i cant handle this anymore...

[Osloking]

Hello everyone, (sorry for my english!) I do not know why I tell you this but I think I'd feel better if I just say it straight out, I'm gambling addict, I've struggled with it since I was 16 years old, it started when I pressed the acidently max bet and 3 jackpot symbols came on the line, That Feeling just ate me up, the kick inside me changed my relationship to gambling, and yes i was underage but in the mall nobody cares. I then began playing every day after school I could not believe I won 12.000kr once on 5 machines. I was happy, i tough i can get rich on it and buy my mom a house, lol (i laugh as i almost cry)

Year past and i become more and more compulsive gambler,
all I thought was how I could go gamble, and how much I missed it the feeling i got for every spinn, I did not care about others anymore, I had become a monster who gave a damn about their life.
I'm skipping school to go gamble, I went into every store that had machines, then came poker online and online casino.


Today, 8 years later I have a debt of 200,000 (U.S. dollars) ownes nothing Than my choltes and this computer. Calculated my lost in 8 years and that was 650,000 (U.S. dollars) I started working at 14 years old in a restaurant and build my self up, 90 percent of my money was going to gambling, no matter what.

Just look at this, last night i played on Betsson depositted 300 Euro as my last money for the month i got this amazing 900 euro on gonzos quest with 1 euro bet and won another 1000 euro on the piggy riches, and what idiot and retard person would play it all it back? ME, i hate my self, i cant really handle my self.

I pray every day to god that he can just delete all the gambling mood inside me and help me to just forget about it, i have amazing girlfirend who is model i have a mother who is painter and really nice friends.

i have lied to my family and my girl so many times, i just cant live with this guilt anymore, i have tryied everything to stop, i just register on new casino with new card and im back again, gameblock will not be the thing as i play on my friend pc or at work, i will do what ever to play, the devil inside me is so strong that nothing will stop it.

One thing i learned about my self is that i cant lose, if i lose i wake the devil inside me or if i win i must win and if i win i want to win more, hunger for more.. its like the worst attitude to the gambling one can have, i have very good mathematic skills, with that i know im stupid to play slot but i always want to beat the odds.

anyway thank you guys if you read and come with something i can do for me to stop gambling.

[rainmaker]

Hello and thanks for telling us this.


The first step is to admit that you are having a problem with gambling.

There are different places where you can get helpt. Do you live in Norway ?

Anyway, the first thing you can do now, is to send a mail to betsson, and to all of the other casinos you are having an account, and exclude yourself from gamling.


By the way, if you want to, you can send me a PM. If you are from Norway (since your nickname is "OSLOking" then we could write in Norwegian But your english is good.

[Nate]

Hi Oslo,

Thank you for sharing your story. It is very important that you send emails to the casinos and specify that you have a gambling problem. As Gamblers, I (and im sure many other forum members) sympathise with your situation. I have seen many problem gamblers and they have found it extremely difficult to kill the beast.

Casinos in General only practice and market their responsible gambling programs because it is the norm and the 'politically / morally' correct thing to do. Almost ALL Casinos make the majority of their money from problem gambling.

As you mentioned, you cannot afford to gamble and once gambling starts taking your rent and food money, its time to give it a break. I know it might be difficult for you to stop immediately, but try and limit your deposits to smaller amounts and play smaller to limit your losses.

I would suggest that you even set yourself a cashout target (a very small and reasonable one) and try to get out while you are ahead. We all play for that 'Big Hit', but in reality, it may never come. The best is to go 'Cold Turkey' and just stop playing.

I would recommend you occupy yourself with something when you feel like gambling and even go out instead of sitting at the PC.

Good Luck, I hope you are able to kill the habit, I know of many who never did and ended up losing everything.

Nate

[Osloking]

Yes i live and work in oslo i have closed my acount but i make new one on new casinos, :S yes i now have closed at 32red, betsson..

jeg snakker norsk ja im thinkin of (blå kors)

[Osloking]

Hi Oslo,

Thank you for sharing your story. It is very important that you send emails to the casinos and specify that you have a gambling problem. As Gamblers, I (and im sure many other forum members) sympathise with your situation. I have seen many problem gamblers and they have found it extremely difficult to kill the beast.

Casinos in General only practice and market their responsible gambling programs because it is the norm and the 'politically / morally' correct thing to do. Almost ALL Casinos make the majority of their money from problem gambling.

As you mentioned, you cannot afford to gamble and once gambling starts taking your rent and food money, its time to give it a break. I know it might be difficult for you to stop immediately, but try and limit your deposits to smaller amounts and play smaller to limit your losses.

I would suggest that you even set yourself a cashout target (a very small and reasonable one) and try to get out while you are ahead. We all play for that 'Big Hit', but in reality, it may never come. The best is to go 'Cold Turkey' and just stop playing.

I would recommend you occupy yourself with something when you feel like gambling and even go out instead of sitting at the PC.

Good Luck, I hope you are able to kill the habit, I know of many who never did and ended up losing everything.

Nate

Thank you for your understanding, my family and my rest of friends and girlfriend seems not to understand, like my mom says how difficult is this to just stop, i meen this gambling addict is far more addict than cocaine or something, but i feel like nobody in my near understand what this is. i was a bitt better for 3 months ago suddenly got a bonus from new casino and there i was back. i dont have respect for my money anymore like i had before, like my father told me if you sweat for your money you will never throw your money.

[rainmaker]

Yes i live and work in oslo i have closed my acount but i make new one on new casinos, :S yes i now have closed at 32red, betsson..

jeg snakker norsk ja im thinkin of (blå kors)

Blå kors would be a solution yes. But I would recomend that you took a phonecall to your doctors office today, and made an appointment. Tell them that you want help as fast as possible. You would probably get an appoinment very fast.

It is very important that you really want to quit. To limit you deposits and gambling is no solution for an addict. You need to quick gamling completely. No one can help you, unless you want to help yourself.

If you really want to quit, then it is a good advise to involve your friends/family and girlfriend.

A simple advice, is to close all of your card. All you need is one debet card. This card should be a "electron" card, not a VISA card. Call your bank and tell them that you would like a electron card instead of a VISA. This would limit your possibility to play.

[deucebag]

First of all you have to make the decision to stop gambling. It doesn't sound like you've really made up your mind. Make a list of the pros and cons, and make a decision about whether you want to continue gambling.

If you decide to stop gambling there are other things you can do to make it a little more troublesome to gamble when the urge strikes you. No 1 is to permanently close all your online accounts and state the reason-- that you have a gambling problem (otherwise they might reopen your account).

Consider getting rid of your VISA debit card and get a non-VISA/MC debit card that cannot be used online. Or just use cash. Give a trusted friend or family member control of your finances, and have them give you money as needed. This may be embarassing, but losing everything you have and more is worse.

Talk to your doctor about the problem, he can probably refer you to compulsive gambling therapists.

[Marlow]

Like any addiction, there is no "i'll just do it a little." Drug addicts can't limit their drugs to once or twice a week, or I'll only spend 50.00 on drugs this week etc. I'm afraid that you will have to either hit rock bottom (bankrutpcy) or get into the mindset (like I did) that the casino always wins in the end.

I was like you, thought I could always win more.

As of today, I haven't gambled fo 2 months. I have closed all my accounts and have asked for permanent lifetime bans at all casinos.

Now when I get the urge, I take the money I would have deposited at a casino and log in to my online banking and make an extra payment on my credit card, car payment or line of credit.

I have started to train my brain to anticipate losing instead of anticipate winning. I play a session in my head and watch my balance go down, and down until it reaches zero and I feel like shit for wasting more of my hard earned money.

Also, I hate to say it, but I read this forum to harden my hatred for online casinos. The non payment issues, the bonus issues, the slow pay issues and the NO PAY issues.

Today, I feel free. No guilt, no sadness, no anger. One day at a time.

[petro]

I've heard learning about how the RNG works can cure some compulsive gamblers.
It seems to reinforce the "you can't win" idea.

Having casinos steal your $ may help too. I lost a lot of my love for gambling when this happend to me.

[suzecat]

Stop giving your power away to addiction ................ you are smarter than your addiction, yes?