I admit it is boredom that does me in. Having been disabled and unable to work for years, I found it way to escape these walls.
Good news is I am finaly recovering from the disability . I went to work for week, but had an allergic reaction the the chemicals I worked with and was in the hospital in one week, that sucked, but during that week I did not gamble. I was so happy just to be out of this house! Also , I now know I CAN work, wich has lifted years of depression, and I have been doing interviews all month, and just had what I think was a sucessful interveiw with a very good comany. Can be stressful finding a job being a woman in a mans feild,
and having a 6 year gap on my resume. Also being 35 not 25. But Im still happy at the PROSPECT of getting out this house! I too spent everything that was extra online gambling. I hate shopping, and buy most of what I need online,lol But Instead of saving any income I made at home say torwards a home downpayment, I would just blow it. It made me depressed. I am on a break rite now, and have erased all the online casinos and have been spending my efforts into finding a job . I sold my affilaite website , as that just tempts me more to spend money,lol All I did with the earnings was gamble them anyway, though it was fun running it, in a sense it gave me something to do.
I had to look at why I was gambling so much. I know it was boredom for me,
and so I am findng ways to overcome boredom and I find the thought of sitting at this computer spending more money at this time, just makes me feel sick. It just reminds me of being bored and sick. I honestly woul still be doing it if I were still ill and no options to get out of this house. Im just thankful I am finaly feeling better
) And mabey after I get working a while , I may throw a little bit in here for fun, and have it actualy be FUN again, not something to do because there is nothing else to do
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