and making me feel no longer isolated. Thanks to EURO-2008 and short-lived but still exciting miracle presented by a Russian team...

P.P.S. And finally, the last thing which made me stop and think, happened just yesterday when I took my son to the beach. I saw a foreign-looking couple there, obviously tourists, in swimsuits, looking relaxed and content. They were about 50-something, and - how to say it without sounding pathetic? - the lady had no arms. For God's sake... one look at her, and I felt SO ashamed of being SO selfish and low, demanding much from life, and not apprreciating what I have already got...
...I do not think I need to elaborate on this...
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[james01]

F-D-L: There was an episode of Ally McBeal where one of the men asked Ally why she thought her problems were so special.
Her response was: because they're mine.

Sure it's important to appreciate the good things you have. But it shouldn't make you feel guilty to feel bad about your problems just because someone has it worse.

Do remember, though, that whatever your problems are, you can only solve them if you're still alive. No matter how far your back is against the wall, there's always a solution, and it never involves killing yourself. You have a son? What would he do without a mother?